I'm so out of this world~

I began to have this feeling that I didn't have for a super long time..

When I'm surrounded with certain people...I feel I was sort of there for nothing.

But yet my presence still mean something. That's what I was told. I feel comforted at some point. But still I wasn't sure of myself, where I stand...

Does that matter a lot? Do I have to go that far to impress everyone? Or is it that there is still this barrier in me and that's why I'm unable to have the attention I wanted to?

Seems like I still can't get over some things...... (>_<)


Have watched Michelle Phan's Pillow talk which made me feel good about this little intimate talk. THIS is inspirational and comforting. (￣▽￣)



"Boredom inspire new ideas.
This is the moment [alone time] where you can really develop and become the person you will be in the future"

I love what she said. So I should be getting myself having more ideas and inspiration to do all that I want when I can right now.♥♥


Aww and the dreamcatcher at the back of her room! Reminds me that I have one earlier this year.  (^_^) Maybe I should stop all the thinking and worrying but to dream more instead? lol.


Dream and become the person I want to, not for anyone but myself.

I should just be in my own world then~

4th lyric release - 留別

Yeah quite a few Buck-Tick songs have got a deep impression in me. And at certain times their songs just keep replaying inside my head, and then giving me the feels to start writing a song similar to theirs with that same sort of feeling. How is it that I can feel so relateable to them somehow. Lol.

And so, now I have to release this work of mine cos this song Dress just keeps replaying in my mind. Although my work would probably not be any similar to this song at all. But well, is the melody but not the words though. haha.

Dark song once again. It has been a dull week, so....

[Inspired by BUCK-TICK Dress]

留別(りゅうべつ)
The grey skies which conceal my thoughts
The love I looked away the other day
Can I never be awake?

Tears which leave a sigh of misery
why are we left to consign to fate

*Why can't I ever say a farewell
without a sense of guilt
Held by the lonely moon,
I let myself be poisoned again and again

The sunrise which led me lost sight of tomorrow
The unspoken pain I was swallowing forcefully
Can I never be awake?

Scars which hide the pitifulness
why are we facing it alone

*Why can't I ever say a farewell
without a sense of guilt
Held by the lonely moon,
I let myself be poisoned again and again

*Why can't I bring myself to say all
before I'm left with regrets
Held by the lonely moon,
I was poisoned again and again

 ~~~~~
 I'm probably feeling sad and empty for some reason now.. 

And that is just...grey. 

~Yuuka

My new inspiration: Buck-Tick

Somehow from the start of this year in January I listened to Buck-Tick and was inspired by them so much! They caught my attention while I was watching this dark horror anime 屍鬼 Shiki where Buck-Tick's くちづけ Kuchizuke is the opening song. I kinda like the song when I first heard it. It does match the anime, somewhat horror feels? That sort of rock feel. Lol~

It wasn't the first time I heard of Buck-Tick's songs though. I once listened to lots of Buck-Tick's song last year on Loli-pop Station because of Kagrra,. I happened to come across this web radio site where it plays Kagrra, music at that designated time and I went to listen to it. It was Kagrra, vs Buck-Tick. I have no idea of this band initially if not for this radio site. The Buck-Tick songs that I heard [of cos I can't remember what songs are those anymore] gave me the impression that their style is somewhat electronic rock? I can't describe the genre well anyway. I just remembered that they're rock music style is somewhat different and varies quite a bit. Unlike Kagrra, which is really just traditional rock. So I would say they explore quite a lot which is kinda good for a band? =)

 #Edit: Can't recall who wins until I went back to see the results last years. So Buck-Tick won. I could have guessed so since Kagrra, didn't have any special 'events' by them so far. That's why there's special day for Buck-Tick. *envy*

Can't helped but to mention them now cos they have been my source of inspiration for my lyric writing. I see their lyrics too, and I feel that I can write something like them and so my style has became like theirs! I guess it's cos they're songs are relateable to me, while Kagrra, is too much on demon/spirits/folktale stuff that it's so hard for me to write just like isshi. I think I'm more inclined to express my feeling through lyrics, not to recite a story like isshi. Lol... Can I say so?

Well then, all thanks to Buck-Tick for now. I won't say I'm very into them since I'm not really exploring them but just plain listening. I want to focus on a few singers that I support till now. So I'm just casually listening to Buck-Tick and I won't call myself as their fan. But they're kinda important. If not I couldn't have wrote so much this year without their music with me. Okay, let's just say they have become a little part of my life now. Haha.

Therefore, I'll release some of my works too which is inspired by them. I hope they're good to anyone reading it. Or maybe, lyric release would be a project for me this year. So that I would make myself write more. haha.


Yeah next up, my lyric work coming soon.... (^_-)-☆

I'm gonna recover soon right..

For the whole week or so, I'm actually having headaches! It comes on and off and sometimes the pain just made me unable to do anything at all. So I can't focus on what I want to do most of the time for the past week. Horrible~! The feeling of unaccomplishment was added on when I fell sick with sore throat and flu. Couldn't sleep well at night. And no matter what, I just can't change my sleeping habit somehow. Sobs. (┯_┯)

Some little things to mention about, I have got insect bites and swollen eyelid out of the blue again. I hate these annoying things that come without any reason. Why why.. I have body aches too, but that was due to me overexert myself while exercising on a weekend.

Whatever is this for this month! I have to bear with so much pain. （＞０＜）


Anyway, my lips have been drying out a lot too. So much so often this has never happened before. Because I'm still sick so I'm drinking up lots of water like a water tank now. (¬_¬) Ok, I haven't been taking any medicine at all till now cos I think it's all not that serious except the headache. I have recovered mostly now. I just hope that I'll get back all my energy once again. Haha.


Bought a new shampoo this time is a Korean brand. I'm not sure if it's good for me so far? I don't know how to evaluate if a shampoo is good or bad to use. Cos so far all the ones I've been using feels the same to me. And usually the reason why my hair feels dry at times is due to not using conditioner or my hair oil. Otherwise, I'm not that particular about shampoo. But I'm not sure if my hair fall has got anything to do with the shampoo. It's always been like this. I wonder what can I do about it now. How to increase hair growth!! Argh.

So many more things for me to check out and do something about it again. 

I will charge up! 

3rd lyric release - 永々 Everlasting

Up till now I was only able to come up with one song inspired by Kagrra, for this year, in which isn't entirely a happy song. I know it's hard for me to force out writing a happy song much that I want to for this Happiness day March 20th. Well, since this day has come I still wanna post a lyric like I wanted to initially. But not the one song I mentioned earlier on... Somehow I didn't have the feelings to post that yet. I just wanna go by my feelings...So I'm gonna post this work of mine I wrote last year, so seemingly written for my isshi-sama. Since I wrote so much with Kagrra, in mind last year.

It's not quite something so sad right? Although it probably is...

I hope he understands my feelings.

永々(えいえい) Everlasting
Every time I look solemnly at your picture
I got reminded of my childish self
The regret builds up, unrelentingly
a tear falls down my cheek
And the sky began to turn cloudy

To this day, I can only say
"Will you ever be back again?"

*The colours of the land keeps changing, while life continues to revolve
Your smile stays, wrapping me with gentleness
My heart won't stop as my dream will never be lost

Every time I look casually at the sky
I recalled the bitterly happiness that you gave
Touched by this everylasting moment
a tear falls down my cheek
And the sky began to be clear

To this day, I will only say
"Will we ever meet again?"

*The colours of the land keeps changing, while life continues to revolve
Your smile stays, wrapping me with gentleness
My heart won't stop as my dream will never be lost

*My hopes will keep building while love continues to grow
Your voice remains, embracing me warmly, tenderly, passionately, that my heart won't stop
won't stop to see your dream for once

To this day, I will only say
"Will we ever meet again?"

~~~~~
Not quite a happy song but still happy that I posted my works once more!

And cos is something of isshi. My words to isshi...

I'm definitely happy. （＾∇＾）

~Yuuka

Ayu's been in Singapore?

How many times Ayu has been coming to Singapore quietly for yoga mostly, and not letting us know at all? Lol.

Have seen Ayu appearing in local news lately. But I'm already lazy to type out what's mentioned here since the news online appears much faster and this feels like repeating. lol.

The best has got to be Ayu's collaboration with JJ Lin, the pv the Gift that was just out! I only like the song but not the pv though. Ayu's wedding pv with Mannie in Virgin road scores better for me. There isn't much interaction between Ayu and JJ, and there isn't chemistry between them either. It's a little pity for such a beautiful song but I guess that's how they are satisfied with it already. Well, at least they collaborate. My next hope on Ayu coming to Singapore often not just for her yoga but also for her own concert soon! haha.


Next, the wait for Warning pv! Hope it's much better for a rock song!! 

Drama Otomen オトメン (乙男)

Watching drama this time cos I happen to come across this series adapted to live drama only instead of anime. Just before this, I was watching Wolf Girl and Black Prince anime and completed the 12 episodes in a matter of 2 days! I was too much into romantic comedy and so I couldn't stop!! But because there isn't much depth in the story so I'll skip posting about it. But anyways, this drama I complete watching it pretty fast too. In about 3 days or so? Except for the last episode I couldn't find it initially so it delayed my time. Well since now I've managed to find and watch it, time for me to post my thoughts! 

I like how the story goes, that this popular guy Asuka who excels at Kendo and looks manly to others, is actually someone who loves girly things. From cooking/baking, sewing cute plushies to reading shoujo manga....But this is a secret and something he doesn't want to reveal to others, and especially his mother, for that he's afraid she'll collapse if she know her son is so much like his father.

And because his father has left them to become a woman, he decided to clear his plushies away for his mother's sake. But look at this lovely room!! It's too cute and comfy for me I want to be in one of those! lol.

This guy is just too talented! For someone to be this good, okay I don't mind him being the popular guy. I mean, I hate typical stories about this popular guy and an ordinary girl that likes him, and how they ended up together.... But this one is good for me. I can accept it since Asuka is not like one of those proud and thinks-he-is-handsome kind. lol. And Ryo being the main female character, can't do any of the girly stuff and so she's just the opposite of Asuka. It's definitely nice to watch how Asuka teaches her with the cooking. He's always been helping her. While I'm just wondering why is the school so nice that you can just go to their kitchen and cook whatever you want when you're free. Why didn't I have the privilege at all? lol. 

The best thing that captures my heart the most is of course the food that Asuka made. It's too cute and lovely to be eaten!

I wonder when can I attain this level. That's what I love Japanese about.. haha.


There are quite a few things I learnt from this drama:
• Pink flowers mean "I love you". White flowers mean "never changing and pure".
• When you finally decide on something,  your motivation rises doesn't it?
• The real recipe is what the person who eats it remembers about the taste, or the person who made it. ^_^
 • And the part on seeing 2 dolphins together with someone means you're fated to be with the person forever!

This drama seems to focus a lot on honesty. Be honest with your feelings. Be honest to yourself. That's what I can conclude.  I'm also simply glad that because of this drama I feel so motivated. There's gonna be more things added to my to-do list plans. I wanna be as skilful as Asuka! How can a guy be so much better in those qualities that a girl should have! There is this thing in me now that I don't wanna lose out! lol. 


Alrights, now let's talk about the ending. I think it ended okay with the both of them running away from those...bodyguards? Somewhat like a typical ending, but still I supposed it was meant to have a good ending so the couple has to run away together. lol.

I don't know is it right of me to think that the ending is just meant for laughs? What's with the kid from the horror episode once again? lol. And for his mother to accept Asuka's decision to be with the person he likes is really quite unexpecting, since her mother has been strongly objecting and making decisions for him all along. It doesn't quite make sense for that part.

And is Ryo so innocent and believed everything that Tachibana said? lol. Unbelievable. (≧ω≦)


This last scene is probably the only thing I like from the episode! Ryo looks really pretty here.

Well then, it's still an enjoyable show. I would love to know a guy like Asuka. Hahaha. ｖ（=＾0＾=）ｖ


Otomen storyline @ wikipedia