7th lyric release - Requiem of rain

It's probably the hottest time of the year now in June, but then the weather has changed again and it's been rainy, which made my mood better now. (^_^) Have been feeling a little unwell few days back when it was really hot and how much I was hoping for the rain to come. lol. And so, I intended to post a rainy song of mine...hoping to make myself feel better. But anyways, let me just stick to it then, although I'm in a better condition now. (-｡-;)

[Inspired by BUCK-TICK Nocturne -Rain Song-]

Requiem of rain
Light flashes of profound memories,
the world shaken into ruins
Love has turned into destruction

Rain lightly tapping on my heart
To whom is the requiem playing for?

*Can hatred travel at the speed I couldn't catch up?
Darkness convinced me that it is in my eyes
The last bit of me has even given up
I don't want to dream, I don't want to wish
it's not coming

La~ la~ 

Devils crying for souls in despair
seemingly eating into my beliefs
I couldn't even spare myself off

Ripples attract and lead me to here
To whom is this requiem playing for? 

*Can hatred travel at the speed I couldn't catch up?
Darkness convinced me that it is in my eyes
The last bit of me has even given up
I don't want to dream, I don't want to wish
it's not coming

La~ la~

The only thing that spoke of our love,
is falling just like this rain

~~~~~
Rain made me feel calm and peaceful now instead of gloomy back then. I really wish it will continue to fall. 

Although the coldness may be hard to bear with. 

Just let the rain wash my worries away~~  

~~Yuuka 

My purchases ~May 2015

Did a little shopping last month but gosh I'm feeling it wasn't enough!! (*´з｀*)ﾉ

The great thing is that I finally found a lip balm that has a nice sweet colour and yet it doesn't have the menthol sensation! Thank goodness! Although it's really creamy but I can feel it moisturizes my lips better than the Maybelline lip gloss which always dries up my lips!! I love the colour of the gloss too but it's a pity that it made me uncomfortable each time I used it. =( I began to think that lip stick/lip gloss are probably not for me. A little sad though..but I've happy with my new-found love. lol.

I've dumped away some hand creams that reminds me of unhappy times. Lol.. Wonder if there is such a thing but yes, there are smells will remind me of those times when I used it. I hated them and since I've stopped using them, might as well throw or give them away. Anyway I'm glad I got this new hand cream as a gift at the right time when I need it! Touching so much paper everyday is seriously drying up my hands so much, not to mention that I have paper cuts every now and then so it's definitely a need for me to take care of my precious hands now. haha.

3 more new products bought but I've not started using them yet! Good grief, got them cos of sales. lol. I think it's always good to stock up some stuffs first cos whenever you need to get something cos you ran out of it, you usually can't find them! What a cruel reality. xD  I shall evaluate them some time later then. And this will be my first CC cream! I'm excited since it's a Japan product! Hope it's much better than the BB cream I'm currently using. Hahaha. [No idea when will I even try a DD cream =p]

Got this hip hugger cos supposedly that it'll be useful for me much better than a belt. Since there's always been the problem of wearing pants that are loose at the back. Somehow, it didn't turn out the way that I thought of it to be. Maybe it depends on the pants that I'm wearing. Well well... I'll see. I hope it's something I can really continue using it for a very long time. lol.


Next, I still wanna do more shopping!! My to-buy list is still there~~~ xD

Kagrra,'s day - 03 June

I'm touched that on this very day, Nao tweets about his blog post on Kagrra,'s day.

I don't remember seeing Nao having such a long blog post about Kagrra, and indeed [since I went to look up at it too] it's the first time he typed so much about Kagrra on this day. I guess throughout these 4 years it's all been building up in his heart, so he really feel that he should talk about it now.

I was reading really slowly to understand what Nao is saying. It's probably a day where he is thankful for? And it's a proud thing for him that the 5 of them can go on as Kagrra, with the support of Gurrakos, and so we are treasures to them! At the last live performance, Nao doesn't want to show us his crying face at the end of the live, and so he only cried after that. He even mentioned at the start of his first solo, it was tough since he hasn't played the bass for a year. O_O

After that, I couldn't quite get the second part of the post, but I supposed he was saying he might feel that isshi would be laughing at him, asking him "What are you doing, Nao-ran!" Lol. Well, and 03 June is always a day that he cherish, he hopes that he can convey Kagrra,'s memories and that we can feel the soul of their songs.

He is also grateful to have met everyone.

And it ended with Nao laughing how young he was back then.  (-^〇^-)


You see, it's such a touching post. ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡ Only Nao can make me feel good so far. Wished that the other members feel the same and also be posting something like that too.

Because we still have Nao-ran, I will always be remembering those special days too.

I will never forget how you guys make me feel how beautiful this world is with your music. We are definitely in the same world. 

Thank you so much, Nao-ran... my favourite isshi, and all Kagrra, members.

We will all cherish our days and memories together.. till we see isshi.

Happy Kagrra, day, always.

Exfoliate your skin!

It was quite a right time when I see this news article on exfoliating the skin that reminded me I have not done it for a super long time!!

Can anyone believe it? That the exfoliator I have now was bought 2 years ago? It's really bad of me to keep it this long and not using it that often. I know it was recommended that we should use it at least once a week , but I don't like rubbing my skin like that most of the time. I only feel like exfolitating my skin whenever I saw dead skin appearing although it might be a little too late then. [cos I'll look ugly when I have my foundation on lol] And not forgetting to mention, my skin will feel super dry right after that and I hate that feeling!! Which is why I prefer to put on my facial mask and do so diligently once a week. (≧ω≦) Well well, but this week I really did exfoliate cos I can't stand the sight of dead skin appeared before my eyes. O_O

It's actually better to exfoliate regularly so that your skin will be able to breathe properly and enhance the absorption of the skincare products. It can make your skin fairer, reduce acne and control oil production.

And there it goes further to talk about AHA and BHA type of exfoliator in which I'm not familiar with. I have no idea if mine contains the ingredients and I don't usually look at it, so long as it works for me when I used the product. And do I really have to purposely find for such an exfoliator the next time? lol. Duh, seems like I don't have much knowledge about exfoliators but it's okay.. I just have to continue using it and more regularly since it does have benefits to the skin. Yeah, then again, we can't be lazy when it comes to skincare. >_<

But no way am I going do the DIY recipe for it! lol~


ごめん、I am still kinda lazy~~ xD

Happy 15th anniversary to my Kagrra,-sama♥

It's the 3rd of June! Once again, I made a collage for Kagrra,.

This time I did with 5 pictures and 5 hearts. This year, the number 5 became a special number to me. My birthday month in May has got to be the most special time that I ever have, receiving so many well wishes and surrounded by so many people. And I published my lyric 雨月 also means the fifth lunar month. This probably is all too coincidental. lol. But things just happens at the right time isn't it? I didn't expect it to be that meaningful to me.

And to add on more, Kagrra, has 5 members. lol. xD 

Well it's the year 2015 anyway. hahaha. 

I remember my old post on this very day on how thankful I was that Kagrra, formed. I am feeling the same now. But reading them back makes me feel, 'Wow it seemed so long ago cos I couldn't remember those are the things that I've written back then. Many things must have happened that I couldn't recall!' But on the other hand, I feel I have grown, because of all those. I've became better and better. I can be more assured of myself. And so I can be standing at where I am now.

Isshi is most probably up there smiling happily on this day too. Because Kagrra, is the best thing that has ever existed in this life.

Thank you, my beloved Kagrra, -sama. My love for you never dies. (*˙︶˙*) ♡

いつまでも恋する。

私に見守ってください。

かしこ、
ゆうか

Being lonely?

A topic that I didn't want to broach on, but it was after I've watched Rent-a-cat movie on tv that gets me thinking about it.

I have even talked about it to a friend of mine, how much I don't like to hear the word lonely and that I have been asked this question quite often "Are you lonely?" I just don't get why..

Why is that being alone sums up as being lonely? (-_-)


Maybe it's because I'm too used to be alone that I don't feel it or find this a problem? I don't know!! I really don't know how does loneliness feel. I just find the word lonely to be of a negative meaning, more like being pitiful and miserable that no one will know even if you are dead and so I don't like to hear it. And how is it that I look like that to some people?  I have no idea.... (x_x)

I don't find being alone a problem since I can be in my own world, I can do whatever I want... I need not surround myself with people whom I have to please. Sometimes it can be so tiring to have people around that you have to bother about them so often......

Yet, there are times where people think I'm independent cos I'm alone. U know what, I'm just amused at how many different people thinks of me, and this can be so annoying. Well well, there are just people around who like to say things in front of other people and you have no idea what are their thoughts based on.... ⋋_⋌

Humans are just annoying, cats aren't isn't it? Maybe I was poisoned by this show. I'll rather be surrounded by cats. Lol.


I really thought the word lonely is a taboo for me, until I just recalled that I've used this word before in my lyric work!! LOL, can I just laugh at myself somehow. There are always things that I done without realizing it...

Now that I look back at my lyric, 留別 Ryuubetsu was actually such a lonely song. Argghhh.. I really wished I can stopped using this word. It doesn't feel that good. But my song seems to be at that topic.. and I feel I wrote it well, didn't I?  But why....why should such a thing even exist?  What I couldn't take it is that upon watching the movie, I can't believe how Japanese people can say out the word "寂しい" [= lonely] so easily!!  I don't know why but I just feel uncomfortable to hear that from anyone, cos it made me feel this world is so cruel. HOW CAN THIS HAPPEN. NO ONE SHOULD BE LEFT FEELING THIS WAY!

I might be getting a little worked up but why should this be how the real life is?


Really, I don't like anyone to use that word so easily... it probably indicates that you want someone to be with you, but instead it made me feel this world is cruel I don't want to hear. It's as though no one is gonna care for anyone....anymore. (T_T)

Although I can't avoid it from happening but I would still like to avoid the word.

Just let me be out of the cruel truth. It doesn't exist in my world. 



Please, don't make yourself feel lonely. And don't say that.


寂しい一人～ネコ貸します。

Anything for now~

A little news that I came across last week. I'm kinda dumbfounded... how is that Namie's song Anything be implying about the contract issued she had with her previous company? Pretty much almost every news is like that. They'll always assume it means something negative when a celebrity did or release something. Lol.

Whether or not, I don't really put much thoughts to this since I just enjoy her songs. I supposed this is a motivating and positive song so let's just enjoy it? And this seem to me not really worth to publish as a news. What a waste. (¬_¬)


Well, anyway it's a holiday for me today but I couldn't get to sleep since the weather has been so hot! I've tried watching animes for the past few days with few episodes at one go but somehow I do get the exhaustion. Why why? I'm just watching for entertainment purpose, yet I feel tired pretty much easily I had to stop. I couldn't keep staring at the screen for too long. I have to do something else. Argh, and so there goes the weekend. Just busy cleaning and clearing my stuffs again. (x_x)


Now that it's June I hope things gets better. And the exhaustion doesn't get too much over me. Okay, maybe I'm just lacking of quality sleep that's why. The weather has to turn good again and so my composing spirit can be back with good works. I wonder how this month will be going but I'm pretty sure I'll be in busy mode. Let me have energy for everything else.


yeah, Anything for now~ I'm not in much of a mood.  (,_,)