10th lyric release - LOCKED

I haven't feel all that good this month either, especially just few days back when I discovered that the uploader for Buck-tick subs videos got taken down. Man, I was super upset since those vids were so great for me to watch their performance along with the lyrics where I can understand and feel for their songs. But it's all gone now. ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡ I wonder will the uploader be back again someday. I miss Buck-tick songs so much, although I should also punch myself for not listening often cos I've been watching anime during my free time instead of listening to their music. (x_x) And so, I haven't got much inspiration lately to write much. Think I haven't yet produce a lyric for this month. Let me just pause for a moment? And flipped back my old old lyrics and recall those feelings once more?

Actually I do hate my old works, I feel they weren't mature and deep enough. I don't even feel good to read back those again. I don't even know what was I writing for. (¬_¬) Well, those were the times alright. At least they were the steps that lead me to where I am now? Now that I can write better with a purpose. I supposed I should kinda appreciate those little things that I did even though I dislike them now. Shall use them as a comparison that I'm getting better at my writing now? I hope there's someone who will agree with me on this too. lol.

So yeah, let me release one [almost 5 years ago] in which I feel it won't let anyone feel all that uncomfortable upon reading it. haha. And why do I feel a little nostalgic now? (>_<)

[Inspired by Ayu microphone]

LOCKED
Imagine doing the wrong things all over again...

When will I be able to learn from this pain
without hurting you or me?

How can I get up and be firm
when change is the only constant thing?

*I will get back my stand
because you are moving forward
so fast that I would not want to be left behind
even if I'm left by myself
I won't give up because I still have myself

Imagine saying the same things over and over again...

When will I be able to say that I love something
instead of getting sick of it too soon?

How can I show to anyone else what I truly am
when I'm so used to hiding?

**I will have my stand here
and stay the way I am while moving forward
because you are so far ahead
with nothing left behind to regret

*I will carry on with what I'm getting
even if seeing everything has slowed me down
I won't give up because at least
I still have myself to move on
  
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Should I be surprised? Most of my old works are boring and sad, but at the end of it, it seemed somewhat motivating and positive. I do feel they are quite plain and this is just one of those. It might not be deep but the message is clear. 

And that was the past me. 

~~Yuuka