Reflection~

2014 is coming to an end! And so I wanna write down all my thoughts for the whole of this year.. It sure has gone by so fast!!


I've looked back at my little diary for the year. Oh my, I didn't update my diary every single day as what I would want to, because most of the time I'll be so tired at the end of the day. And the day seemed as usual with nothing interesting for me to note down [especially during the period when I was working], so I simply left them out. But looking back at those blanks for the day I felt empty now. Lol. I could have wrote something yeah? Even if nothing special has happened. At least I won't make myself feel strange on how that day goes by.. haha.

One thing bad is that I've been sleeping at 2am at the start of this year. And after I've started work, I've to adjust my body clock and that's quite tough at first.  I have to make myself sleep at 11pm so that I could have enough rest and wake up on time, but this also means I won't have enough time to do the things I wanted to do. And also everytime after I got home, I simply do not have the energy to think/study. And I thought it won't be good if I forced myself either, in which is true cos nothing goes inside my head. Now to think of it, it's really bad and I really wanna change this! I didn't make myself study Japanese just as I want to, nor be able to write lyrics...so u see, especially my lyrics I've stopped for about 5 months! It's horrible!! But of course, I do need inspiration so that I can pen down nicely. But I felt that somehow I'm losing touch. And now that I wanna get back to it, I'm cracking my head really hard over how I can get it done like I want to.

Alright, for lyrics wise, quality has got to be the most important. I'll try my best again, since I've pretty much wrote quite a lot this year. But for my Japanese I definitely have to push myself harder!! So that I can successfully write one directly in Japanese! That would be one thing I'm looking forward to so much! (*^◯^*)

I pretty much have had ups and downs this year.  Still can remember the time when I was so sick and sad and lost...But soon after I found my direction, and I've gained a lot afterwards. But I do have many thoughts going through my mind, since many things have happened. lol. I've always feel that I need to tell/remind myself that I have done enough! Don't do too much, cos I'd always cared too much. And in the end, I might hurt myself. I'm glad I did so actually, cos if I really spoke of everything and really go on too far for it, I'll probably be a fool. I looked serious because I had to. Not that I fake it, but I give in to a certain extend.

Argh...why some things have to be so complicated.  (￣^￣)


I've learnt quite a lot really, everytime I thought I was confused and not know what to do, but I actually had the answer in my heart. When you could actually pause and think clearly, or talk to someone who listens to every single bit of your worries, it helps so much! When I've sorted out my thoughts, it feels so much better.  (^｡^) I also believe my hard work pays off for being patient. Hehe.


I've looked through my blog posts and I've seen one thing best is that I blogged so much about Kagrra, especially their concerts! I've actually watched so much this year~!! And because this year is isshi's year!! Many happy events fall on this year~! I'm also glad that I get to know a lot of people this year, and so I've gained a lot from sharing and understanding. I feel really blessed and thankful. And really motivated...There's so much I want to do and contribute. Although there are times where I'm just lazy, but overall I can make myself do the necessary things on time as I've planned. I'm glad that I can be on track of what I wanted to. And is also cos of work I finally know how to get myself do proper time planning. lol. Although at first it was exhausting that every single moment of my time I have things to do and I feel that I have got no time to rest and think properly for myself. All in all, I'm glad I could make myself do so much, I really have the self-discipline yeah?! haha. I'm also glad that I've managed to fulfill my resolutions! I didn't come up with them in vain!!  ｖ（＾＿＾ｖ）

And so, we should always look ahead towards happiness for our life. Everything will come to an end, so don't look back at those unhappy memories no more.


My life will change for the better. Because I have the strength in me.

2015 I'm coming!! Will make my resolutions real soon~!! (^_－)－☆

Anime Mokke もっけ

It's some time around November that I got back to watching anime, but this time is about Japanese demon/spirits theme. I wanted to carry on either one of the three animes on my previous list, but I didn't have the urge to! lol. Somehow I don't have the mood for violence/gore anime at the moment.. Maybe cos of Isshi, so subconsciously I'm still more inclined towards yurei type of anime? My mood just brings me to watching Mokke, in which I'm glad I discovered this, because it isn't scary at all.. It's an anime that brings you warmth. (◕ܫ◕)

I'm also happy there's a cat in the anime because it's so cute!! There's even an episode about cats, saying "Cats have their own world to deal with." lol. It's interesting to know quite some stuffs about Japanese yurei, or the other worlds. And most importantly, I'm trying to practise my listening. lol. It's probably the first time I'm seriously listening to what the characters are talking and repeat after them so as to digest. xD


The last episode made me sad too when both Mizuki and Shizuru cried upon the death of their grandma. The ending was pretty good, at least it end with a positive note...

And so, Mizuki said this:

It made me think the same too "一志さまもどこかでこの青空を見ているかな。"


Is this all a coincident again?? (x_x)


I will believe this is what Isshi-sama wants me to see, and be positive about my future once more. ( T_T)＼(^-^ )


Glad that I've completed an anime before the year ends. Time to look out for a new one! (⌒‐⌒)

New space~

My brain gets a little stuck for the past 2 weeks, wonder is it cos that I've stopped work. lol. Since the new year is gonna come real soon, I'd better start clearing stuffs too, and get my brain sorted with all the plans.  (≧ロ≦)

It's only now that I realized I have so many ''useless' things that I just want to keep, which is indeed of probably little or no value. Not something that I'll love and appreciate so much at this age anymore. lol. And since I have to move my stuffs, I can't keep them anymore. I can only now leave as memories~~

This Hello Kitty that I've painted super long ago. Lol. It was meant to be a coin bank I think.

I remembered collecting them from some ice cream that I ate... But never got Hello Kitty itself at all. (,_,)

Oh, and there's also some other stuffs like five stones and....I can't remember! Too much to take pictures perhaps! *forgotten*

Well, byes all~~   (╥﹏╥)

It was quite a rush (for me) to prepare for the gift exchange, but luckily I managed to get them on time. lol. Choosing gifts especially for Xmas is really tough! Be it whether the one whom I'm giving it to is someone whom I'm close with. Was a little stressed over it cos I'm almost sure that we'll open up the presents on the spot in front of everyone's presence. Haha.. and I was right. Because that would also be fun that way.  (≧▽≦) Anyway I hope the receiver will like them. Or maybe the cute bear just wins it all. haha.

These would probably be gifts to myself. (^-^) But I won't intend to use it so soon. lol. Oh and there's also skincare/cosmetic products in which I need to top up too! Argh, December is such a month to spend money. ＼(>o<)ノ Time to buy new ones for the new year!!

A little didn't expect that hand cream would actually be of so much use to me! Well but that's also cos I have to touch so much paper all the time and most are really dusty! Argh a dusty environment is really kinda horrible. The air was also bad, which made my throat really dry for quite long when I first started out.

Alright, I have to start pushing myself more since there's only about a week left. There's also some backlog I have to clear! I really hope I can rush as many things out as I can and end 2014 beautifully. (⌒▽⌒)

I can't think...

I wanted to blog, to at least make myself feel that I'm productive today, but I can't think what to type for now. -_- So shall just post all my food pictures that keep accumulating in my phone. lol. What a wrong decision to do, especially night time. I'm making myself hungry. (x_x)

Because I love curry too much...!

Finally I had Hiyashi chuka!  I love with the wasabi~

This beer isn't quite tasty at all. (¬_¬)

And this ramen is really oily!! But it still is yummy to me of course. haha.

^That was a very filling meal but I managed to eat it really clean! I guess I was really in such a good mood that time after a-nation and meeting my fren. ＼(≧▽≦)ノ

This spicy hot pot I'd probably wasted my money on it just to join my colleagues. It's just so-so and not much ingredients and yet it's quite expensive even though we shared. Maybe afterall, spicy really isn't for me.

Korean cold noodles treat! But I don't like such noodles that is so hard to chew! Didn't expect that. I think I only like their side cold dishes. (¬_¬)

This one is steaming hot but we couldn't finish it! What a pity~  The sauce is pretty ok~

This one is a vegetarian 炸酱面! Really tasty~ I remembered I ate it the day I left....


The most recent, this new western food stall that just opened near my place.

The chicken steak was actually much better than their spaghetti. (^-^)


Alright, seems like I had some disappointment in the food that I ate and yet I took pictures and mentioned them. lol. I didn't intend to do so but since I feel the need to clear and update some stuff to this blog. And I think I shouldn't be bothered about editing them since I didn't do that for my earlier post. Argh, am I too hungry now? That when I see these photos I still can recall the taste of them. Lol!


Anyway, at least I got one thing done at last! Recently the topic revolves around me still is food! Be it on tv or from friends! Everyone seems to explore so much more than me. I don't think that mattered a lot since I'm picky and I don't like to head to a certain place just for the sake of eating the food as recommended. I'm just a little bothered that I have to keep feeling hungry till now. lol. How was I supposed to slim and lost a little weight? Oh yeah, and somehow I hope I need not spend so much on food. There's too many other things I need to spend on. (>ω<)


Wonder is that all that I have when I'm sure there's many food pictures but I post them at different places I'm confused. (-_-) Maybe there's too much Japanese food. And for some reason, I might be getting a little afraid of Japanese food.....

Let's see, I'll post more again when I have the mood! Hopefully, no more Japanese food? (^_^;)

Happy birthday to isshi-sama♪ ~ 7 December

Finally I could wish Isshi on his birthday this time. Especially on his year. Goodness! (ﾟOﾟ)

Yeah, and on this day Nao hasn't forget too. But I wonder why is he calling Isshi a rainy type guy? I didn't know about it! If isshi liked rain.. Well, the sky has to be this clear because Isshi is happy~!! Hahaha.. Nevertheless, the sky picture became something that we just want to post when mentioning about isshi...


Well anyway, I had my Japanese exam on that day and my nervousness was added on by my ex-colleague who happened to sit beside me. Lol.. Even though I wasn't that confident at all and I frown so much especially during the listening section (>_<) ,  I'm still happy that I make myself attempt it, for the first time. At least I tried doing so. Although it's really late for me to take exam at this age I think. And especially my friends are already at a higher stage than me. (^_^;) But alas, how can I really compare since I hadn't take any classes before right? But still, I can't help to think I could have done so much better if I had studied even harder before this year...

Okay, I'll not think so much then. Since this year isshi was the one who changed me so much. That's the very reason that motivated me and I should be happy of a lot! No matter how the results turn out to be, I'll still have to continue to work hard! Anyway, this is the day that I'm also happy to see Kagrra, fans still remembering this day~~ ╰(*´︶`*)╯


And I made myself bought a cheap cake, or rather low quality cake just because I feel the need to get one for his birthday. lol.

Thank goodness it didn't taste horrible. lol. At least I think any chocolate flavoured hasn't taste so bad.. It wasn't a delicious cake but I'm still happy I did something for isshi.


I could say that, right?

It was still a day worth to remember...

Nao's tweet translation @ 鬼雀の音情