Cosmos #07 | What's with my mood?

It was probably quite an empty week for me. I don't think I've done much, or anything productive that I feel proud of this time. I tried doing some colouring on Tues cos after I watched some colour pens drawing video appearing on my feed my heart twitched a little. I thought I got the mood to do something really nice this time and yeah I should colour the page and enhance my mood, but it didn't last long. I coloured only 3 pieces of small leaves and 2 small flowers AND I'M DONE. I can't continue anymore. All I want to do after work is to forget about everything else and just watch the TV. TV has always been my kind of therapy at home to make me not able to think of anything else except staring at the screen and see what happens. I don't need to do a thing unlike the computer. So I've just stayed this way for the whole week. What am I to do? I don't have the mood or enthusiasm to do the things I like. My mood is dampened for unknown reasons. Maybe because of Mr Stomach torturing me from time to time and not knowing what's wrong with it. I even lost my appetite on Saturday. It's quite a pain that I can't bring myself to eat but my stomach just keep grumbling empty. It's enough to make me a stone not wanting to do a thing. I hate how it turns out. And I've got no idea how to bring my mood back when I don't even have the mood to look at how to bring my mood back. UGH. (｡-_-｡)

Okay, it's not totally bad though. Have made myself post a damn long ass lyric to feel better and bought something while I'm out. So what have I done?  =/

^ Chocos are supposed to make me happy right? I got orange dark choco which is the combination of my both favourites! This brand is damn good it's soft as a choco and the orange taste is on point. I've yet to try the new Kit Kat but yeah my mood was better only for a while after I ate the orange one. >_<

^ I'm glad for a sale going on at the beauty store! 2 boxes of facial masks and a pair of hand mask and a loose powder!!! I'm curious of how the hand mask will make my hands turn out to be. Let me post about it when I get myself to use it! hehehe.

Well but this..... was just something I got because I wanna spend my money. What an ass I am hahaha. They are probably only for decoration purpose and not that it'll really help to make wishes come true but whatever. I'm consoling myself in this way that at least I grab something that would make me feel better to have something good with me. LOL. What else? V-day is coming and I should feel loved in some way. In my own way. (´へεへ`*)

Since another week has to come, let me have another fresh start again. I will do my best. And not to forget all the things that I've wanted to do badly. ❦

[OD] Sadly and weirdly~

Another outdated post! I'm pretty into spring cleaning everything else besides the physical items in my room. I'm set to do that for the images in my phone, my youtube channel and my emails. hahaha. How weird I only get the mood to do so for this year. Probably because after I'm done with my own items I also have to do for work since it's definitely the best that I clear and reduce as many things so that I need not bring too much over to the new place. Wow what a revamp! lol.

I feel this time round my life can turn for a new start. I'm not sure how things will go though. But it's always nice to have a good change. Yet I have a struggle recently since I organised my things way too good until.... I forget where I've placed them. (;´д｀) Darn for my forgetful brain!! I don't know if I should laugh or cry. And my memories could be messed up. lol. It took me some time to find and recall where I've placed my Japanese CD-rom that I need it to get myself to study with the book. Climbing up and down and searching for the right box that contains the thing I want to find. Yet I secretly laughed inside when the same happened to my co-workers just few days back. LOL.


Well, let's just get back to me going through all these old pictures sinking in my phone. hahaa.

^ This was last year when my friend found out this yukata instruction sheet lying on the table only after we figured out how to wear and tie the obi. (¬_¬) Why didn't this thing appear earlier? We struggled for so long. Argh, probably is just me since mine was the traditional one where I really need to get the obi done. I know I should have be familiar with it in the first place but somehow when I happened to see those on youtube tutorials they made me even frustrated after seeing how complicated and difficult it is to do that I just gave up. Then I was too tired to see anymore and do a demo first myself at home. (x_x) I'm lucky my friend was nice to observe others and figured it pretty quickly and so I shall say that she was way better than those tutorials since it's done much faster than me watching the vids. Another thing that I don't know if I should laugh or cry. Ahhhh!!!!

I'm just posting the pictures here for reference in case I need to wear it again in the future cos my brain is really limited and can't remember too much. lol. Hopefully this will evoke my memories of how obi is tied. ^_^;

^ A piece of paper I've printed out from one comic book and that's because few years ago I was kinda into ancient chinese history so this was of a good reference to me. How did that happen? haha of course from watching chinese dramas! I have an interest in those type of stories although some aren't real history related but the way they dressed and live depicts the different timeline that happen in the show. I find it interesting that I can learn a bit about the times and also those phrases that I've not heard of. It's one of the ways where I can improve my chinese since I don't need to write or read frequently. But honestly, it's a sad thing how our mother tongue became stagnant at this age since we don't really need to use much at work. Same for dialect. So it totally depends on the individual whether you wanna watch and read more on your own. Since English is pretty much used everywhere who would really care about their mother tongue right? And it's not like it's being promoted or encouraged much. Sadly this has to happen. Maybe it's just here I guess. Well what can we do anyway? We can only be self-motivated if we want to keep the language going...Otherwise it'll just get worse.

^ What a nice scenery where the flyer can be viewed from here! But honestly I can't remember when and where is this. *yeah memories lost*

^ I remember showing this picture of the few escape games to my friends that we can go and have fun. But sadly it was not realised. We have too little people around us to call and be interested in such games. (,_,) What a pity sobs.

^ A bracelet I bought for myself some time last year if I'm not wrong and I like it a lot. ^_^

^ Can't remember if I have post this anywhere. My friend in school gave me when we just know each other after a month! It was a pleasant surprise gift. No one has ever give me a present that fast when we just knew each other. lol. That happened slightly more than 10 years ago.  (・o・) It's something that I treasure a lot since you see I didn't even remove the wrapper. But sadly again, I don't know where is this anymore. It's weird that after I spring clean some stuffs go missing. I could have accidentally misplace it I don't know. It just sucks to have a brain like mine. lol.

^ Bought these 2 snacks in early December if I'm not wrong. The rice crackers expired pretty fast! That's why it was on sale anyway. haha. The red bean chocolate biscuit is the jem!! It's really really tasty!! I finished the whole packet at one go. Can't describe how great it was I'm soooo amazed at the quality of it as a chocolate. Might buy it again but somehow hope it can be cheaper. ( ´•︵•` )

^ This is canned sweet corn from Daiso! I thought it would taste good but it's just ordinary.

^ This was the macdonalds treat that I won from a friend! It was pretty nice since I don't win things often lol. Oh yeah so this reminds me the last time I won was 2 years ago in September. Aww...that seems long ago enough. (・_・) I totally enjoy this feeling of being lucky. hahaha.

Alright, I will dig more and post any of such old photos next time. Can't wait to see when my phone is complete without a mess. lol.

Planning for the next...

Ahh... Now it's already November! A new month to be happy about! (^_^)

I remember how busy I've made myself to be in October, going out every weekends that I became so worn out. I haven't got the mood to do anything else efficient like learning languages as always. Yeah, I just wanted to clear my mind if I have to put it in a nice way. To distract myself from something else. (┯_┯) Well then it's not really bothering me anymore and for now I'm just too tired to bother about things that made me unhappy. I'm well rested for this weekend having enough sleep and nap [finally] and so I can say that my mind is clear now. lol. Yeah I've also cleared some unwanted stuffs again but there's always things for me to clear. （・□・；） It's endless somehow but I like that I can do something like this to sort of de-stress. haha.

Now it's also the time for me to start thinking of plans for the next year! I'm glad I can find a planner from Daiso because every year I just couldn't see them on the shelves! The last I had was in 2013, which is really a very nice book thick enough for me to write loads of stuffs. It's more like a diary to me in fact. While this time, the monthly view for 2017 planner although thin, has a pretty good layout for me to plan my stuffs. Since they start off with October, I'm gonna go ahead and start writing for this month's! It's going good so far, and I hope my resolutions/projects will all fall into place nicely. I know I've already gotten one too early last month too, but I'll let that be my diary book I guess. And for now, it's time to be motivated again! ╰(*´︶`*)╯

I've gotten myself a wooden hairbrush and I'm so happy that Daiso has it! I was watching a haircare video on youtube and wondering if I can ever find one. There it appeared just at the right time for me! As my goal this year is to take better care of my hair, I'm really into finding the right tools for it. (^o^)  It brushes really gentle and unlike the current plastic one that I've always been using which will kinda scrub my scalp as I comb my hair. This one makes me feel it's giving my scalp a gentle massage and it totally won't hurt at all. Ahh... I feel so fortunate right now. lol.

What I've been doing consistently right now:
● blow dry my hair in the correct manner
● applying scalp spray every night after shower
● followed by a scalp massage and apply hair oil after that

I'm sooooo into getting my hair healthy and hopefully when I visit the salon for the next few times, my condition will be good enough that I can do other stuffs to it, like dying into a new color! I guess I'm kinda back to wanting this feeling of having a refresh hair and being young. Oops haha. Anyway, the stylist commented that I have a lot of baby hair and I wonder is it due to the effects from using the hair tonic previously? Well then I have no idea is this good or not and it seems that I probably have to find out more about hair and stuff cos I'm lacking so much knowledge in this. (^_^;) I really wish my hair fall would reduce cos they have been saying they saw a lot of hairfalls from me when they washed my hair. (>_<) It's been like this so I really need to get it improved soon. 

Alright, since my internet is playing with me again, next time I shall blog about my skincare updates.


Lastly, this is just a new accessory for my phone which I feel badly needs one. I've lost my guitar ear plug so this bigger one won't get lost anymore. lol.

I'm gonna start customising all my things so that I feel that they belong to me only. hehee.

What to do with the bag...?

This is the news I see about the queen on Friday's newspaper in the morning. Sure I wasn't surprised it's something bad about her once more. (・_・)

Oh yeah so she's reporting sick and therefore she has to cancel the Nagoya concert? How many times have we heard of it? I feel so sorry for the fans. Why so just because the seats couldn't get filled up and have to be cancelled cos of that? I'm also sorry to say, since I got so disappointed by the queen time after time that I can no longer trust what she says. Yeah, as much as I don't wanna talk about her anymore, that's a fact anyway. I don't wanna be talking bad about her either since I used to be her fan. But nowadays seeing her manner kinda disgust me that I really wanna shut away from her news. I don't even know what's her latest song I wouldn't wanna hear anymore too. She's too different from what I know. I don't even wanna say her name but calling her as 'the queen' instead. But I'm not even sure can she hold up to this name. She isn't doing as good as before. I don't mean in terms of popularity but as a person as well, with her life. I can't look up to her anyway so why am I giving her such a good name? Maybe for now cos I can't think of anything else.  (¬_¬)

Anyway, the reason why I'm mentioning the queen is because I have this hot pink sling bag that's with me for a year already! And I haven't even use it once! The tag remains there nicely. I just can't find a time to use it somehow. I know I can but I wasn't in the mood anyway. That was because it was last year when I get it I was still kinda 'supporting' the queen, and I remembered coming across a picture of her in black dress and carrying such a hot pink sling bag. I was trying to have a cosplay plan of her for the next year. Who knows when this year came I wasn't into her anymore and so the plan failed. I wanted to post a picture of that queen carrying the bag but I couldn't find it anymore. Google doesn't help much. It was in my phone earlier on but I guess it was deleted some time this year so I couldn't find it too. Well since fate ends what I can say? This just means it. I might have to part this bag goodbye or just use it without thinking so much. But I might hate it. I might hate myself. What a struggle.

I will get over it somehow but for the moment, let me just leave it aside still. And better plan for what's important. I've gotten rid of most things that reminds me of the queen. Although there are some remains but I hardly see them. So now.... let me calm down and rethink. How I wanna deal with all that again.

Surely, there's no reason to hate myself at all. Not at all! 

Pampering myself

Damn it took me real long enough to do a blog post when the connection has gone so bad, on and off since last week. I wonder if it's my computer problem cos it works really fine on my mobile. It's just ruining my patience cos it seems it'll take me the entire afternoon to type. (-_-) Of course I shall post one I feel is important for now. I've got a new headphones for myself! I didn't have one all along but I probably have a few earphones in fact, but earphones are making me feel disgusted as I have to place them in my ear and that just makes me uncomfortable too. Oh wait, I was feeling uncomfortable using my headphones at first and then I realised that's cos I was having my glasses on so the back of my ears hurt. lol!! But now I'm used to it already so I'm really much more satisfied with this. And it blocks out all the noise so I can enjoy music to the max! (☆∀☆)

Look, isn't it pretty? It's classy to me and I'm glad I can grab the purple one. There is even a mic for you to use so that you can talk on the phone. But not that I need though.  ♪(^ε^)-☆!

Let's come to some of the things that I've bought! Now I'm still into BB/CC creams. I'm only left with one in which I've been using for months and it makes me feeling insecure to depend on one. lol. So I've been looking out for good ones and I thought I'll try the ZA CC cream this time. I used to have the CC cream-to-powder stick which is pretty cool but it just runs out fast. This CC cream somehow feels a little oily so not that I'll like it. Effect wise is kinda ordinary. Usable of course and it didn't feel that bad. As long as it doesn't break me out it's considered good I guess.

As for the new SANA BB cream I haven't started using yet I hope it works well and of better texture for my skin too! I guess maybe afterall I'm still more impressed with Japanese cosmetics. haha.

Now on to something serious. I'm really splurging on my hair! On my scalp to be specific. My hair condition is pretty bad because of my scalp anyway. It has always been oily and that's something that has been bothering me for a long time. And no matter how I tried to wash and style it just doesn't end up nicely as what the stylist did! I'm so angry at myself on one point. But anyway, the stylist that did treatment to my scalp and hair yesterday was saying my hair is considered a lot but just that because they are thin that's why they seem less, and light. Okay, I'm pretty relieved to hear that. lol. But still, it's not that good after all. I can't do any heat styling or dyeing my hair for now, although she didn't say that. I know I should focus on my scalp at this point. I need them to be healthy!! (>_<)

What I like about that salon is that she'll show me how my scalp looks like using a device and I can see how bad they are, Oh gosh, really so much dead skin and those oil surrounding the hair. Some parts are kinda red which means it's kinda sensitive. It's pretty disgusting.  （・□・；）But after the treatment, they really looked much better and cleaner I was so impressed! Hehe and of course, with that awesome head massage I haven't had for a long time I enjoyed that session totally. What's more their service is the best that I've ever came across. I didn't think I would actually do that since it's been hard for me to find a good salon to stick to. All of the services are kinda bad and they don't seem to really take the time to look properly at my hair and tell me what's good or bad. Every different person said a different thing and I'm tired of hearing it. Especially when usually they go against my wishes. They just wanna do the opposite as what I've said! And who is right?  It's probably all just their own opinion on what they wanna style/cut for their customer that day. That's the conclusion I can come up with. (｡-_-｡)

Anyway bought the scalp spray from the salon and I have to be diligent and apply that product everyday for months and see if my scalp condition improves. Yes I'm gonna do it!! I don't need to care about the money for now since my hair problem has always been something that I wanna resolve. Plus I wanna pamper myself in a way from work. This is surely the best way! And also, not to forget that this was my resolution to take better care of my hair this year!! I'm gonna achieve it! (^_-)☆


I just hope it'll turn out to be better than using the tonic previously when I started in January. And now that November is coming, this year is almost coming to an end. Time to start planning new stuffs again and be motivated once more. There's so much to think all over again!

Things should always get better and better.

I need to be like a Fukurou~

What is my July gonna be filled with this time? I haven't quite decided till now. （・□・；） I still have a little jam in my brain trying to write something good enough for my lyrics. And then I kinda feel reluctant to clear stuffs even though I'm gonna run out of used items especially my skincare and cosmetics. The weather is too hot to make me think properly. I don't have the mood for the past week and I keep craving for sweet food. There goes another non-achievement week again.＼（＞０＜）／

Although I didn't do anything great, besides listening to music to lift my mood [and discover about this new band minus which is from Soft Ballet but one of the members died just last month and I feel even sadder for this. (┯_┯) I think I have found a liking towards this genre of new wave/electro-whatever style in them.＼(^^)／] , I have received quite a bit of presents to bring back home! I'm a little guilty cos I get to meet this friend like only twice a year but I didn't prepare presents for her yet and she gave me so much! I love the guitar ear cap which came just in time cos it was almost time to replace the current one I have which is wearing off already. I'm so happy with the load of goodies, plus heavy pear cider from another friend who gave me at the wrong time. lol.

To my surprise [although I half-expected it], my friend was actually already pregnant and ready to deliver next month. This is way too fast! We didn't talk a lot usually so I won't know. But this left me feeling a little way behind. lol. I can't helped but to touch her tummy quite a few times. How does it feel like to be a Mum? Must be way busy than ever from what I see from a few of them. But Cheesie astounded me way too much. She can still bring her kids around and travel to so many places and blog often. Many whom I know are unable to do it. I don't know how would it be like if it were to be me. I do yearn for this and wanted to know if I can, but I'm not sure. I just feel I'm reaching the age and soon but what's gonna be in for me? Should I wonder so much? I'm just curious. As much as I think I might wanna be a mum, I also wanna be able to do more stuffs than before. I wanna feel I'm more capable than I am now. Although I'll probably be even more tired and start complaining, but life may seem interesting in another way isn't it? Haha. Yeah for now I won't think so much. I need to clear my things and clear my mind before I can get move on to the next. I must get going!! ╰(‘ω’ )╯三


I'm an owl lover myself although I haven't seen and touch one yet. I need to go to a Japan owl cafe someday to experience that! lol. So now I can only get myself some owl things so long as I see them. I cannot resist! The only thing I didn't post here is a few owl T-shirts and a notebook that I own haha. 

Those cuties~~ (//∇//) ♥♥♥♥♥

Alright, by this month I have to swear to myself and get done with clearing and be energized once more!

I can do it!! ٩(｡•ω•｡)

Rewards and presents for this month!

It has been a busy week for me! (x_x) I was referring to last week though. The amount of stuff to clear for April is so much that I stayed back for an hour more for the whole week just so that I can managed to get them done by the deadline. Well I only managed to do everything by this Tuesday in which I feel is the latest ever and I hope my colleague won't be mad at me. haha. Yeah alright it goes on pretty well except that my mood was totally killed to do any shopping. (¬_¬) Well as for this week, I managed to buy only a few stuffs. lol.

I was too itchy to try these 2 products once I bought them yesterday. xD I wanted to buy some cosmetics but there isn't any new products so that's quite disappointing. As I've mentioned before that I wanted to get a cleansing oil for my daily makeup and yeah this one is pretty good! Although it doesn't have any fragrance compared to the sample I used back then, somehow my face feels powdery smooth after that I don't know why. lol. And I love this Perfect Lip Essence Balm from Japan! It's supposed to treat, moisturize and color my lips all at one go. The color changes to Sakura pink based on my lip tone. Damn I was so impressed with this!! My lips really turned to nice naturally pink and even when minutes later I wiped off the balm, the pink color still stayed on well. I feel it made me look like a really healthy person when maybe I'm not? lol. 

And here I can't miss out snacks as my reward too. hehehe. （＾∇＾）

Ahh, just realised I spotted this other Oi ocha variety 2 weeks back!! It's a little different from the previous one I saw as this is with roasted rice. Well well I guess this brand is indeed popular in Japan since I've seen this around in Japanese supermarkets here. I'm so happy I can spot another variety whenever I step into one. haha.  

That said, I still can't bear to drink my Oi ocha yet. (^_^;) I will definitely drink before the expiry! lol.


Yeah and here comes some of my birthday presents...

Oops as for the power bank I bought it for myself. haha. I'm so glad to receive more rubber stamps!! Although it's in Korean I had so much fun playing with it. I didn't expect I can get more of this as present too so this made my day! ヾ(*´∀｀*)ﾉ I wonder how my friend know that I like this. lol.

This was a surprise by mail:~

It's the first time I got so many nail polish colors at once! 2ml each for 12 of them! How cute looking they are! I can play a lot with the colors too. haha. Another fun thing to do~ (☆∀☆)

I may not have receive as much presents nor birthday wishes as compared to as last year's but I felt happier because I know who's true to me and really cares. I don't really care about getting presents anymore on my day I'll rather a friend who talks to me every now and then and can meet up with me. I've also got over the barrier I have for myself when giving presents because when I was young I cared about whether the receiver uses my presents. And if I know that they didn't, I got really upset and angry and felt that my money must have gone to waste. ~( ´•︵•` )~
But there was once where I watched this program on tv, the host was saying that we shouldn't be bothering about how the receiver uses the present or not. Mostly importantly is that you're conveying your wishes and thoughts over to the person showing you care, and that should be all. I was so enlightened by his words although I don't like him!! Then again, of course I choose to get useful things as presents to my friends although it's not always that I know what they really need and whether I can get them. I just won't be too bothered over minor things anymore. Come to think of it, why do I get angry over that? Two years ago I've came to know of an ex-colleague who told me that she doesn't use a single present she receives and kept them all in a box. When I heard this from her, I felt it must have been such a waste of those items and asked her why, she should use at least a few of them? If not things will spoil over the years. But she told me how she can't bear to use them at all because of the thoughts that the person got for her. She'll rather keep them nicely as memories. Okay,... so there are different ways how one treats their presents. But I just can't really understand. Don't you have the urge to use them at all no matter how precious they are? Especially in times where you really need them? Like for example when you found that your wallet has spoiled and you already have a wallet as a present and you rather buy a new one than using this one which you have in your hands? Don't you think it's more troublesome? Although maybe the one you received isn't something you like actually, but since you have it you can use it isn't it? I feel it's better to let things put into good use rather than leaving them aside. As I'm tidying up my stuffs these days I've found that there are things that just because I can't bear to use them they got spoiled and ended up I can only throw them away. It made my heart ache even more. So from then on, I'll be sure to use any of the things I received as presents before their life ends. lol. Oh yeah, the irony - I mind about whether the receiver uses my present while I used to I chuck them aside as I can't bear to use them. (≧▽≦) Well now, I swear I use them once whenever I can! Hahahaa.

Anyway, I shall continue my decluttering journey... =)

暑い暑い！！

This week is really short, having to work only 4 days! It was good but it's still a busy time for me clear work especially on the first 2 weeks of the month. I can feel it's even more hectic now as things are getting more and more. There's now even 9 files for April!! That's the most number of files that I have to clear for the month that I've ever come across. It's usually 6 or 7 and that's enough to make me rush like mad. So maybe I'll be so dead by next week. Sob.. (x_x)

Besides clearing work, I also needa clear some photos I wanna post on my blog! In fact, I think I have a lot to clear. (ﾉ ○ Д ○)ﾉ　Yeah I need to get my mind organised soon so that I can do them slowly. Anyway, I was craving for jelly to eat 2 weeks back after I ate such a good one before that. But it was Japanese mikan jelly with lots of mikan! Of course it was awesome! But I could only find Taiwan jelly at the supermart so I thought I shall just make do with it. Nah... not a good choice after all. Although it's cheaper. Or maybe grapes just don't make the mark? Argh.  (｡-_-｡)

Here this is my second time I'm buying mofy milk candy!! I bought it initially cos it was cute. And then I find this milk candy really taste yummy! It comes in 3 flavours as original, chocolate and strawberry. I forgot to take a picture of the first one and it is of a different packaging so I thought I should buy a second one since I like the sweets. It's probably the first time I'm satisfied with candy from Daiso. haha.

A few other things here...I sent out a card to my friend who was ill for a week. I couldn't visit her at the hospital since I was down with flu last week. Glad it brings a smile on her face and she finally recovered now. As for the rest, I got them for myself. haha.

I'm very impressed with the ZA CC cream to powder stick that I'm currently using now. It's so cool that it turns into powder when I spread the cream evenly on to my skin! WOW then I can leave out the step to apply foundation on my face and this saves time for me. One product and I'm good to go for the day. lol. My makeup routine now is getting even more and more simple. (≧▽≦) haha. I need to explore more perhaps but I just don't like to spend so much time in the morning to do so much makeup on my face. (・・;)

And I've bought this new facial moisturizer I hope this works better in keeping my face moisturized throughout the day than my current one. Ooh looking back at my old post, I've finally used up my perfume! It took me more than a year perhaps. I remembered I bought that long long ago. lol. I had already gotten use of the smell of it so I wasn't really that happy to spray the perfume everyday to work. (^_^;) I guess 50 ml is really a lot and I've spent over a hundred bucks on it. I think it was crazy enough of me back then. I probably won't wanna throw my money like that and that means I probably won't return to Sephora anymore? haha.


Anyway I was drinking soymilk with grass jelly to beat the heat today~~

Seriously,the weather is soooo hot and such changes just made us feel moody and not wanting to go out or be outside for too long. Argh I miss my outdoor activities but I really got darker since out in the sun for hours 2 months ago. I kinda regret what I've done to my skin although I had sunblock on but argh... what a struggle. I don't mind being out and relaxed with the sun but I just don't like how it changes my skin to become darker. Sunblock can't totally help and so, I probably have to do more whitening. Grr... (¬_¬)

May is supposed to be the rainy season for me!! Please come to me soon!

Last day of Feb~!

February is about to come to an end! It's the additional day to this year. lol. There's the CNY break of 3 days for me but I felt it wasn't enough. I don't feel I've properly rested.. Maybe a week or so I'll feel rejuvenated.  (^_^;) But I haven't have plans yet for that long. Things have to keep coming in and yeah haven't got the time to properly sit down and think all over.  While I'm trying to get such done, let me do a little update today~

Well well, as much as I've said I might not cut those white hairs on my head but it's really been so annoying to see the 3 strands sticking up everyday and I can't help but to wonder if anyone have noticed and find it really funny. ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ So I really can't take it anymore and cut those 3 strands away carefully. lol. They were actually about the same length? Argh. Can you believe that I've been a tweety bird for so long??? Now I finally felt better after not seeing those white hairs anymore. lol.

I'm only wishing that they won't grow back to that length. (ーー゛) If not, I'll keep looking like an old young person. Noooo I don't wanna look like a joker. Duh.

I haven't get to do much shopping! Recently there hasn't been any interesting and new things around. I got so bored! All I could do is getting necessities most of the time although yet I got that sticker from Daiso cos it just attracted me again. xD

This month my body has gone crazy!! I felt hungry most of the time and I just have to keep getting food. But my weight is still the same I guess. I don't feel any different other than a grumbling stomach all the time. (｡-_-｡) Last month I was having nausea most of the time but now, it's such a big contrast! Okay, maybe because due to CNY I have been eating a lot, my stomach could have expanded and so that is the case? lol.  Good thing is that I've been eating well although my sleep problem doesn't get resolved. It's still scary. There are still times where I couldn't sleep the whole night, whether I've used lavender oil or eat some food or listening to classical music. It just doesn't work when your body doesn't coorperate isn't it?  Other than that, this February month goes by like this being kinda empty.

Well then, there's always the next month! Let my March be a good one for me to come with more worthy posts.


I just miss someone reading here... I've always been yearning for u to be around.

I hope u get it.

Merry Xmas and to the new year~~!

Ahhh chooooooo!!!!! I woke up today with a flu and a really dry throat! I'm not sure what causes it though. I had Onigiri and one small sushi for dinner, along with my choco soymilk. I didn't expect to fall sick the next day. I had so much rest yesterday I'm supposed to be feeling really awesome. But why now...? Argh see this is how annoying my body is. I'll never understand it. But nevertheless, Xmas was fun! I'm glad I can do useful shopping on the eve and then eat so much like a glutton on Xmas day. haha. But I spent a lot indeed. Hope it's all worth so long as I'm happy. I feel as though I haven't done something like that for a long time! December is really the best month of the year. lol.

Now I hope my New year's eve will turn out nice too. (^_^;)

Some of the things I got for myself~ I wanted to get another CC cream to try and bought this one because it was on sale. lol. It's really cheap but it felt quite oily like the Revlon one that I've used and regretted the last time. It wasn't that bad though, but not something that I would like. I felt relieved that I got it at a cheaper price rather than at usual price. This brand has already made me think that their cosmetics [BB and CC cream] just doesn't make the mark but their skincare is probably better. I felt the same towards all the Korean products that I've used. Conclusion: Their skincare is better than their cosmetics products. Just splurge on skincare and you'll be safe. lol.

I got this limited edition blush cos I just feel like getting a second one! I think the color doesn't show that obvious like the Daiso blush I had earlier. It probably has more shimmer than color. But I'm still happy. =) Maybe cos it makes me look younger! Yeah, totally reminds me of the comment I left at Felicia's channel. xD

Some last minute shopping I did on Wednesday!! I'm glad it was useful. It wasn't something I've planned at all. lol. Managed to give bracelet, card and that chocolate I've packed to my fren I'm going out with for the first time as a little gift for Xmas. Happy to hear that I'm a thoughtful person. hahaha. I am indeed! (*^◯^*) I like to give handwritten cards to my frens. Makes my gift looks sincere and I could decorate with stickers and stamps and use my color pens! Why but not many people like to do such these days. This is fun to me too. haha. 


And for my serious resolution next year, I bought this hair tonic!! Since my fren recommended that this brand products is really good. I've already started using my hair mask yesterday and the smell is great! For the first time I can have sweet smelling hair the entire day till the next!! lol. Anyway I shall begin my hair treatment next week. Hope it turns out good. I will take better care of my body and not be lazy and undetermined like before. Oops. (；´Д｀)

Yeah lastly, is the Japanese books I bought from a fren months ago!! I need to get myself into it once again. Studying Japanese using Japanese is kinda tough, but I think I'll manage to get it anyway. This level is no joke! Without a Sensei it'll probably be harder for me but I believe I can!! For the sake of myself and isshi-sama, I will definitely master Japanese well. That's what I wanted to do most!! I need to carry on his legacy of lyric writing. I've already regarded this as my calling. Probably sounded too exaggerated but it's something that made me so proud and satisfied for doing this while I'm alive. I felt the need to do something like this to make me feel there's such a great purpose in my life, and I believe so. Isshi shall be proud too. =)

2016 please welcome me with happy open arms!! 

then I'll be ready to go! ─=≡Σ((( つ•̀ω•́)つ

Stress or ageing? (T_T)

This November...I don't think I like this month. It's just like in between, a month of nowhere. It isn't the season to be happy like in December. At least there's Xmas and then you'll look forward to the New year, but there's just nothing in November. I'm so busy this week cos my workload got heavier from the past month plus the fact that there's a public holiday on Tuesday isn't helping, cos I got a day lesser to complete my work on time. Sigh. Now I'm gonna be so stressed out when Monday comes. That'll be horrible. I hope not. (ó﹏ò｡)

With a very good reason of stress, I have been buying things every week! xD I think I just popped by the same stores every alternate days. I can't helped it when now's also the best time to get gifts cos there's sales going on and I don't like to get gifts at the last minute. It'll be probably hard to get a right one when you have to search for it. lol. I hate to fret over what gifts to get but I guess I can't avoid this since Xmas is coming. I have to get prepared for those as soon as I can! Ahhh....!

I bought this Ma cherie set cos it seemed a good deal. And yeah, it'll be a gift instead of me using them. lol. I remember I bought their hair oil and I just started using it this month! I wasn't sure if this is good at first, but I began to think it suits me better than other hair oil brands that I've used so far. I can't believe it! My hair felt smoother and shinier than before. (￣▽￣) I thought it will just be ordinary thing, but it made me feel good about my hair. lol. Although I think it has that cherry scent that I don't like but it didn't affect me that much. I was more concerned about having that smooth hair all that I'm amazed. Maybe I should have that set for myself instead? hahaha. (≧ω≦) But no way, I don't wanna fret about finding gifts so I might have to buy a proper one for myself instead. lolol.

Yeah to one more packet of eye masks, and getting back to this Netrogena water gel I used many years back. I thought of using it again cos my skin has been so dry lately!! My current moisturiser doesn't seem to be working well for me anymore I wonder why. Is it cos of ageing that my skin changes? It's annoying to have oily and dry skin at the same time. Why do I have one more problem that I have to worry about. Oh yes, I have been snacking often too so I have zits lately. That's another one more. OOH wait, I think my hair falls more too. Oh gosh what is happening. Is it stress or ageing? OR BOTH? Omg I need help!! ARRRGGGHHHH!!! (ﾉ ○ Д ○)ﾉ　

On to accessories! I haven't mentioned about them in a long time. I kept wearing the same few all the while when I went out with my friends. But sometimes, I do feel a little bored of the same thing so I thought of getting some new ones for myself. In fact those bead ones are really cheap! That metal bracelet I got looks really beautiful but I haven't yet put it on! And the necklace was in fact a earring at first, I transformed the heart thing as a pendant instead. Cos I think it'll look better this way. hehehe. (*^｡^*)

THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH SNACKING!!  I have to remember that! xD Cos I just keep getting hungry like all the time! It's not my fault since I have to use so much brain work. And snacks made feel better cos there's just those nice taste in my mouth. Although mostly MSG salt that probably made me drop more hair. lol. But I'm getting more chocs too. Argh but equally bad actually. -_-

Anyway, this is just a small part of the snacks that I've bought cos I think they look better in photos since they're unopened. I have more than this. Oops, but I haven't gained any weight so far. All because of stress!! Damn you. lol.


This is one cute thing I wanna post here. My friend got me some chocs and skincare samples wrapped in this Halloween bag. It's so cute although it comes a little late. lol. So now you see, I'll owe her a present. (｡-_-｡)

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I've got no mood nor motivation to study for my profession and it has already tire me out the moment when I started class in July. I've been thinking a lot lately how am I to plan for my future on this. Well I've already decided.....that I'll give up. This dec will be the last shot I'm gonna give. Although I don't have any confidence in passing anymore. I know it'll be a waste of all my years of hard work and money into studying, but it's not like I wanna aim to be at the top. I'm satisfied to be in a junior post and having more time of my own than slogging all my life for work, like what a few of my friends are doing. That's not the kind of life that I want. Although having the full cert is the best thing but the time limit is just unfair. It puts people to stress than anything else. I've heard and seen lots of people giving up cos of this. It's probably just not the one for me. Well, maybe I'm gonna regret for not studying even harder or whatsoever, but I'm not gonna do it at the expense of my health. My sleep has been affected so much ever since July. I have sleepless nights which torture me so much I wanna bang my head and drop dead. Either way I'm probably gonna regret in some way, but I can only make the best decision for myself and be sure of what I want. I need to put my focus on something way better and worth it. I need to stop overworking my brain for something that I don't like at all. I need to be happy with my life and stop troubling over things that I have no control of. That's all that I can say.


And there now, I just hope I can get support and understanding from people who cares.

May tomorrow be a better day always.

My purchases ~May 2015

Did a little shopping last month but gosh I'm feeling it wasn't enough!! (*´з｀*)ﾉ

The great thing is that I finally found a lip balm that has a nice sweet colour and yet it doesn't have the menthol sensation! Thank goodness! Although it's really creamy but I can feel it moisturizes my lips better than the Maybelline lip gloss which always dries up my lips!! I love the colour of the gloss too but it's a pity that it made me uncomfortable each time I used it. =( I began to think that lip stick/lip gloss are probably not for me. A little sad though..but I've happy with my new-found love. lol.

I've dumped away some hand creams that reminds me of unhappy times. Lol.. Wonder if there is such a thing but yes, there are smells will remind me of those times when I used it. I hated them and since I've stopped using them, might as well throw or give them away. Anyway I'm glad I got this new hand cream as a gift at the right time when I need it! Touching so much paper everyday is seriously drying up my hands so much, not to mention that I have paper cuts every now and then so it's definitely a need for me to take care of my precious hands now. haha.

3 more new products bought but I've not started using them yet! Good grief, got them cos of sales. lol. I think it's always good to stock up some stuffs first cos whenever you need to get something cos you ran out of it, you usually can't find them! What a cruel reality. xD  I shall evaluate them some time later then. And this will be my first CC cream! I'm excited since it's a Japan product! Hope it's much better than the BB cream I'm currently using. Hahaha. [No idea when will I even try a DD cream =p]

Got this hip hugger cos supposedly that it'll be useful for me much better than a belt. Since there's always been the problem of wearing pants that are loose at the back. Somehow, it didn't turn out the way that I thought of it to be. Maybe it depends on the pants that I'm wearing. Well well... I'll see. I hope it's something I can really continue using it for a very long time. lol.


Next, I still wanna do more shopping!! My to-buy list is still there~~~ xD