What can be wrong?

Whatever has happened yesterday and today! I'm still upset with myself now, so yeah what's the best way than to blog here right now. ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡  I'm glad I took a day off today but I was thinking since I have a break so why not cook Japanese curry that I've not done for a year already. Yeah so I cramped everything up and planned this. Was that the reason why it didn't turned out good cos subconsciously I wasn't actually ready and have the 'magic' to do so? It was really weird since I followed the same steps as before, but my food got burnt. It's definitely not nice to eat burned food and it hasn't happened for a dish that I was in fact so proud of to do for the past few times. Why does it have to happen now?  (´；Д；｀) Yeah I know it was of no point to cry over it anymore and be so upset but I don't know if I have the mood again to cook this next year or maybe I should do something else. Argh, what's more my salad yesterday turned out sour and it also wasn't on par as compared to last month's. Something is wrong with me and I have no idea why!! It's really so weird!!!

One good reason I can think of to comfort myself would probably be the lack of more than enough sleep that I should be getting. =(

Oops, right now I'm gonna continue my post from missing out a photo for Saturday's!

This is my first xmas present that I received for this year! Thanks to my dear pal for that thought although we take turns to carry the load while climbing last last week. haha. I have no idea for now if I'm able to have the time to do that music box out. It seemed a lot of work to put them together lol. But I would love to try. That's quite a meaningful gift I appreciate that. ❣

And I couldn't resist getting these notebooks of owl prints although the inner pages are just lines and nothing special but the covers just wins over my heart. lol. I'm happily buying them I don't care!! Rather than boring cover notebooks even if they're much cheaper. xD

I don't wanna flood my insta too much with this cutie since my posts are always about food and cats and other boring stuffs but okay maybe it's still food and the same cats. hahaha. (≧▽≦) I really like this blue-eyed but it ignores me mostly and that's the best photo I can take when I get to spot it. Somehow I'm poisoned or something I even have dreams of keeping a cat which brightens up my life but then there are also other bits of weird things appearing in my dreams so I don't know what's going on inside my brain. For some unknown reasons, I've been elongating my sentences I don't know when to stop with a full stop! I just keep blabbering non-stop really somebody has to stop me from getting overly excited and speaking all at once without rest. Oh yeah, maybe that's the problem. I'm not getting the rest I should have. (｡-_-｡) I have to stop at some point my dear bud U should really stop me. And from eating too much chocos!!! (ﾟOﾟ)

Being lonely?

A topic that I didn't want to broach on, but it was after I've watched Rent-a-cat movie on tv that gets me thinking about it.

I have even talked about it to a friend of mine, how much I don't like to hear the word lonely and that I have been asked this question quite often "Are you lonely?" I just don't get why..

Why is that being alone sums up as being lonely? (-_-)


Maybe it's because I'm too used to be alone that I don't feel it or find this a problem? I don't know!! I really don't know how does loneliness feel. I just find the word lonely to be of a negative meaning, more like being pitiful and miserable that no one will know even if you are dead and so I don't like to hear it. And how is it that I look like that to some people?  I have no idea.... (x_x)

I don't find being alone a problem since I can be in my own world, I can do whatever I want... I need not surround myself with people whom I have to please. Sometimes it can be so tiring to have people around that you have to bother about them so often......

Yet, there are times where people think I'm independent cos I'm alone. U know what, I'm just amused at how many different people thinks of me, and this can be so annoying. Well well, there are just people around who like to say things in front of other people and you have no idea what are their thoughts based on.... ⋋_⋌

Humans are just annoying, cats aren't isn't it? Maybe I was poisoned by this show. I'll rather be surrounded by cats. Lol.


I really thought the word lonely is a taboo for me, until I just recalled that I've used this word before in my lyric work!! LOL, can I just laugh at myself somehow. There are always things that I done without realizing it...

Now that I look back at my lyric, 留別 Ryuubetsu was actually such a lonely song. Argghhh.. I really wished I can stopped using this word. It doesn't feel that good. But my song seems to be at that topic.. and I feel I wrote it well, didn't I?  But why....why should such a thing even exist?  What I couldn't take it is that upon watching the movie, I can't believe how Japanese people can say out the word "寂しい" [= lonely] so easily!!  I don't know why but I just feel uncomfortable to hear that from anyone, cos it made me feel this world is so cruel. HOW CAN THIS HAPPEN. NO ONE SHOULD BE LEFT FEELING THIS WAY!

I might be getting a little worked up but why should this be how the real life is?


Really, I don't like anyone to use that word so easily... it probably indicates that you want someone to be with you, but instead it made me feel this world is cruel I don't want to hear. It's as though no one is gonna care for anyone....anymore. (T_T)

Although I can't avoid it from happening but I would still like to avoid the word.

Just let me be out of the cruel truth. It doesn't exist in my world. 



Please, don't make yourself feel lonely. And don't say that.


寂しい一人～ネコ貸します。

My Anime & Drama list ~ April 2015

I supposed it's about time to draw up a list of all amimes and dramas that I've watched this far although April isn't over yet. lol (^.^)

I didn't create a post for some though, cos I find there is nothing much about the storyline I can further talk about. But well, I will briefly talk about them for some note keeping sake, since I don't have a power brain to remember what I've watched. haha. Here goes:

Anime completed till April 2015:
01. Mokke
02. Myself; Yourself
03. Kotoura-san
04. Kobato.
05. Wolf Girl and Black Prince オオカミ少女と黒王子 → a comedy anime that makes you cry more than laugh imo. May seem like typical love story but still a nice one! Although at times I think Erika is being too stubborn and desperate to keep sticking to Kyouya for what he has done to her. To me, not an ideal romance that I wished to happen. lol.

06. Amnesia アムネシア OVA → Not actually interested in OVA but was kinda missing this anime story suddenly. lol. But really this OVA isn't quite nice/worth to watch imo cos it makes you confused instead. The story seem complicated when you first watched it. I remember I have to read the story plot to get what's going on. And so, it's still better to watch the full anime so you can understand what's going on after all. lol. 

07. Baka and test バカとテストと召喚獣 Season 1 and 2 and OVA → This anime is too cute with the avatars [summoned beings]!! (*'▽'*) Well I really like their storyline about school and academics cos it's so interesting that there's this thing called avatars that they can use for 'battle'. It's like a mini version of yourself! And the way the speak and fight is tooooo cute for me!! I realised I simply like this type of anime with some fighting going on. Reminds me of Yu-Gi-Oh! I watched on tv long long ago. But oh, I'm not gonna continue it. [Can't even remember where have I watched until and what's the story about. lol]

Anyway, the best part I like is in episode 4 in Season 2 where their avatars reveal their secrets!

Too cute for words. lol. (//∇//) I hope they have another season of fun again. (^ε^)-☆

08. Gekkan Shōjo Nozaki-kun 月刊少女野崎くん anime and 6 episode-OVA → This comedy is really great as recommended by my friend! Really loads of laughs for me. But the ending stunned me so I wasn't that satisfied with it. It could have end better, and not make Nozaki such a dumb guy. How could a romance shoujo manga artist not feel that a girl likes him. Argh argh. Anyway, I hope there is a Season 2. This story has the potential for more. lol.

09. Kamisama hajimemashita Season 1

Drama completed till April 2015:
01. Otomen
02. Yamada-kun to 7-nin no majo 山田くんと７人の魔女 → A comedy drama that I don't feel it's as good as Otomen since not all the episodes made me laugh. The funniest would be episode 5. I wouldn't say this is my favourite drama cos the story by itself isn't something interesting to me. This show is all about kissing here and there so that the witches could use their powers, but many of those witches don't know they are witches! Just too much kissing mainly so not that to my liking. lol. The only phrase I like from here is "The way you lived tomorrow makes your past change" by Yamada-kun.

Well, somehow I don't even know why I'm watching this just cos my friend asked me too. Maybe cos I just wanna try to watch another drama at that time. lol.

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Anime completed previously [past 2 years]:
01. *Nichijou - ending not seen yet
02. Hyouka
03. Amnesia
04. *Rozen Maiden 2013 - ending not seen yet
05. Another
06. Requiem from the Darkness

It kinda irks me why I can't get to watch the ending for some animes. lol. Why aren't all the episodes available especially the ending!! And then I became lazy to find them again next time. *sweat* There are actually some animes that I have completed long long ago when I was attending school full time. [eg. Air, Kanon, Da Capo, Higurashi no Naku Koro ni etc] But I can't recall the list back then, nor the storyline anymore. So I shall just leave them at the back of my head since I couldn't come up anything for this post. (;´д｀)  My Japanese level was also at a much lower level at that time and most of the time I wasn't concentrating on what the characters are talking about. lol. Kinda wasted but listening is really skill I have to pick up well now. Hehe.

Anime gave up/stopped halfway:
01. Tokyo Ghoul 東京喰種 → Sudden no interest in anything gore and bloody.
02. Shiki 屍鬼 → Was watching till episode 4, but then suddenly the uploader's vids are all gone and I couldn't continue anymore. =(
03. D.Gray-man  → Lost interest in watching since the story seemed so long and gets boring. -_-

Pending/Recommended:
01. Nurarihyon no Mago
02. Psycho-Pass
03. Saenai Heroine no Sodatekata
04. Bokura wa Minna Kawaisou
05. xxxholic
06. Uroborosu
07. *Kamisama hajimemashita Season 2!!!

I wonder if my pending list seems long or should I even try to go back to those that I've stopped halfway through. lol.

Feels satisfied too that I've managed to watch 9 animes + 2 dramas which is a project I decided earlier on this year. I'm glad I really did it this much. Wonder if this amount is considered a lot or just okay in a matter of 4 months? Well I enjoyed a lot so as to pass time and learn Japanese. And since I like to write, I feel good able to write somewhat like a review about them just like this post. (*⌒0⌒)♪


So yeah, I'd probably clear the pending list above. Or if my mood leads me to discover more animes. xD

Let's see! (^_-)-☆

Anime Kobato. こばと。

I'm continuing my recent enthusiasm in watching comedy animes! And so, I've found Kobato in which I'm liking it the more I watch. The story can seem pretty cliche though. That this girl Kobato has a mission to complete in filling the bottle with Konpeito → because she has a place where she wants to go [and that's very vague at the beginning cos it didn't explain why so] She's also such a muddle-headed person! There's just so many things that she don't know of [besides the fact that she lost her memories], I wonder is there anyone who even suspect whether she's a human or not! lol.

Well, but the good thing is that she's a positive person and strives to do her best in everything as much as she could. She keeps saying 頑張ります！in every episode. And that made me feel as much motivated as her. Lol. Her never-give-up attitude is commendable, but sometimes it's just stubbornness and she really didn't get hold of the situation. So of course, I do get irritated as much as how Ioryogi feels. Lol. And yeah, the best part has to be the cute blue plushie Ioryogi spitting out fire at her. xD

Healing hearts is something very nice to do by helping others. I feel it's something noble somehow. It's not something easy to do isn't it? The only touching episode is episode 5 on the story of fireflies. And the scene towards the end is really pretty~

I don't even remember have I seen a firefly before. But it does seem something worthy to see its beauty since dramas and animes are mentioning about this. =)

Oh, paper cranes!! The moment when they mentioned about it, I thought of those that I did before. Oh man I did really little!! （＞０＜） It was said that you fold a paper crane to wish someone a recovery from an illness? Especially a thousand cranes of them? Well I read up a bit about it and there are few sayings too. But anyways, it's just about having your wish granted, which is definitely nice. I wonder this one on completing 1000 cranes within one year and all be made by the person who is to make the wish at the end really true. Wow.. Is this worth a shot? Should I think about trying this? lol.  

There's quite a lot of cuteness so that's another fun to it. (^ε^)-☆

I would love to have a kitty with blue eyes~~ (=^_^=)

Hahaha. xD

Towards the end it actually bring me to tears. (┯_┯) Can't believe it was that sad but the ending is good one, although there can be things that I don't understand just by watching the anime. So I really had to read up! Seems like the manga is more detailed but why can't they reflect it in the anime too? lol. It's probably the only anime I feel I have to read up to understand better cos the anime just don't explain things clearly. But other than that, it's pretty much something nice to watch to brighten up your day. ╰(*´︶`*)╯

A happy ending is also something worth crying to.

Kobato. storyline @ wikipedia

Anime Myself; Yourself マイセルフ；ユアセルフ

I just completed this anime today! Now it seems really fast for me to complete watching one since I tend to take my own sweet time. lol. And so I realised an anime of 13 episodes is really short! I used to think that it's probably just nice since I don't like to keep wondering when is the story gonna end. But now I find that 20 over episodes are more like just nice! It gives enough time to really look at the whole story. Of course I'm still not fond of super long ones like over a hundred episodes which will tire me out.  (´･_･`) I mean, my patience will wear out. And some parts will be so long winded, which is why I've stopped watching Bleach long ago....


Anyway, back to Myself; Yourself. I happened to chance upon this anime and like it cos there's some comedy to it. There's this part where Hinako wants to win Shūsuke's heart. It made me agree and laughed at the same time. (≧▽≦)

It's also for my reference. lol. He mentioned caring, soft-spoken, gentle, obedient and never behaves violently. [I think I don't fit for the last one. xD ]

This cat attracted me too!! It's really cute!! But too bad, it didn't have a good ending....  (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)

Towards the end, the story is getting sad. Somewhat affected my mood unexpectedly. It's not quite pleasant to know the truth to so many things. And the title of the anime is the title of the song that Nanaka is playing to with her violin. It seems to have a good ending but I felt it wasn't proper. Kinda vague that makes me feel they could have done better. A little pity~~

Anyway, I'm satisfied I managed to complete something. Haha.

Myself; Yourself storyline @ wikipedia

Anime Mokke もっけ

It's some time around November that I got back to watching anime, but this time is about Japanese demon/spirits theme. I wanted to carry on either one of the three animes on my previous list, but I didn't have the urge to! lol. Somehow I don't have the mood for violence/gore anime at the moment.. Maybe cos of Isshi, so subconsciously I'm still more inclined towards yurei type of anime? My mood just brings me to watching Mokke, in which I'm glad I discovered this, because it isn't scary at all.. It's an anime that brings you warmth. (◕ܫ◕)

I'm also happy there's a cat in the anime because it's so cute!! There's even an episode about cats, saying "Cats have their own world to deal with." lol. It's interesting to know quite some stuffs about Japanese yurei, or the other worlds. And most importantly, I'm trying to practise my listening. lol. It's probably the first time I'm seriously listening to what the characters are talking and repeat after them so as to digest. xD


The last episode made me sad too when both Mizuki and Shizuru cried upon the death of their grandma. The ending was pretty good, at least it end with a positive note...

And so, Mizuki said this:

It made me think the same too "一志さまもどこかでこの青空を見ているかな。"


Is this all a coincident again?? (x_x)


I will believe this is what Isshi-sama wants me to see, and be positive about my future once more. ( T_T)＼(^-^ )


Glad that I've completed an anime before the year ends. Time to look out for a new one! (⌒‐⌒)

Drama Shomuni ショムニ

I don't know what's got into me, I'm actually watching Japanese dramas! Lol. I was much more into animes but suddenly, I thought of watching an old drama I've came across about 10 years ago, and watching it certainly brings back those memories! Well I suddenly got sick of watching so much bloody animes and thought comedy drama would be nice to brighten up my days, since the month of September was pretty much a tiring month for me. Oh how should I put it >_<

Anyway, Shomuni didn't bring that sense of familiarity as much as Trick that I've watched long ago too. Perhaps such an office type of dramas didn't attract me when I was young. Lol. I didn't really watch fully for any dramas back then, but certainly Shomuni leaves a very little impression in my head. Haha.

Have watched the 3rd season first and then the 2nd season. Lol. I'm totally not going by the order but anyways I know the outline of the story so it didn't mattered. What I love to see at some parts is the cat that they have in their department. xD This kitty is really fat and adorable and so huggable!! No one bears to throw it away!

It just makes me happy to see this cat in every episode. Lol. （＾∇＾）


Overall the 3rd season is really good, and I laughed so much. xD In fact I had a little exhaustion from watching so many episodes at one go. Because of this urge to complete the drama asap. Lol. But it was the actually the Final season? I know there's the latest one 2013 season, but the actresses playing the characters are all different except for Chinatsu. Makes me think twice on whether should I be watching it. lol.


Anyway after watching this drama, I actually wanna be like them. >_< I don't mind such a job. I'd rather have one like that where it's not that stressful. Although it's really a waste of anyone's youth to be doing menial tasks at work. But there's pretty much spare time for them to do their own stuffs too. And so, I kinda like it that way. Okay, as for now I feel like this. But maybe in the future, I will start thinking where is this gonna lead me to? How can I ended up like this for more years to come and waste my life there right? Well, although probably I shouldn't be thinking this much... but maybe because of my current work that makes me kinda dreaded to deal with it. I really don't know what kind of job has such a bright future ahead, unless is something really of my interest. Somehow I really rather be a writer than be in a typical office job. And work isn't something fun at all. Oh wells...

That goes for watching office type of dramas at this point of time. Argh.

Let's see... after I've completed the 2nd season, what shall I watch next? lol.

Shomuni storyline @ wikipedia