Ayu news ~August 2014

Some Ayu news this August although they aren't good things about her:

#Ayu's ex-boyfriend Maro was exposing more details about the relationship he had with Ayu, stating that he had been working with Ayu for 6 years, but only had been hanging out together for only 3 months. The host at this program asked about their 'first time' and Maro replied that it wasn't in Japan. And that everytime he went out with Ayu, it's mostly Ayu the one who pay for the meals. He doesn't mind about it, cos if he does, he wouldn't be with Ayu. Moreover their salary gap is really huge.

#Article also mentioned that Ayu had gave Maro a sum of money for him not to mention their relationship issue to the media, well but he's still doing it now. → Ayu's popularity and image is getting bad [my old post in 2013]

What a jerk he is definitely. (¬_¬) I'm so annoyed by him!!

#Next, Ayu married a man 10 years younger than her in March. Her love blossom, but her career isn't as good as before. The latest album COLOURS came in 5th in the chart sales, only to sell 50,000 copies which is the lowest sales record that she ever has.

#Currently Ayu is living with her American hubby in L.A. and will only return to Japan for work sometimes.

#Ayu had sold one of her houses in Japan and so people are saying she's doing that to provide for her husband. Her house was priced at 348,800,000Yen = 4.27 million SGD


I don't like how people like to talk about her popularity and sales dropping so much. Ayu will still be Ayu. She still produces the work that I'll be proud of. And she's still working hard! I'm sure there are many loyal fans still supporting her all the way just like me!! (⌒▽⌒)

And the part that they're thinking that selling the house for her hubby? Well, Ayu has quite a few houses in Japan I'm not surprised if she sells them away, since I guess she's living in L.A. for good. She doesn't need that many houses in the first place. lol. But I don't really care how she deals with that so long as she's happy with her life now with a new man. haha. ^_^

#In a magazine interview talking about Ayu's recent figure, Ayu said that she didn't think of returning to the size of a 20year old, cos it's impossible not to eat anything the everyday, her stomach will be always hungry.

#She sighed that when she was young she could be so slim naturally, she need not go on a diet intentionally. but now her skin is really bad and her hair isn't as shiny as before. But now Ayu admits that she's changed to another person, getting more and more mature.

Oh well, I admit that I'm getting old, at heart. lol. I think I'm not any different. My body changes has been affecting me a lot since this year.  (>_<)

Anyway, I love this really lovely Ayu wedding gown picture! She's forever looking so gorgeous!

After reading the article interview for Nurmero Tokyo, I'm really happy for Ayu living her life in the way she wants. She makes me feel so inspired.  (^o^)☆ And someday it'll be my turn too. I will live just as I like, in the place that I want. Although probably it'll be when I'm at Ayu's age. lol. Still a long wait~ But I will work towards it!（≧∇≦）

Ayu interview @ Numero Tokyo. 

I wanna rest...

Had a happy time at Sanpoutei Ramen! Have always been wanting to go for Japanese food  I'm really glad that I can finally get to eat oden too!! （＾∇＾）

The miso ramen soup is amazingly good! Really different from what I usually had. It's really filing and had lots of vegetables, I'm so impressed! The oden was a simple small bowl so it doesn't have all the ingredients I read about recently. There's no Mochiiri kinchaku, Shirataki, Ganmo/Atsu age,Satsuma age, Rooru kyabetsu, Gyuu suji, Tsukune though. The Konnyaku is really springy! My favourite is still the Daikon. hehe.

And I felt that the Yude tamago isn't as good as the tamago in my ramen. lol. =p I love the yolk so much!!


This is also dinner after the long week of work!

Katsu Japanese curry rice. I can never get sick of Japanese curry. haha.


Some other food I ate in July. Just feel like posting them here for no reason. xD

I bought Jelly although I have never eaten it for years cos I've hated it after eating so much when I was little. But recently, I suddenly feel like taking some little sweet treats every other day. I'm actually liking it so much now. lol. And the Yuzu peel was not bad too. Daiso needs more interesting snacks like this! ♥

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Ah~ really, when having a working life, I can't helped but to keep thinking about work stuff even when at home. I hate that I can't get my mind off work. Now I'm starting to miss study life even though I'm totally not taking any classes this year. What a huge change this time. lol. But at least, I had the money to spend on things that I want, and I don't feel that useless. But sometimes, there are still so many things surrounding me that has to stressed me up and how much I feel like escaping. Hateful adult life this is. (︶︹︺)

I'm just only left to work and study hard all by myself...

I really feel like I need some rest days to fully blog all that I want and also to complete an online course that I desire to learn. I just hate how work makes me so exhausted that I don't have the energy to do anything else. My mind and my body is just so freaking tired from everything....

How nice if I can live a life like celebrity bloggers too. lol. But yet I want my privacy. (^_^);


Well, I just wanna blog all about my interest in music and Japanese stuff that's all. And just be happy everyday with no troubles. But anything in life just don't come by easily.

I hate living in such a realistic world.

Pessimistic may this sound, I really kinda yearn for the day that Isshi will take me away. I always think of him whenever I'm down.

Probably only he knows. 

Overview for August

I was really really exhausted for the past month.. Too many things have happened, and I'm making myself troubled over every single thing I came across, that I felt kinda suffocated.

And of course, most probably it's due to my overthinking too. >_<

Now I feel every single day passed by as though years have passed. lol. It's been too eventful. (^_^;)

Somehow I need to learn not to get overwhelmed by my own feelings! haha. So, am I the one who is tiring myself out?

Alright, shall not confuse myself anymore. Shall just take it easy, take things easy.  (,_,)

Since I had let myself some rest for 2 days, and I spoke about my situation, I felt a little better. I have been getting advices from people around me, who care and that helped quite a lot. I supposed I'm really blessed enough now. I'm not complaining, just that I wonder do I deserve all that? Is all this true that it's happening to me?

Well, I really hope the future will get better, although I wondered a little too much because I wouldn't know how things will turn out to be.

I just need to be a stronger and better person so that's my goal!!


Although I'm being reassured of how well a person I am but oh well,  I can't helped to have some self-doubt sometimes. lol.

This half the year will probably be a really good time of my life so far. hehe.


Right now, time management might be something I need to focus on most, since I'm really bad at it and always been giving in to sleep and so many of my stuffs gets undone. Too much stuffs to do until that I've been procrastinating! I haven't been writing a full lyric ever since the last time I mentioned about it! lol.

I need to push myself adequately now instead of stressing out too much. How do I measure that I'm not that sure though but I felt like I'm having test/exam like any other moment, which makes me overly nervous at times and so I became too mindful of every single thing. (>o<)

On one hand, this probably means I really care a lot and I'm a meticulous person isn't it? Haha. I'm finding ways to compliment myself too. =p


Anyway, I understood at some point of time, I can't be myself. I shouldn't be myself.

What if that is the thing that will tire me out even more??


Probably this is how this world works.. Although I certainly think I'm an alien who don't belong to this world. lol.


Soon, things will all have an outcome. I will just see things for myself.

And I will understood everything one day. That's how things work.

This is the life I'm living now.  (>ω<)

My little tweet on Akiya's birthday~

It was pretty much an ordinary day on the 25th August, but nevertheless since I still remember what day it was, I could only go this far in tweeting a happy birthday wish to Akiya-san, even though he might not see it.

I'm so glad that my Kagrra Japanese friends will retweet and favourite my tweet, and many will still remember the day. Akiya isn't my favourite member but I certainly appreciate what he did for Kagrra,. I was really amazed when I came to know that he was the main composer for Kagrra! Well, everyone in Kagrra, is all talented. Hahaha. I didn't love the wrong band.  =D

Everyday been listening to the same Kagrra songs, hearing my isshi-sama voice... definitely my kind of happiness. 

This is something I'm so proud of to say to everyone.

I love Kagrra, all my life.

#Oh my, I just realised I forget to tweet to Akiya @aky_kzhr on that day. Then most probably he really won't get to see it! >_<

Ah never mind, at least I've done something.

Self confidence + my tweet got favourited!

I've always love such inspiring videos from Michelle Phan! I got so comforted from watching this video:



I'll just note down whatever she mentions: （＾∇＾）
1. Confidence is a mental muscle. → Think positive thoughts. Listen to positive music.
2. Find your qualities. → Focus on the positive. You are perfectly imperfect.
3. Have a buddy system.
4. Pass your wisdom and gifts onto others. → Loving others will inspire you to love yourself.
5. Stay positive. → Be like a proton and stay positive.

If only I got to know about this earlier in my teenage years. I have been seeking perfection back then way too much that I regret for neglecting many other important things in my life. Confidence is definitely one thing that I'm lacking so much. But right now, having been through quite a lot lately, there are many things that I won't mind and I really felt much better. Been really positive towards the future. And also, some things that I'm worrying about, aren't actually as bad as I thought so. Probably it's all in my mind, partly thinking way too much. Lol. Anyway, all in all, letting go is also something to learn about. Sometimes, I really need to free myself....


So much of me doing some reflection. lol. Now for something really happy!~

Swoozie actually replied my Youtube comment!! 

Probably just a little action but I appreciate that loads cos it's not that I can get any celebrity to reply me. Haha. I'm really really glad he took notice of my comment, and even followed me and went to favourite my tweets! That's way too good!!

Swoozie, if u can even get to read my blog post on this, I would like to say again : I'm really happy for your little action and U are really awesome! Have never regretted clicking and watching your videos through Michelle Phan. Both of u are my most favourite Youtube celebrities. (●＾口＾●)

I'm glad how watching a video can make my day. （≧∇≦）

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#Edit: And my tweet to him on this post got favourited again. Thanks much!!

When unexpected things happened...

The truth certainly hurts, especially when U discover something that u wouldn't thought it will happen at all.

And I'm always been worrying for this friend of mine.. Although we've known each other for about a month or so, but I've always wanted to do something for her and be of a help as a friend.

I did it, but leaving her alone with sadness... =(

I told her the truth immediately, and I feel so bad to make her sad. Although I wasn't the one at fault at all. But somehow, I can't help but to feel....Did I do the right thing? Shouldn't I be telling her face to face in person? But I can't drag for such a serious issue.

I don't wish for such a thing to happen at all either. Argh. But still, there's lots of things that I don't know of. I really wonder when can I know the full story.

Is it good that some things happened in this way? Is it all just meant to be?

It's all just very unexpecting.... >_<


I hope I'm really doing the right thing. Cos I believe so.


Well, now that I'm dealing with my friend's stuff, I've got lesser time to do my stuffs. That's for me being nosy.

Is being busybody good at all? Did I really help? Ar~~

My fulfilling life~~

Haven't been blogging for almost 2 weeks and I'm starting to feel uneasy!! I really felt I didn't do something that I should!! A little guilty again. lol.

Time is really quite a difficult thing to manage, right. (^_^;)

Recently I have been so busy with work, when back at home I would just tweet, chat and check some updates, and watch my 9pm drama show on TV as usual.

And I still haven't find the time to head down to HMV store to get my Namie and Ayu albums. lol.

That I would also have to spend on it!! I have been spending quite a lot on all sorts of stuffs and outing with my colleagues and friends!! Argghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

But life is so much fulfilling and meaningful this time. I'm glad how things have progressed. （＾∇＾）

Although it's the beginning and there's quite a lot of things for me to learn and do, but at least I'm so occupied and this made me learn better to manage my time well..

But I still think I'm probably not that good at it. lol.


Anyway, I'll start planning stuffs more properly and really be prepared taking an exam. I hope I'll get the chance to progress soon, and see the world.

Life is full of excitement enough!!


Meanwhile, I'll still be writing, and finding inspiration. I have been listening to Kagrra's music everyday in the train on the way back home. It brings me such great comfort and joy.

It's definitely something I'll never get sick of forever.. And I am someone who loves things dearly/deeply once I fall in love with it.


And to mention about this, there will always be a special place in my heart for the person whom I've just liked. Well but things are so complicated.  >_<


But at least, I met, and came across all these. I'm really happy. Even if I don't mean a thing.....

I don't have any regrets now. I'm truly happy. It has already been great. (≧▽≦)


Now  → Back to tidy up stuffs and study!!