#27 lyric: Carnival

This must be the long awaited lyric that I've been wanting to post since last month but I haven't got the mood to. (・・;) I think although I've made myself wrote this, it's still not that up to my satisfaction. There are many other styles that I wanna explore too, but I haven't got myself in the mood to pen down the way I wanted it to. (x_x) I wonder when will I get to write something like Soft Ballet since I'm into their style recently. But all I can do is to have the feel of listening to their songs than coming out with anything off my head. (T_T) It just seems something is missing in me and I can't explain it. I don't know what's wrong with myself for now. But at least I have pushed myself to come up with something this time for the start for this year so this is still considered good isn't it? (^_^);

Because I wanted to try on other styles, I've been listening to other favourite bands of mine besides Kagrra and Buck-Tick. Just last month it's the Gazette although it was difficult for me initially, because their songs are always so dark and deep. It's the second time I'm trying Gazette style which will always take me a real long time to write them! Ruki style is just too hard for me to follow I wonder what is he made of lol. But anyway, since mine is lyric-focused, I wrote it ridiculously long. And as for the song that got me to it was my long-time favourite that I used to blog about it 6 years ago! That was how the inspiration came to me back then to name my blog with the word. But I don't know what exactly about it am I blogging about at that moment. (≧ω≦) lol. As for now, I just think this song needs to get more attention cos it's one of the best heavy rock song from the Gazette imo. I simply love that theme. (*ﾟ∀ﾟ*)

[Inspired by the Gazette Suicide Circus]

Carnival ( カーニバル) 
Bleeding rose, as fragile as my heart
Raining tears of desolation, I can't turn back to where I've lost

In the dark clouded sky, where nightmare comes alive
Did I live enough to be destroyed and threatened?

What do the shadows mean if they can't be hidden
The chill of goodbyes that is killing me softly
paralyzing my thoughts into pain

"Madness is enough to make me shiver along 
that the reflection of myself don't seem to exist
A weakness I can't spell out 
luring me to the dead-end of my dreams
Will you be coming for me if I was abandoned?"

From the time I was kept awake -
*Merciless won't fade away
even at the bottom of desperation
I'm in need of a heartbreak to scream along in this carnival
before Cain gets into me

Just bury my heart to where you belong
before it is announced dead before it is lost

Why do people still wish if their prayers didn't get answered
The state of disappointment that is killing me gently
paralyzing my thoughts repeatedly into pain

"The disorder that makes me shiver along 
bringing about the suspicion of my existence 
A weakness I didn't want to admit
luring me to the dead-end without you 
Can I stay asleep until I was abandoned?" 

From the time I can't turn back - 
*Merciless won't fade away
even at the bottom of desperation
I'm in need of a heartbreak to scream along in this carnival
before Cain gets into me
~~~~~
Can you see that I was trying hard? 

I wanted to scream as much as I can, 

even without you. --Yuuka