11th lyric release - tearful clown

I was feeling down some time ago,..well my feelings are just up and down all along. But of course, the good thing is that I can write lyrics out when I'm feeling that unhappy. Or to say that I write so as to feel better, although I still feel what I feel from my work. lol. This is quite a dark song cos I've been suppressing my feelings for some time, since I feel that I couldn't do much. I don't know if cos there's something's missing out in my life or that I just felt helpless or I'm too sad from everything that I began to look down on myself in some way. I wished I can know the answer..But anyway, let my lyric says it.

tearful clown
A soft whisper from the heart
Words which I hear over and over again
are they supposed to hypnotize me?

Killed by the applause
Drowned by loneliness
I'm always pretending to be fine

*The clown who has been taking in all the laughter
is feigning happiness
The insignificant me,
soaking in despair
is only powerless
The one who cries isn't a weakling,
but the one who understands too much

Ringing voices continue to overtake me
Who is there to dance at this time
when I'm the only one with red shoes

Clouds in disturbance
Love that brought madness
Can I leave when there is nothing left to cry

*The clown who has been taking in all the laughter
is feigning happiness
The insignificant me,
soaking in despair
is only powerless
The one who wouldn't stop crying isn't a weakling,
but the one with the wound that doesn't heal

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I supposed this happens to be the right time to mention about this scary thing called clowns since Halloween falls on this month, although I don't celebrate it at all. lol.

Well I'm just that clown anyway. 

~~Yuuka