Success is...

So it's been a year since my Happiness post. Here I am blogging about the 2nd part of it.  （＾∇＾）

✦ Complete my targeted number of lyric writing that I'm so proud of to show♪
✦ Translate magazine interviews
✦ When my friends told me that I'm great and they love me
✦ Learnt a song fully - understand the lyrics and able to sing well
✦ Complete an anime with interesting storyline that inspires me and made me improve my Japanese
✦ When my friends gives me an assurance about me as person, how much I joy I can bring to them
✦ Completed a course of study without knowing how I pull through. xD
✦ Read a book that allows me to gain knowledge and become better although the next moment I'll forget what I've read. xD 
✦ How my positivity can influence others~
✦ Able to realize my dreams, bit by bit..
✦ Cook a satisfying meal perhaps.
✦ Treasure every moment and believed it happened ♥
✦ Being appreciated and feel important to be in someone's life.
✦ Having a goal all the time and be motivated
✦ Putting a smile on your face ^_^

Coincidentally, I'm able to come up with exactly 15 points just like my Happiness post! (*^◯^*) ♡


Well, even a little achievement will make me happy. Cos this is how life should be.  


Definitely something isshi will always be proud of to see, from me.  (*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡

My Top 5 Essentials

01. Perfume
02. BB cream
03. Moisturizer
04. Lip balm
05. Hair oil

These are the products that I can't live without everyday... just feel like posting about this somehow. Lol. On my rest days at home, I don't use them except the moisturizer and the hair oil in which I think are a definite necessity. The picture shows those that I'm currently using, but not necessary I'll be sticking to the same brand though. Although ZA moisturizer by far is still the best I've used and is something I keep repurchasing until now. =) Anyway since I've got this Gold water moisturizer, I'll be using it after I'm done with this ZA one. Hope it feels awesome on my skin to use gold on my face. hahaha.

I'm really happy to receive praises recently of my smooth skin. (^.^) It's something I won't hear many many years ago when I was younger. I'm glad cos this means I'm really taking care of my skin and body well. I'm taking less fried food too although mainly it's because I'm actually quite picky at food this time. lol. And also, that I look younger than my age. hahaha.

It really feels good when people come to ask me "What's your secret for maintaining this look?" "What did you do?"  xD

But really, I didn't do anything special like botox. I have my own skincare routine and make sure I use my facial mask at least once a week. The most important has to be moisturizer! I have to emphasize this cos it's really important that our skin has to be hydrated, especially when I have oily skin. I do think it helps a lot for me... ╰(*´︶`*)╯


Well well anyway, age has always been the topic all the time recently. (-｡-;) I don't know if it's something good or bad cos even I'm asking and talking about it too. Just why do I mind about it!! Maybe cos I do feel old at some point like getting tired easily after a walk in the mall, and my brain unable to function at times. But it is really due to age? Or cos in the change of my lifestyle now? How can everything be due to age?? lol.


Speaking of which, I would like to stay like this too, like Cheesie, even when I become a mum. Continue to receive praises while carrying a little one. lol.

I'm always looking forward to the next step in my life..although it's too early to say a thing. When can I become a mum? (≧ω≦)


I'll stay young, like my frens will always say to me. (^ε^)

My Anime list ~May 2015

2nd list pending to watch!! I received more recommendations from my fren! Lol.

Animes:
01. Steins gate
02. Attack on titan
03. Mushi-shi
04. The twelve kingdoms
05. Maison ikkoku
06. Angelic layer
07. Silver spoon
08. Corpse party: Tortured souls

Just completed:
✿ Night Head Genesis ナイトヘッドジェネシス → a mystery anime I chanced upon and liking it since the story is really good. But there's probably too much sad stories and trauma surrounding the people whom the 2 brothers came across. It's still interesting anyway, although the ending is really plain. At least they managed to save the world or something like that. What attracted me to watch is cos of the supernatural powers that they possess. The thing about 70% of the human's brain is left unused. And that there are powers hidden in those parts. How I wished I could know how to use my powers too. lol. This world would probably be so different. =p

I love this line "There is no life that does not deserve to exist." Makes me feel comforted that I deserve to live. lol. Supposedly this means everyone here has a purpose or a reason to be living in this world...

This anime is quite a sad one but I'll still say it's pretty good.

Currently,
✿ Mōryō no Hako 魍魎の匣 → Another horror mystery anime that I'm hooked! I'm probably very much into such genre now that I didn't attempt to watch any of those on my list. xD I wanted to continue Shiki 屍鬼 but I just can't make myself watch any of the dubbed episodes. It's annoying to me, so I guess I have to give it up. lol.
Anyway, the first episode of Mōryō no Hako is creepy enough with a girl's head in a box, which is alive O_O. It did made me curious of what exactly is going on. And a character mentioned that "Dolls are boxes in which souls are stored." I supposed cos this anime is about boxes so they are saying it like this? Creepy much. Please don't give me phobia of boxes, that's all. lol.

Alright, I will keep this going and see what happens in the end.. and which will be the next anime that I'm gonna talk about. haha.


More creepy nights? (ó﹏ò｡)

I will stay strong...

It's been a tiring week last week!! I've been busy hanging out with my friends and enjoying my time out so much. And probably I'm spending a little too much too. Lol. But finally, I can have some rest this weekend. But I always ended up doing things... like cleaning up my skincare/cosmetics stuffs and some household chores. Just realised that I have quite a bit of products that's gonna be used up very soon and so I need to do some shopping again. Well well..one can never stop spending money. lol.   (｡-_-｡) 

It seems that I can have a proper rest in a long time although I still feel this isn't quite enough. (^_^;) I was trying to come up with lyrics like how I used to write pop songs inspired by Ayu [since I was listening to her latest album A ONE], but somehow it became difficult for me to come up with anything. I could only write dark sad songs now, much of Jrock style. I guess that's just me.. That I've moved on, with my life and all? When I'm unhappy, I turn to lyric writing. I expressed it all to make me feel better, although reading them back sometimes evoke the memories of what made me wrote that way...the things that happened that I can't do anything and felt helpless. But I can't hate anything about it. It's what that make me write well in a sense. I feel I found my place in doing this. And this is just my kind of life that goes on..that I'm gradually proud of.

How does it feel again, feeling really sad yet unable to cry out at all?

To have the same thing happened, twice...


I know my heart is sobbing... but I couldn't have any tears. It's either I'm already numb to it, or I'm feeling too upset to have any tears.


It's okay anyway, I'll still be smiling at everyday.


The hurt that I got, I will be turning them into a strength..

Even when no one understands me, I will still be here.


I will stay strong since Isshi is always with me.

I need my eye cream!

It was when I came across this article last month then I start to be more aware of my eye area again!! Omg, I have been neglecting them for a very long time. It's only after reading this then I realised how bad my eye area is now. My dark circles are getting darker and my eye bags just don't go away. lol. Just how much sleep am I lacking? (^_^;)

And yes, it's because of this article I made myself use the eye cream I had since long ago, hoping it'll help to reduce my dark circles. Gosh, I've actually kept it aside for 2 years without using much! (>_<) I have to use it diligently now. lol.

Anyway, the article is saying that ageing around the eye area can be due to smoking, UV rays, insufficient sleep, and bad eating habits. And people with dry skin will tend to have fine lines easily. Even eye makeup remover and contact lenses can cause the sagging of eye muscles and wrinkles! Now this sounds so scary. (ó﹏ò｡)

We should also start to take care of our eye area at the age of 20. The basic care includes having sufficient sleep, drinking more water, put on eye masks regularly, massage and use good skincare products for the eyes. Especially for women at the age over 25, should use eye cream and sunblock on a daily basis.


Very nice tips to take note of after reading this. And I also came across this video on eye cream.  



I'm not sure what ingredients does my pomegranate eye cream contains but now that I shall notice for the ingredients caffeine, vitamin E and avocado oil the next time I'm gonna buy a new eye cream.

Now that I've been back on using my eye cream I've to see if it improves my condition but after 28 days?? I can't remember when I started to use it again, and sometimes I skip this step when I was too tired! Oh dear oh dear...I'm even worrying for myself. 。・°°・(＞_＜)・°°・。


Sometimes I think it's really such a trouble to be a woman. lol.

Current plans~

A day of holiday plus the weekend aren't enough!! I need to leave the days for shopping and hanging out with my friends, and another day to sort my personal stuffs [including blogging] and there goes my days. I don't think I can get full day's of rest as much as I want to. Lol.

But now that I'm so occupied, life's much better and cos I know what I should be doing. ｖ（=＾0＾=）ｖ

I've decided to be blogging every week and so there's always be some posts all the time. I will still be watching animes consistently since it's already a project I gave to myself at the start of the year, plus I have noted down all the recommended ones that another friend of mine told me, so I have another list to watch! I also have some Kagrra, videos that I have to catch up with the discs she lent me since I'm sure I didn't look out for all yet. Probably I'll find something new? Definitely tons of things for me to do now isn't it?! And also, I wanna release one lyric per month, since I wanna keep myself going at writing more.

I hope my brains still gonna work well cos it didn't function that well last week. Lol!

There, my current plans. I still have more for this year. I need to get my brain to keep working.

Meanwhile, is that anything that doesn't require brainwork at all? Can I achieve something even without thinking [besides sleep]?


So much of me thinking about my personal achievements, but yeah, I have to be doing something all the time isn't it? 

Because isshi is watching me too. (*^｡^*)

Go away bullies!

Can't believe I've missed this much for the week, that I have garnered so many comments and likes for my little comment on Swoozie's vid. I guess my comment mentioned a very good point, that's why.

Of course the thing I'm happy about most is that Swoozie replied to mine. haha.

The one that made me happy is also this person who love my name.  That's very nice of u. (≧▽≦)

I've briefly read through the 50 over comments where people are arguing over whether the cousin did the right thing. I didn't think about going deep into this topic actually, but since there's so much going on for this, I would say I really feel Austin's cousin did the right thing.

You see, some bullies have to be dealt with that way so that they'll stop. Some people just don't have the sense to know that what they're doing is wrong? That hurting someone who doesn't fight you back isn't gonna make you better as a person anyway. Moreover, the cousin is being protective of Austin so I would say he has a good motive. What other ways can you be able to stop a bad person when their thinking is already wrong. How would just talking to them help? It's hard for these people to listen to anything. It's only that when they experience how bad the bullying is then they learn how to be good. It's just the total truth.

I have to say, Jonathan really brought it upon himself when he said "Yeah you better run." because it goes to show that you will get back at him more and wanna challenge him. [What's the point of doing so?] Didn't you even know that he's telling you to stop bullying the person he cares, and not hitting you just so as to challenge you who is stronger for goodness sake. Why do you need more punches before you could understand all? What's with your mind? Bullying someone doesn't make you a mightier at all. This goes to show how weak you are, that you just wanna gain satisfaction for doing meaningless things. Equally when I watched drama shows on bullies I feel damn annoyed at such scenes. What are they doing with their lives for such a thing. -_-


Anyway, in case anyone is wondering why I actually talked about this [in fact I don't feel like lol], that's because I did got bullied when I was little. I'm glad that I met the right friends who helped me deal with this and yeah it's only this method that can stop them, but not that much of violence. Lol.


Sometimes you'll just hate how cruel life is. But bad things will get back to those who are bad to others. (σ;*Д*)σ

My Ayu CD collection~

Like finally~~ I got hold of them in my hands!! (*^◯^*) ♡

Thank goodness for a friend willing to buy together online. It saved me lots of trouble, since I don't shop online and don't like to be bothered about waiting them to arrive them at my doorstep. (-｡-;

Okay, if it's another word for lazy. lol.

Awesome to be able to get 2 albums at once. (≧▽≦) Although dragging till a year later seems kinda bad. lol. Of course I'm still not forgetting my COLOURS since I didn't get it last year at HMV cos I just don't wanna get CD version only. Yeah for CD+DVD that's the standard one that I'll buy. Have to find time to watch them sometime soon. Have I mentioned that I have not even watch Namie's Ballada album DVD in which I bought it last year? Yeah that was so many months ago. I'm crazy. I had the time earlier on for the past 3 months why wasn't I able to watch a single bit at all? Lol!

Oh yeah, I might be a little dumb to be surprised at getting the A ONE mousepad which is already mentioned by my friend when she ordered them back then but anyway, I'm just super happy this comes with my purchase. Probably the first time I bought an album that comes with something so nice besides the usual poster-or-photobook kind. I definitely can't bear to use it. I'll just look at it from time to time whenever I open my drawer. Haha. ＼(*⌒0⌒)♪

What's more when I can get a Heart Nail book from another friend.. Aww~~ I've always thought it would be nice if I can get more Ayu photobook and there I got it.

I'm filled with so much happiness now. This is too good!! (*ﾟ∀ﾟ*)☆彡


News last month on Ayu's sexy back to gain back her popularity.

Although this news isn't that necessary imo. But at least for that nice picture, I would say it's forgivable. lol.



Hope I can do a review after I listened to this new album well enough!  

And maybe be inspired by pop songs and Ayu once again? I have no idea if I will but I'll try. 

Had the greatest holiday of fun with so many people it's gonna spark my interest again. 

Let me just continue to work hard. ─=≡Σ((( つ•̀ω•́)つ

6th lyric release - 雨月

Because it's the month of May!! And I have been back to my Kagrra, songs again in late April. (*^｡^*) In fact, there are many Kagrra, songs that gave me the inspiration to write with the same sort of melody. Recently I'm so much into Satsuki cos it's really a beautiful and simple song. I remember my past post mentioning that I love this song after I've watched the making-of. And really, till now sometimes this song rings in my head, and it made me feel so calm, although it's a little sad. I feel like writing it the same way too. And since it's May... since it's at such a right time. [Not to mention, it's also my birthday month] (*˙︶˙*)☆*°｡ﾟ

[Inspired by Kagrra, 皐月]

雨月(うげつ)
The shattered days of grief that puts me to sleep

Ah~ Leaning on to the past love to fool myself about my worth
Ah~ Shall my memories be washed down along with your tears

*With your hands far away from mine
I could only scream a little with a trembling heart
Even if the rain doesn't come,
the petals are falling down one after another just like my tears

Watched by your unfading smile,
will my heart ever be free

*With your hands far away from mine
I could only scream a little with a trembling heart
As I gaze into the clouds,
the petals are falling down one after another just like my tears

Ah~ If the moon is sinking my thoughts in
Ah~ If it is praising me like before

*With your hands far away from mine
I could only scream a little with a trembling heart
As I gaze into the clouds,
the petals are falling down one after another just like my tears

The shattered days of sleep...
Will my heart be free...

粉々になった数日の悲しみを眠らせる

あ～　昔の愛情を傾いた　自分を騙す
あ～　僕の記憶と一緒に　君の涙を流しましょうか

*君の手と僕の手　そんなに遠く離れて
震える心でちょっと叫んでられる
たとえ雨が降られなくても
花びらが涙のように次々と落ちる

失わない微笑に守られて
僕の心はいつか自由になれますか

*君の手と僕の手　そんなに遠く離れて
震える心でちょっと叫んでられる
雲をじろじろ見ると
花びらが涙のように次々と落ちる

あ～　もし月は僕の思い出を沈んでいれば
あ～　もし月は昔に僕を褒めていれば

*君の手と僕の手　そんなに遠く離れて
震える心でちょっと叫んでられる
雲をじろじろ見ると
花びらが涙のように次々と落ちる

粉々になった数日の睡眠…
僕の心は自由になれますか…

~~~~~
How isshi feels every rainy season... This is how I feel every rainy season too.

I hope I convey my feelings well for this song. The arrangement is the same as Satsuki. 

Can you feel what I feel too? 

~Yuuka