Cosmos #13 (Cont') | Unspoken thoughts

Let me continue about the past week. I received gifts from a friend days earlier before my day so it was a good one. And I even had a nice surprise on a Friday. I'm glad I have friends who cared, after all. But still, I haven't been able to meet one properly for a whole afternoon meal out and have lengthy chats. It feels like I'm missing out on life. On one hand, I wanna spend more time thinking about what I wanna do, and not waste too much time about socialising since, it didn't help me that much. When you're at this stage of your life, you're probably trying to figure things out badly, and your realised having a few friends is just good enough. The rest that you know of are just acquaintances waiting to see when you can be a laughing stock. The world is a harsh reality. Everyone around just wanna make comparison and see who's the winner. It's an endless game that is so unhealthy which makes you get so sick of life. What's so good about mixing around with people? Fake people? (¬_¬) I'm so tired enough of facing people. Really tire out.

I really hope to have a break or else at best live my simple life in a deserted island without having to worry much. Who cares about the money! Money is the devil! It made us so stressed up about living. I hate to make it a consideration in my life. It's so hard to get everything balanced. Everything needs money it's disgusting. I hate how we have to be bound by it. We are all struggling just to survive. I dislike living in this era. I almost dislike everything now. I hate how helpless I can get. Why are my strengths so limited? Why do I have to lead a life like that? Why do we always have to be bullied? Why do people go for what benefits them and scorn and look down on others so easily? I'm not there to see your face and keep accommodating to your nasty ways. It's so hard to do things when you don't have the position and authority. This world is sick! Humans are the source of problems. I wanna stop having angry thoughts of them which tensed me up so much. How I wished, if I can throw some eggs at some of them to vent. No but it can only appear in my thoughts. (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)


I'm so angry now that I might need to calm down. ⋋_⋌ Okay, let's just see what I've got.

As for these skincare and cosmetics stuffs, I bought them for myself though. Hehe. I was waiting to get something new for myself in a long time! But the drugstore I frequent isn't near me anymore so I have to go to another one in which I'm not a member of at all (wasted). I'm just sad that the essence cosmetics are getting lesser and harder to find. They are good and cheap brand in which I'll recommend. I love using their products and still sticking to it until now. I hope they can be here for a long time and continue doing more. I have been buying their limited editions and I still enjoy it. Made me feel so excited each time. If anyone knows me, you would have known that I'm really a fan of their cosmetics now. haha.

Yes, and time to really sit and think and do more brain exercises whatever about life.