12th lyric release - 風上

I've been deciding for sometime what's the best song for this November. I've no idea what to go with... I can't quite tell how my mood is like now this month. Probably I wasn't really thinking about anything cos I'm just so tired. Well but one good thing is that talking with my buddy can somehow allow me to decide on the song, I'll choose the one that I was inspired by which is the one he likes too, coincidentally. lol. Hopefully this song fits cos it feels so much like autumn. I'm not sure if it's still autumn now though. (^_^;) 
Anyway I also wanted to post more of my dark songs too. I just feel better in doing so cos I write tons of such (;´д｀) So as an announcement: I've decided to release 2 songs for this month!! Watch out for the next one next week!! (^_-)-☆  This is just so that I can make the 14th release for isshi in Dec! 14 would be a very nice number for him! hahaha. I hope this is a cool thing. Pray that I'll be able to get it done by then too!

[Inspired by Kagrra, 幻惑の情景]

風上（かぜかみ）
*Ah...the wind that blows and blows
bringing my dream far away out
**Ah...the time that flows and flows
taking my soul to a better place...

As I sleep this time away,
what have I lost? when I enter this dreamland

This world has been too dazzling,
I can't even see what's right before me
How will I be able to go to the right direction
without missing out the beautiful things in life

Somewhere out there, shall be something worth for us to seek
ever so far reaching, I can't bear the distance

*Ah...the wind that blows and blows
bringing my dream far away out
**Ah...the time that flows and flows
taking my soul to a better place...

As tenderness slips away from my hands,
where will you be heading to

How far can I go
with this dazzling sky watching me to an endless road
that I have to walk alone

Somewhere out there,
the wind that carried me away
is comforting me gently like before

**Ah...the time that flows and flows
taking my soul to a better place...

If I can get to see you along the way,
I will no longer let go...

 ~~~~~
The first I wrote is rather short, so I modified and make this a little longer. 

I can't say I like it that much cos I have better songs that meant more to me. 

But I guess this is still considered a nice one like Kagrra,'s way. So I release it here. (・∪・) 

May you feel the wind too...

~~Yuuka 

Revive memories: Kagrra, Live acoustic performance 2002

[Pictures to Auga event 2002 on 14 Oct 2002]

This is one Kagrra live performance that I love so much because it made me feel so calm and good. I really really really like Sakura~saikai no hana~ a lot in this version and for the fact that it's Isshi's favourite song I can only love it more! ♥ I'm so glad that I bought the Sakura album cos this song is in it. Everytime I listen to the album I feel so beautiful~~~ lol. (//∇//)

Izumi seems to be blocked but he's just behind Akiya. I didn't hear much of the drums though. Acoustic versions probably depended on the guitars much more. I'm certainly very impressed with isshi that he has such a good voice at a young age. I wonder if he has taken any vocal lessons before? haha. And of course, the rest of the members are really good at their instruments. What are they actually? Those boys are already born to be so talented!! I've got nothing bad to say about them. They are greater than my expectations. The more I know about Kagrra, the more I love them. And of course, I will strive to be like them in my way. haha .


Like that tree, I'll be with you eternally♪

Isshi will always be with me. ╰(*´︶`*)╯

In Utakata mood~~~

I'm probably too much into Utakata recently, and really for quite a long time ever since I got my Shizuku album. lol. Can't helped it since it's the first song playing in the album. It was filled with lots of memories and for the fact that Isshi wrote this song for his doggie Vivienne made me touched. I feel it was such a bittersweet song when I know how Utakata came about. I'll always remember the look from isshi's face like this. I wonder why. (・_・)

And it was so coincident that Nao mentioned about Utakata last week. It warmed my heart. All the more I should reply to Nao for talking about Kagrra, and it's been so long since I tweeted in Japanese and to him!!

I sincerely hope he reads all fans tweets >_<


I was also scrolling through all my old tweets and saw this lovely isshi pic with beanie on. What a coincidence once again!! I didn't even remember I tweeted this before. lol. I was thinking of it suddenly before I saw this old tweet and even told my buddy to get one. I wanted one myself too! haha. So it's been like more than 1 year that I've said I wanted it but didn't get it yet! (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) Let me get a suitable one soon. I hope I look as good as Isshi. lol.

Anyway, I'm glad I had that picture saved in my SD card since I just transferred to a new phone and I thought of changing the wallpaper. This one is indeed the best!!

Now I can see my isshi's face clearly every single day!! (≧ω≦)


Hope I can get used to my new phone soon. Gonna take me time to learn all the functions and stuff. Probably draining my patience too. lol. But it's a much better phone so I'm not complaining!!


Time to get more things done!!

Revive memories: Isshi & me

I guess I should start doing a series of such post so that it'll be easier for me to look back at these precious memories again. I kinda regret that I posted the pictures all to twitter only. Especially for those Kagrra no Su episodes that I've watched. I thought it would be nice to just post them at twitter while watching and so that's about it. But to find them back is such a hassle! Somehow I just wanna look at them all again and get back those feelings. Plus, they are my hard work after all! Screenshots aren't that easy. It always took me lots of time and patience to get that right moment captured. lol.

Anyway, this one is something I didn't ever wanna post back then. I don't feel like showing the world or to anyone how I look like. Not as if anyone cares either I think. haha. But this one I tweeted back in last year after watching Kagrra, no Su which so coincidentally I was wearing black and white that day too. Btw, I don't usually wear these 2 colours cos I don't like them. So it was kinda rare to see me in this. lol. Hence this one is really a precious moment!!

I do match with isshi right? We both have long hair too. hahaha.


Thanks lots to my buddy for finding this back for me!! It saved me since that's the only pic of me and isshi. (´へεへ`*) Let's see this in full original!!!

I'm so gonna find back that episode 61 pictures and blog it when I can!! The hard work is gonna be worth it! (-｡-;


Pray that I have all the patience again. But you bet I have for your sake! (・_・)

The history of Kotodama

[Continue from Shua's Back to the past]

Let's have a little peek into the history of two like-minded people from different parts of the world...into the same world.

How it got started...

Qn. How long ago did you both meet? Under what circumstances?
It was 2 years ago in 2013 through youtube. I remember I was trying to complete my origami to isshi and wanting to get myself back to Kagrra, once more [since I've avoided it for some time due to Isshi's death], I happened to chance upon this Best of Kagrra, video and I was so elated and touched! Somehow I feel it happened at such a right time! I enjoyed the whole 57 min of Kagrra, goodness. All the memories and love came back to me. I couldn't believe it somehow. (,_,) I think I was trying to digest everything and so it took me some time later to comment and subscribe to Shua, especially when I saw him uploaded more Kagrra, vids. Man, I feel this guy is awesome! He has made my life easier since youtube is the best place for vids! lol.



Qn. Have you two changed ever since? Did you think it would come to this?
We're probably still the same, just that our love for Kagrra, deepens more. (^_-)-☆ And we even ended up as best friends and band mates. I definitely didn't expect this! I'm already glad to know a gurakko and being this close made me feel really blessed. (*^◯^*) And yes, he's my first gurakko friend that I've made! I'm really very proud of him hehe. (^ε^)-☆

As to the future...

Qn. Where do you see yourselves in 10 years? Do you both have the same interest?
We'll probably be doing the same thing like now, for us and Kagrra,. But 10 years is really far to think about! I wish that we'll stick together no matter what, be it 10 years, 20 years or till forever. Hope he thinks the same. Hehe. Oh, maybe we'll end up as neighbours too. *laughs*
Kagrra, is already one, and that's probably enough. We both have too many similarities I think. It's fun when we know more about each other. So far he's the only one I can chat crazily at twitter! (≧▽≦)

Qn. Then is there any Kagrra, songs you both have in common?
I supposed..Shi mi me yu ki sa a? We have quite different likings in Kagrra songs. I know his top favourite is Kasunda fuyu no Mukou, while mine is Omou. Oh, and one thing I have to mention, I remember he once said he likes Uta, in which is a song I didn't notice at first. To my surprise, I began to like it ever since I heard it! The best thing is when I came to enjoy this song so much when isshi dance to it. This image of him came to my mind whenever this song plays on my phone. It's really fantastic! I love how my buddy made me like this song. So it's another one in common yeah!

Qn. That's great! Any words to your buddy?
Man, you know I love you so!! I'm so glad to have you around for so long. I'm certainly thankful to you. ╰(*´︶`*)╯ You know, I remember when you told me that my roses song is damn good, it brought a smile to my face. I was really touched. I wrote that song while I was feeling hurt, and I wasn't sure if it's that good. I feel that I don't know how good or bad I am since I'm writing and reading from my point of view, so receiving comments is an important thing to me. So when someone tells me I'm indeed good and talented, it gives me the assurance and confidence to keep going and do better. I felt really relieved back then when 2 more gurakkos told me the same. But of course the most crucial thing is when you told me first that my lyric work is good! And that's why it gives me the urge to write more. You definitely deserve the present I gave you this year. That's probably all that I can do for you! Thanks so much bro! I'll continue to do my best. And I believe we'll meet each other someday in real life. But watch out! I might cry. (´；Д；｀) Don't run away cos of this! lol.
You'll be my candy guy always!! ♥♥♥


*The meaning of Kotodama.

Words of love bound to the soul - It's the essence of Kagrra, which will always live in me.

Let my words bring out the love too.

~~Yuuka

Isshi and Coach!

I'm so glad my dear buddy upload this video of isshi, which is something related to his Onkai Isshi Mimibukuro book. Damn, I actually didn't know there's a DVD of it. I'm really happy that I can watch it although I thought it's scary at first. Lol. 

It's actually that long ago in 2009~~

Look my isshi-sama is so cool when he strikes a pose. =D







Actually I think it's the second part of the video that is kinda scary. It was at night when they went inside the haunted building and look around. But Isshi's coach left first in which I don't get why? There are strange noises that came when they were filming and even leaving the cam there while there's no one around. I don't know what to make out of this. It's kinda common to hear noises I supposed. But what's the use of investigating this? To prove their existence? We do know they exist! No one wants to see any scary images or anything and what can you do about them if they attack but yet you can't see those? And it's in the dark! What's the purpose and conclusion of such an activity? (-｡-;

I'm not complaining about my isshi but I don't understand why there are those who made videos about going to haunted house think it's fun and became so terrified in the end like in some shows that I've seen. You could have expected it isn't it? I don't know if I should cry or what but anything horror like that I'll just be away then. Stay away from me. lol.


Anyway, this video reminds me of Coach. I know about him when I read that translation of isshi's Onkai book. In fact, I'm not that happy at some comments the Coach wrote in the book, but anyway he seemed to be close and good to Isshi so I can ignore that. haha. I used to talked to him at twitter messages. I'm looking back at those now to realise that those took place in March!
Here's how it happened: I followed him first on twitter [have no idea how I came across his twitter account but somehow I did] and he followed back. I thought that's about it. Will I tweet anything to him? I'm actually not even sure if it's the real Isshi's Coach that I'm following but I supposed so. (^_^);

It was when not long after he followed me back he sent me a pic of him and isshi through the messages!!

And there I plucked up my best courage to message him all in Japanese, hoping he would understand. But of course he did. I can understand him too. lol.

He was saying I shouldn't mind too much since he still can understand what I'm saying. I'm asking him to come to Singapore cos there's lots of different types of food that he can eat, and he might like them. And my wish is to go to Japan and also visit Isshi's hometown.

What brightens me up from Coach is that when I tell him I don't wanna let isshi down so I'll try my best to learn my Japanese well, he said "Isshi's a gentle person, he won't be disappointed. And that's because I said this as his Sensei, so it has to be true! Please work hard on your Japanese!"


That was the most touching thing I've ever read that day that I teared...(┯_┯) I can feel that he knows, and isshi knows too...

It's been a struggle for me to self study it throughout the years. And recently I have to leave my time for my accounting studies so I haven't got much time to focus on my Jap again. And there I also wanna have time for inspiration so that I can do my lyric writing well.. and........

there's just so much that I wanna do!! (ーー゛)


But of course, now that I have just looked back on those messages they made me think back again. I'd probably have to squeeze in time for my Jap. I might tire myself even more but to read back such a thing always tells me not to lose the motivation and get back to work on it well. I still remember one of my wishes too, and that is to translated all my works into Japanese, or even write directly in Japanese in the future. Now I really wished I have all the time in the world to focus on Kagrra, and my interest. I just wanna lead a simple life without those stress.

I shall keep reminding myself and not forget, right? → I'm a confident dreamer~~


Maybe life is only a little tough for me right now, but I just have to hang on until I see the light. 

Bless me! 

My purchases ~Oct 2015

Look what has my fear got me into!! Getting more eye masks! lol. (ﾉ ○ Д ○)ﾉ　

I think I have 7 boxes of eye masks in total now. And every time I walked into the drugstore, I feel like getting more! There's some of other types I haven't yet tried and I'm itching to get them too. Now is the end of the month so there's a danger of me spending more since my pay will be in soon. Damn, I'm trying hard to stop myself but I think I've been spending more and more lately. lol. (・_・)

Well Xmas is coming soon too, and I've to start preparing presents. Argh... oh I should also get for myself at the same time, since I've been working hard. What a good excuse too. hahaha. (≧▽≦)


I got that Hello Kitty face powder for myself cos it looks cute, plus it's limited edition. In fact I'm not sure when will I use it. I have some products that I haven't start using, and there are those that I've stopped using for a long time and it's been around for years. Omg. I don't know how to deal with them. But if I don't get anything for myself to use, I'll feel empty. Argh.. Just why am I a girl? Why do I get tempted this much? Why do I need all these stuffs too??  Σ(ﾟﾛﾟ;)


Can't helped it. Shopping probably gives a better mood besides food. lol.

And so, more useless things bought. (x_x)

I'm referring to the stickers only. haha. Those 和風 Japanese style just have to appear before me, how can I resist!! I know I've bought 2 of those months ago, but these are of different designs and it made me think of Kagrra too much. Maybe I'll use them, but maybe not. Hey, at least I didn't get tons of stuffs like I used to everytime I went to Daiso.. I'm there more for necessities now.  Can I consider those coasters as a necessity too? hahaha.

The only thing that probably useful now is that hole puncher I have to use for all my notes from school. (¬_¬)


Okay, on one hand this purchase post gets a little boring. Maybe I should really buy more stuffs instead. （＞０＜）

Ah...Why am I contradicting myself so much. Lol. What else do I need? xD