Those Kagrra, dates...

I was so busy and didn't have enough time to put up the tweets here on those special days until that I have to accumulate them all now. Starting from the 3rd of June [in which I have called it the Kotodama day] and to isshi's death on the 18 July.

I wonder did Nao really refer to Kagrra's Kisai. He seemed to like it suddenly. lol.

I think it's probably the first time I mentioned about Tanabata day on my tweet on that day itself too. And together with Kagrra, song. haha.

Whatever Nao says is exactly what I wanted to say too from my heart. I am so touched every time he remembers to tweet about it. I feel his bond with isshi is a true one, as a friend and as a band member. I can imagine isshi's face up there telling us how great life has been, and that we shouldn't worry. But for one thing I'm still afraid tears will well up in my eyes. I have gotten over it mostly, but I'm still afraid to feel sad. I'm also wondering, would I be able to tell my other half [if I ever met one] that how isshi has an impact on me and how important he is to me. I will want to carry on writing things for him. I don't know if I can ever be honest and be accepted for this. It's no big deal maybe. But it's really a lot to me. I won't wanna stop my love and admiration for him at all.

That goes for my feelings again.

I hope I have time to get my pen down for lyrics. I'm about to not having any mood somehow. (,_,)

Songs that made me teared

Didn't mean to talk about something sad, but it was when I came across this Buck-tick song that made me feel so sad I teared naturally I thought I should have a post about this. There are many songs that made me feel sad but to let me tear or cry it's just not that easy. These few are the ones that went into my heart emotionally and I felt the pain. I have no idea why but it just happens. I just hope I won't be crying whenever I listen to them until that I'm afraid of them like I used to for Kagrra,.


● Ayu - HEAVEN

● Kagrra, - 終焉の季節 Shuuen no Kisetsu

● BUCK-TICK - Not Found

For HEAVEN and Shuuen no Kisetsu, they sure are songs about death. Not Found is a bit more complex. It's not obvious whether it's a death song but the moment I heard it it pierce into my heart for some reason. I would interpret this as a death song to me, as though someone has left and is not found as we would like.

Well, this is what I get for being this emotional. I do have written a death song sometime last year? Now I wonder if I'm afraid to release this myself. I hope, despite all the sadness that has given me the inspiration, I feel better after that and cherish all that I've got.

I wanna do things with all my heart as you know..

The different feeling...

Have missed out earlier in February to mention about Izumi's birthday on the 11th. Oh well, what else but to tweet to Nao about it? lol. I'm glad he tweets on those special dates and I believe he does keep track of them better than I do. Sometimes I only realised it's a special day only when it comes, or when I saw on my twitter timeline. Nooooo I didn't mean to forget! I got them written on my calendar! The only date that I've missed out is the disbandment day. Other than that, I'm not guilty of anything I swear! (x_x)

Okay~ although it's quite plain, but the colourful hearts win isn't it? xD

But yeah I haven't been listening to Kagrra as much as those days last year. Since I'm into Buck tick as my inspiration source. I don't know is it something that I have to be guilty of after all. I mean, we should explore others too and that doesn't mean that I've forgotten what I love most nor does it mean I don't care about Kagrra, anymore.

But recently, probably it's been a little too long that I haven't touch on Kagrra, until that I couldn't form any words I wanted to say on the 3rd March that day...

All I did was to retweet from Japanese fans and from Nao. I don't know what else to say. Yeah it's been 5 years since that day but I just can't say it out. Maybe because it's the day where disbanded so it's something sad for me that I don't wanna recall? I don't even know why myself.. I was feeling kind out of place too when I went to listen Haru Urara and some other Kagrra songs and then...

the feeling is really different!!

Maybe because of the different genre and mood that Buck tick gives and so when I'm back to Kagrra, the feeling is somewhat something I have to adjust back?  And then because of that, I feel sad again. Is this something I have to be guilty of after all? (ó﹏ò｡)

Well I hope no one blames me, although most of the time I'm the one who blames myself. It doesn't help too right? Unless I can change that.

I wanted to write those lyrics that I'm proud of again. But inspiration is evil. It comes and goes as fast as the wind. It's hard for me to catch it on time. ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡


Well then, the only thing now is to make sure that Buck tick helps me as good as what Kagrra did. And to end this post happily,

I started off my March month in a really good mood.

Beer has helped me a lot too haha. 

I might be ready for more...

I will do my best!　力のかぎり頑張ろう！

My Top 10 Kagrra, songs with pvs

I was looking back at my Top 10 Kagrra, songs and somehow I think it wasn't truly the correct list for me?  Lol. But there's just too many of my Kagrra favourite songs and so I'm back feeling that it may not be the true reflection of my heart. Oh wells, maybe I can get them all figured out again some time later. It's too hard to squeeze a top 10 when you love over 90% of your favourite band songs. lol. Anyway, I shall proceed with this list of favourites with pvs!

Top 10 favourite Kagrra, songs with pvs
01. 憶 Omou
02. 「叫び」 Sakebi ✿
03. し、み、め、ゆ、き、さ、あ Shi Mi Me Yu Ki Sa A ✿
04. 沙羅双樹の子護唄 Sarasouju no Komoriuta
05. 皐月 Satsuki ✿
06. 愁 Urei
07. 恋綴魂 Kotodama
08. 春麗ら Haru Urara
09. 月下想葬 Gekkasousou ✿
10. 夢イズル地 Yume Izuru Chi

My favourites probably change slightly a little over the years. That's due to the music if I keep listening and also the lyrics when I really read them and feel it. Satsuki is the one with the big change in me I still remember. I don't know what's got into me sometimes. I didn't really like this song back then, and so it's just a few listens for me when I started as a Kagrra, fan. But earlier this year I fall in love with it suddenly. I can feel isshi, and then I can even wrote something like it too. It's probably the only song that I wanna convey my feelings out so badly and yet I couldn't quite do so. And of course it's something beautiful still. =)

I'm glad with Kagrra, I've found my direction this year. Knowing them better is also the same as knowing myself better too. When I can write more, experience more and feel more. No matter how hard a day is, how bad I have felt for the day, there's always Kagrra with me that get me up again.

It's only here where I can be myself.

Thank you, my isshi-sama. ♥

My Top 10 Kagrra, songs

My turn to do my favourites post!! [Continue from Shua's]

Have to put a Kagrra pic and it's a snowy one cos December is coming soon~~ despite that I'm not even ready for it yet. (¬_¬) lol.

Top 10 favourite Kagrra, songs
01. 憶 Omou
02. 「叫び」 Sakebi ✿
03. 悲文 Hifumi ✿
04. 歎きの詩 Nageki no Uta
05. 皐月 Satsuki ✿
06. 幻惑の情景 Genwaku no Joukei ✿
07. 終焉の季節 Shuuen no Kisetsu ✿
08. 詠 Uta
09. 維新 Ishin
10. 碧の葬列 Ao no Soretsu ✿

Putting them in order is indeed hard!! I took some time to decide which are the ones that meant more to me so as to come up with this list. Those with the ✿ label are the ones in which I've wrote my lyric based on cos they are the ones that inspired me to write so. Hehe. So there's already 6 out of 10! And I've released 3 from here so far! Wow~~ That's pretty good isn't it. (〃▽〃) Just that until now I can't write something like Omou. I just don't know why. Maybe cos it's my top favourite. I'm afraid I'll ruin it and not write as well as isshi. I love that song to bits and just wanna do the same kind but I can't... I don't know what's with me as though there's a barrier there somehow. I only hoped I can slowly come up with lyrics one after another for each Kagrra, songs that's like Kagrra,'s. Well, they might be like a shadow of Kagrra, works which probably doesn't seem to have any originality of my own? Can I even say so? But then, Kagrra, is my life and having them all the time is what makes me happy and let me identify who I am. So I shall just do what I like, right? It's my dream after all. =)

I'm sure my buddy approves of this anyway. I'll do my best man, I'll make you proud too. I'll definitely give in my all cos it makes me happy. And you too. ♥


Thanks for being around, as always. (・∪・)

Please continue to watch over me. With much love. (*˘︶˘*)

In Utakata mood~~~

I'm probably too much into Utakata recently, and really for quite a long time ever since I got my Shizuku album. lol. Can't helped it since it's the first song playing in the album. It was filled with lots of memories and for the fact that Isshi wrote this song for his doggie Vivienne made me touched. I feel it was such a bittersweet song when I know how Utakata came about. I'll always remember the look from isshi's face like this. I wonder why. (・_・)

And it was so coincident that Nao mentioned about Utakata last week. It warmed my heart. All the more I should reply to Nao for talking about Kagrra, and it's been so long since I tweeted in Japanese and to him!!

I sincerely hope he reads all fans tweets >_<


I was also scrolling through all my old tweets and saw this lovely isshi pic with beanie on. What a coincidence once again!! I didn't even remember I tweeted this before. lol. I was thinking of it suddenly before I saw this old tweet and even told my buddy to get one. I wanted one myself too! haha. So it's been like more than 1 year that I've said I wanted it but didn't get it yet! (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) Let me get a suitable one soon. I hope I look as good as Isshi. lol.

Anyway, I'm glad I had that picture saved in my SD card since I just transferred to a new phone and I thought of changing the wallpaper. This one is indeed the best!!

Now I can see my isshi's face clearly every single day!! (≧ω≦)


Hope I can get used to my new phone soon. Gonna take me time to learn all the functions and stuff. Probably draining my patience too. lol. But it's a much better phone so I'm not complaining!!


Time to get more things done!!

It's Kagrra, time! Or maybe just Urei time~~

This holiday I wanted to watch those Kagrra, VCDs that my friend has lent to me few months back..Gosh I have been dragging it for quite some time. I've always ended up doing things that my mood leads me to. I wasn't really concentrating nor going to watch all the videos in full cos I think I won't have all the time to enjoy everything. xD  I do went to click on every video and briefly see what are those, and there are some Kagrra, no Su episodes that I've already watched before! Wow those bring back memories where I can watch them for as long as I can since I was really kinda free back then as a student. (≧▽≦) I had a few laughs while watching those bits, especially the Orange juice competition which I love most! Well then, I have to leave them aside and re-watch them since I've been lagging in all the things that I have to do, plus I need to have enough rest. And so, I'll just post some screencaps of those I've seen today. Hopefully this will tempt me to watch them sometime again soon. lol.

 The gold fan looks very cool!!

I remember coming across this picture of Isshi holding the calligraphy he wrote I supposed. The four Kanji words are shown in full and not like this one in the video. I wonder where is it?? Why don't they show the photos in the video too?  It feels a little incomplete to post that picture although my isshi's face is clearly seen. lol~

Have seen one vid mentioning about Kagrra,'s major debut on 2004 1st January, and what comes to mind is definitely the song 愁 Urei.[Since it's their debut song anyway]

It means Grief, but the feel from it is more like a love song to me. I love Urei so much that I can't remember is it cos of me watching so many Kagrra, lives back then or that it's cos of 沙羅～懐かしの楽園～ Sara~Natsukashi No Rakuen Live Year 2005 cos that image of isshi-sama singing that song just comes to my mind. ｖ（=＾0＾=）ｖ  It's also the only pv that has English words flashing which is what makes it special too.  And I simply love the last line too much. ♥

"貴女が居て~ You are still here"

Because of my love for this song, I have always wanted to write something like Urei too. It's really too beautiful and I'm kinda stuck now at writing sad dark songs since I wasn't at all happy and into the mood of writing with nice beautiful words. lol. But I know, time will come and allow me to write something similar to this beautiful work of isshi's. It will!! (^o^) It takes time for inspiration to come and I'll just have to be patient, since I've used to forced my inspiration and it didn't end up that nice at all. lol. 

So now let me sink into Isshi's beauty~ (*^◯^*) ♡

This last scene is too beautiful and dreamy for me~~ It's as though isshi is reaching out to me~


Let my mood be beautiful for you too~

Happy July 7th!

On this summery day, where I'll be listening to Kagrra,'s 七月七日. ^_^

My day will always be bright. July is such a memorable month for me cos of Kagrra,.. I believe so.

It has always been the beginning for me for some things... And I'm glad although I have mixed feelings about it.


I won't forget how some things happened to make me be the way I am now... I will leave them at the back of my mind cos they're not gonna haunt me anymore but I certainly won't forget.


Somethings are meant to be the way it is with some unknown reasons. lol~


But for sure, life goes on as beautifully as it should be. It will be good. I will make it good!! ヽ(・∀・)ノ


To the one who meant so much to me, I'm sure you feel the same too. I will always be here. ♥

With lots of love,
Yuuka

~~~~~
I'll be one with you as we are for eternity ~Isshi-sama

I hate April 1st!

Why I HATE April 1st?  Besides the fact that it's April fool's day, oh yeah and most probably it's cos of that day which last year I think it was the biggest joke I had in my life. I'll never forget the torture that I've been through and how much struggle am I getting. It was certainly a time I had so much stress at once, and a whole lot of disappointment I can't accept and fathom why. (,_,)

And also my Kagrra, who filmed a video for 四月一日 Shigatsu tsuitachi but to have it appeared for a few seconds in the drama was just atrocious. It's totally unfair and a waste of time and effort for everyone. I don't get why they're doing that. The song is great, but everything thing else just isn't!


Now come to think of it, nothing is nice about this day except for the song. How and why is Kagrra, able to come up with such a happy song for such a day!! Should I be saying that this is what Kagrra, and isshi is? To be positive despite such a time?

So much of my thinking. lol.


I still hate this day though. It's a time where I don't want to think about anything for a moment. And probably to force myself to be happy on this day and trying hard to forget how cruel life can be sometimes.

And maybe it's only just Kagrra's song that can brighten my day again.



But really, I don't like it as much as 七月七日 Nanagatsu nanoka. July's a better month too.


I really wish I can forget everything and have a restart...tell me which is harder? To carry on or to restart?

I just hope today would be a bright day for me to smile again. 

Kagrra, Yume Izuru Chi making-of

Wanna post something of Kagrra, again. But this is just a short one. A very old vid of Kagrra,.

They actually indicated 煌 Kirameki so u know it's from that album. (・_・)

Making-of vid but they called it otherwise. lol.

With the way isshi dressed like this, he definitely look like an Oni here. lol. Somewhat scary cos it's all in black and white. (x_x)

Still, a lovely smile he gave. ^_^

Argh I do hope there's a long version of this original video. It's kinda too short for me, although at least the background music is still Yume Izuru Chi. I do love the lyrics to this song. But how funny, I remember there was once back then I got mixed up this song Yume Izuru Chi with Urei. But I like Urei more now, after watching Kagrra, lives. And probably cos it's a sad song afterall. lol. Well well...


Anyway, I can't take it. I don't like black and white at all. I have to end with some colours. Here's Kagrra, in wonderful colours. (^o^)

Happy day once more! Don't live a life without colours!(^_-)-☆

Lyrics translation @ demonpassion

It's the 4th anniversary of Kagrra, demise.

How time flies, it's been 4 years since Kagrra,'s demise on March 3rd. It wasn't supposed to be a sad thing anymore...since it's been so long. It's probably more like a reminder to me that I've grown together with Kagrra, this long. I've actually been their fan for 7 years. Awesomeness.  (*^◯^*)

I've even more happy that Nao still tweets about it. Seems like he remembers all the dates related to Kagrra,. I'm so so so happy that he's such a loyal member of Kagrra, because he hasn't forget a thing. And this just proves how important Kagrra, is to him. And also to mention that he's also a Gurakko. This is the best I've ever seen!! ♥

Cos Nao mentions of this song Haru Urara [oops noticed the mistake in my tweet] on this very date, I'm so gonna set this song as the song for their demise day! And since it's a happy song, it's good cos it'll remind me to be thankful and happy on this day even though Kagrra, is no longer around. I'm also glad that Haru Urara actually has a day now. lol. (≧▽≦)


And so, I somehow recalled that I have a blog post before on this pv with isshi smiling. Indeed, and I was mentioning that I wanna write a happy lyric like Haru Urara. hahaha. I wanted to, but it seems like I didn't managed to do it? It's just me to write sad songs I guess. Happy songs are kinda hard for me to use really nice positive words. If I'm happy, I'm happy. What more words do I need to use to express myself? lol.

Well, but isshi is smiling at me like that, I gotta do something right? lol. And that's the only pv with Isshi smiling if I'm not wrong. (^▽^)

Okay then, I shall do it Isshi-sama. Don't keep looking at me like this. I know, I will do it for your sake! xD


Oops I'll probably need to do it for March 20th. I will do my best!

Shin's birthday + Shiroi Uso

Happy birthday to Shin on 11 September!! I didn't really tweet about it, so I'll skip showing my tweets. lol.

And of course, glad to see fans and Nao tweet about it! But I don't know if Nao is really wishing Shin though. Who is esu, ai, enu? lol. Interesting~

I thought of listening randomly to a Kagrra song, and I just clicked on Shiroi Uso. It's a pretty nice song, just that it's a little sad one. When I glance through the lyrics, I really feel it's something I wanna write about too! Or maybe I just have same thoughts as Isshi. haha. I shall write a lyric inspired by this song!  (＾口＾)




Shin actually blogged about his birthday thanks!

I only know about this later. lol. *Guilty* Having only 2 days off from work is just isn't enough! When I feel that I can't catch up with all the updates. Why is there so many things to do!!

Ok, now my wishes to the Kagrra members is that they'll still carry on doing music stuff. Please wait for me to go to Japan! I'll work hard to fulfill my little dream.. (*>ω<*)

Kagrra, 恋綴魂 Kotodama

[Continue from June 03 post on Kagrra anniversary.]

I remember I made myself create a collage first, while busy with tweets about it. =D And there I'm so happy to see Nao-ran's tweet about it too!! So he got me to listen to Kotodama on that very day!! [I need not think of which song to listen to.] I just wonder why of all songs is Kotodama, not like the single being released on that date. But I guess it seems to be quite meaningful song to him too? (^｡^)

From what I understood: June 3 is an important date to me and everyone right. (^-^)  I'm listening to Kagrra, while going to rehearsal.(^^)d It's Kotodama. ♪

I still remember this as a Sensu song. Ah~~ That Sara concert was just such a memorable one to watch!! (*˘︶˘*).｡.:*

Anyway, I just want to flood with some pictures that I've tweeted that day too, non other than Isshi-sama. xD

After listening to so many times, somehow my taste change. =/ Original version has still got to be the best. I thought I'll like this special ushimitsu version but it was for a while though [months back]. I would prefer acoustic one now. It's light and simple.




I've even wanted to make June 03 as Kotodama day now.. All thanks to Nao-ran. Hahaha. (๑ˇεˇ๑)•*¨*•.¸¸♪

Kagrra, 終焉の季節 Shuuen no kisetsu - how I'm afraid of this song

I'm actually kinda afraid of listening to this song..

Because it's a song about death. It will remind me of how Isshi is no longer around with us.

This song is really beautiful. I remember when I first heard this back then, I fall in love with it immediately. But it has a tinge of sadness to it...

It's really the only Kagrra, song that made me cry.. At least now probably isn't so bad. But if I'm feeling down, I might tear once more.


Argh.. I know I'm over the phase of being so sad thinking about Isshi. But somehow, this song has got the power to made me feel sad. Not that sad until I feel helpless or anything like that, but more like sentimental.

It's really the most beautiful sad piece of Kagrra, song ever~~ Even if it made me feel sad, I will still listen to it.

Cos it's Kagrra, it's Isshi-sama's voice..

He will always occupy a special place in my heart ♥

Lyrics translation @ 鬼愛~Demon Passion~

Kagrra, 四月一日 video appeared in Cat Street drama

Wa~ how happy was I to know that Kagrra, actually filmed a video for this song 四月一日 Shigatsu tsuitachi while watching Kagrra, no Su episode 59 but I'm definitely not happy that it appeared for such a short while in the drama!! I just dun understand why they're filming it for without letting the members faces be clearly shown. -_- And why can't they release it as a short pv of Kagrra, too?? Even if it's a short video. I feel so unfair to them...and us as fans!! I so badly wanna see how their video appeared in the first place. (x_x)

But anyway, glad that I managed to find out which drama and which episode. Lol.


In the drama episode 4...

Kagrra, members supposedly are 'discussing' about the filming of the pv. I was really happy to see this part since I didn't expect them to be part of the show like this. I thought I would only see the 'pv' they've already filmed. lol.

Greeting the main female character in the show. But oh my, only Nao's face can been seen clearly. I dun like this angle that the camera man took!!!!  It's too far away and this is so not good!! He should zoom in more!! I think I can be a better director. Hahahaha.

↑ I think this is the worse part.. For a few seconds, this is where the actual video for 四月一日 Shigatsu tsuitachi to appear. I really can't believe this. (T_T) JUST A FEW SECONDS OF KAGRRA, LYING DOWN ON THE GRASS WHERE WE CAN'T SEE THEIR FACES. Omg.. Big disappointment.

And there, the credits are shown at the ending.

The part where the girl is reaching out to the sky as the pv video to Kagrra, song is quite nice since it has got a feel to it, but still I'm not satisfied with how it ended up like that in the show. So anyway, might as well watch Kagrra, no Su for more Kagrra,-ness. Lol..


In Kagrra, no Su... 

Posting lots of Kagrra, pics I screencap cos I love them so much. =D
Can hear the directors say 'Cut' few times which is fast! Why are they taking such short scenes. (¬_¬) And I really wonder why this scene is not being shown in the drama. =( This part is so much better than seeing them lying down on the grass for a few seconds. Lol.

And Akiya and isshi keep saying 暑い hot!! haha.

 

This cool Shin-san..hehe.

Blowing the Sakura petals.

I can see the petals flying~ haha.

Isshi's hair is definitely very bright. lol.

I quite like this part too, but it's really too short!! Just them walking a little and look up at the sky/scenery, stopped and pose. THAT'S ALL?? On such a hot day!! Our poor guys. (._.)

↑ Izumi is yawning. lol~!

I can't stand Akiya's pose.. He always like to pose like that! Hahaha.

Ar~~ Lovely Isshi-sama look.. ^_^

I wonder why take individual shots but in the end not appeared anywhere else in the drama!! I'm angry~!! Really unfair to them~!! I want their faces clearly shown~!!! Okay, I've been like complaining for so many times. lol.

Haha.. The leader suddenly gave an angry/unsatisfied look. I supposed he wasn't all too happy and cos the sun is so bright and hot. I won't be happy either. lol.


Since I know that Kagrra, only appeared in episode 4, I'm really lazy and reluctant to watch the whole drama. =p  I guess I'd rather spend my time watching more Kagrra, no Su and really have fun watching them, better than the boring drama. Hahaha. Lazy me.

Now I love 四月一日 Shigatsu tsuitachi so much.. It's a bright cheerful song. ^o^