Ayu ended 15th anniversary tour + Rare videos playlist

A little news yesterday: Ayu ended her 15th anniversary tour ~A BEST LIVE~ on Sunday 28 July at Yoyogi and teared when singing teddy bear.

Well, now this leaves me wondering what I've done this year since it's Ayu's 15th anniversary. And so far, is by watching her debut performance poker face on April 8th. lol.

I did get a bit nostalgic with her old songs and performance, which is why I've created a playlist of those old Ayu videos that I came across at YouTube.



Another surprise to me in that it was the first time that I've seen making-ofs for her old pvs where I initially thought that Ayu didn't had it filmed in the past!! lol. Cos I've got the A Complete Clip box but there isn't any making-ofs. Only in her recent albums she will include them in the album. So happy that I found and watched RAINBOW, SURREAL, Real me and the trilogy for vogue-Far away-SEASONS making-ofs. I feel like I'm still discovering and understanding more about Ayu even at this time. (^｡^) Especially watching Ayu's documentary back where she filmed in 2004. Her strong attitude and character is certainly something which I should learn from. (⌒▽⌒)


Anyway, I did an Ayu bookmark last last week. Not that impressive but is something that I've done. haha. Cos I realized I had so many Kumicky bookmarks and didn't have a decent one of Ayu. I hope this look quite acceptable. I'm still not that happy with my design. I don't know what's wrong. ?_?

Now I'm so NOT gonna buy anymore ViVi mag with Ayu or Namie on cover!! It's so not worth it. I really really dislike Vivi's content. Ugh. I ended up tearing and keeping the pages of Ayu's deji deji diary or any interviews about her. The rest of the mag just don't make me like it. The layout and content can't be of match with popteen. I guess is cos they have different target consumers that's why. But still it really is not my type. I shouldn't have bought so much in the past for the sake of Ayu I think. Cos the mags are occupying so much space and heavy. And I really cannot stand seeing Lena all the time. Okay, I'm so bias but I can't helped it. I'm really not gonna care about Vivi anymore. Popteen all the way~!! And of cos I'm super duper happy for the fact that Ayu appeared on Popteen's September issue!! So gonna buy it!! I'm really elated~!!! Can't wait to get it! xD

My folded cranes & hearts to Isshi-san

Yes! Finally got my origami thing done before July ends!! ヽ(ˆ0ˆ)ノ I almost forgot tomorrow is the last day of July. I've been so muddled at the dates recently. I don't know what's wrong with me. lol.  But yeah I managed to blog this today so an achievement done!

I wanna finish folding all these coloured squared papers that I have for years!! [That's why this personal project (ˆ_ˆ)] I love to buy and keep those origami papers in the past so that I'll fold them all someday with my entire collection of the origami I did. But there is this tendency of me to drag. (x_x) I hate procrastination. And then wonder when will that day ever come. lol. But now because of Isshi, because I really wanna do something, I finally got all of them folded! Not a lot actually. I did only 45 cranes and 8 hearts. But it took me quite a lot of time to do so!! I don't know why I took like ages to fold one crane. This must really mean that I've not folded for a long time! haha.
I'm glad at least I've found my motivation to do this, something which maybe I should have done long ago. At least I got this completed. I'm still  left with one more thing to do. I guess it's good enough I got quite a few things done this month so shall left the quotes page some time later to complete. (^-^)

I have placed all the folded cranes [in fact more than 45 cos I did some in the past] and hearts into this glass bottle, along with some mini stars and boats. I can't recall when did I folded others. lol. I always tend to do them when I got the mood. The stars outside the bottle are the bigger sized ones that couldn't fit into the bottle, and I chose to take them out. I think is better to stuff the cranes inside since they take more space. I put those bigger sized stars into another container already. I wonder if I should get anymore glass bottles. I had another one filled with only stars, but that was really ages ago!! And it's just for display. More like collecting dust now. haha. But I will keep this bottle with all these mixed origami in a safer place. Cos it's something really special. I do wish I could like giving this bottle to Isshi. Yeah it's for him although I can't really give to him. ( T_T)


Anyway I thought of listening to Isshi's Shiki project songs. Since this is about Isshi now.



I remembered listening to this song only during the time when I heard of Isshi's death news. Okay, I regret only listening to this and not found out all his project songs. I procrastinated. That was so bad of me. And there I can see my comment first below this video. lol. That was really long ago since! 2 years! What have I been doing for the 2 years? O_O 

This song still etched on my mind till now. Maybe cos it's just ONE song that I've listened from isshi which I would say the style is quite different from Kagrra,'s. It's really simple with just the guitar and isshi's voice. I'm truly amazed. He can produced such a great work! But I still think it'll be more perfect with the other members. With Isshi only, I feel that he's so all alone..... A sense of sadness will come to me again. (,_,)

I'm definitely gonna check out all the rest of the songs and blog about it soon.

Suddenly can't helped and wanna say R.I.P Isshi-san. If only his songs aren't that sad feeling...

Gmail's new inbox is annoying

I don't get it. Why google suddenly change the inbox features?!!



For the fact that we can organise our emails through using Labels is certainly good enough. I really don't get what's the fascinating thing of making everything with tabs. (¬_¬)

Why google u didn't even ask us if we like to change it or not instead of forcing us to accept this change u introduced? I really really don't like all these tabs on my inbox! It's annoying in that I have to click so many times!! [Just like what I'm irritated with the bloglovin leaving me having to do so many clickings!] I just want my inbox back the same okay?? → To allow me to see all the new emails at once in my inbox, rather than seeing where u placed the new emails under which tabs. I just like it that way u know? Be it looking really overwhelming, but I want to organise the way I want it using Labels and that is really good enough!!! And even if I've arrange at the right tabs, the new emails still appear at the wrong place. ugh~!!!!!

Really, what's up with the freaking changes? Don't make it any worse, please!! (￣^￣)

And I have to see through all and organise my emails all over again. (X_X)

Masks and Revlon lip butter

Bought masks despite that I still have a lot at home. lol. The sale was just enticing me and actually I wanna buy the box of 4 different flavour masks at $19.90 but I sort of hesitate a bit cos they don't look that common as their usual ones. Well well... also partly cos this one that I've bought is even cheaper. haha. And I share with my friend so that we can have equal mix of the 2 different flavour masks. xD

I also ended up buying Revlon lip butter! Actually I have always been aiming to buy it long ago but there wasn't any sale all this while so I might as well get this now since I couldn't resist it anymore! haha. Firstly, I went to watch Jen's review video which did tempt me to buy it. That's how it got started!



She made me interested in Peach parfait and Cotton candy. Cos I wanted light colours. I had dark colours already and I don't really like it. I went to look out for them in drugstores but I didn't see the Cotton candy one which is the one I wanted the most. =( Kinda upset that I couldn't get the one I want which is really horrible!!

And then somehow, I ended up on asahi's video on the Revlon lip butter too, though not a review.



They all looked so yummy!! I love how they make the lipstick pop out of the food!! Creative and certainly nice to watch! And cos of watching this video, I wanted the strawberry shortcake the most!! It's pretty much the same as the cotton candy I guess, the light pinkish girly type of colour. hahaa.. And luckily this colour is available. yeah~~!!

I didn't regret with this lip butter purchase at all! It's really creamy, moisturising with such a sweet colour and it smells really good!! It's really like the fruity smell of the dessert! (ˆ0ˆ) I finally got a lip product that I love and satisfied with. I have got lip stick/gloss which is drying up my lips really bad and I hated it. I wonder why I couldn't get a good one for myself all these years! But now, thank goodness for this. I'm really glad that I watch reviews first before buying a product. Although I may be spending a little unneccessary, it's worth cos I bought the right one for me. No regrets~!  (ˆ_ˆ)v

Beautiful Kagrra, songs in less than an hour

Just feel like posting a little thing about Kagrra, =D I have been listening to this while blogging:

Medley of Summer



And Medley of Spring~!!



It's pretty nice of the uploader to create such Medley~!! I love them! Whether or not the songs can connect well. haha. The fact that I can listen to Kagrra, songs all the way without me to specifically create a playlist is just good!! Cos I need not be bothered whether the video did jump to the next song or not. Moreover I get a chance to listen to some Kagrra, songs that I might not have listened to before, or maybe I've forgotten about them even though I listened before. haha. This is just so good~!! I appreciate the uploader's effort! Thank goodness there's still Kagrra, fans who went to do this. =)

I just love every single song that was chosen in the Medley. (*^◯^*) I wonder where's the other 2 seasons Medley? Or maybe cos Kagrra, didn't sing any songs related to autumn or winter. But I hope to see any of such videos anyway.  (^_-)

Ar~~ I suddenly feel that flowers are all blooming around me and petals beautifully flying around too as I'm listening to Kagrra,. hahaa.. I'm imagine a little too much. But Kagrra, songs certainly give u this feeling~!! So beautiful and relaxing and calm and emotional. I don't know what else I can say to describe this. (｡◕‿ ◕｡)


Oh there's something that I came across, a little creepy to me though.



It's called the Japanese alphabet song. I certainly have not heard of this before!! I think the standard Sakura song is the only Japanese song commonly sang in school time. But not this!! Okay, maybe only the Japanese then would know about this. So just throughout the song the voice is just singing somewhat the same thing to me over and over. I just wanna know if this is really a purely Japanese alphabet song or being edited or sang by someone else in particular. But certainly this is definitely a tribute to Isshi. Sorry, I don't feel sad but creepy cos of the voice. haha. Would anyone like this song? oh yeah, I would like to know the meaning of this song too.

okay, have to do more Kagrra, posts soon!

ulcer remedy + my cosmetic purchase

The past 2 weeks is just painful with mouth ulcer!! I had one at first, then I tried some ways to relief it like drinking lots of water [than usual] and even went to take cold showers. I don't usually do that cos I will tremble a lot! lol. But then I guess my body is really heaty, I can't be doing nothing cos I really hate how the pain bothers me when I drink or eat. I even eaten spicy korean food once cos I had a craving for it suddenly. I know I shouldn't have, but just one meal only!! And the ulcer didn't turn any different. lol.

And I also drank the honey citron tea as it really cools my body down. I think is pretty popular now cos I've seen it selling not just at those mini Korean marts but it also can be found in supermarkets. It's really good to know that it has quite a lot of benefits! So it really can suppress fever!! haha. Got the right thing afterall. That's the best thing ever in the house! =)

Anyway, what's irritating is that after this ulcer at the bottom lip has gone, another one came at my upper lip! Gosh, it made me wonder if the methods would ever work at all. But luckily, this gone faster than the first one. So I guess cold showers/bath and the honey really work?

Ar... recently I'm lacking a little motivation and some good quality sleep. Probably that's good in the sense that I just automatically wake up early in the morning. So much early than usual. lol. But I don't like that I get hungrier faster than usual too. ugh.

Just some things that I've bought : Eyeshadow palette, primer, black eyebrow pencil, white eyeliner and peach eyeshadow!

I would say I'm kinda satisfied with the products. I just bought what I want anyway. Not that I buy them cos they look good. I love to have many colours of eyeshadows so I definitely wanna get that since it was on sale too. As for the face primer, it seems a bit too oily feeling but that's what it is I guess, cos it's supposed to reduce the appearance of pores.
My eyebrow pencil is from Daiso haha. I have been using this to fill in my brows, so I did not try to draw them in any particular shape. (> y <)  In fact I have been brushing my brows everyday cos I suddenly got into brows! But I used the previous one I have bought, cos the brush is softer.
I'm using the white eyeliner for the bottom eyelid to open up my eyes. It's really a good highlighter too!!
And then the peach eyeshadow is matte in which I love it cos I always wanted a matte one but I keep seeing glitter/shimmery eyeshadow everywhere! Especially Japanese brands! Their eyeshadow is always so glittery, in which I think will make the eye makeup look too strong! This one will make a good look for school for me~! hehehe.

Okay, I still have more skincare/cosmetics stuffs to post cos I've been buying it again and again. lol. I needa control~!!

Ayu news :This July

It's a little news weeks ago about supporting Yousuke Ito who seems to be electing as a politician. He is using the help of Ayu and EXILE as a chance to promote himself. And Ayu has known him for years already.

There's quite a few people in AHS actually mistaken him for Masa in which confuses me at first. He didn't look familiar to me at all! I thought maybe I'm the only blur one, but NO! I went to check it out and he is indeed Yousuke Ito. Even the tweet of the picture has his name. How can I be wrong? haha.

Yes, I went to this website and saw the details about him. Seems to be Q&A of politics of Japan. The Japanese is just too hard for me to read. lol.

That's just a little Ayu news that's not bad or anything. But lately, there aren't any good ones except the above if u were to compare.


First, the rumour [I would say] that Ayu has a new Caucasian boyfriend and they spend nights together. Wtf! They are pretty close and the guy's younger than Ayu O_O Well, the fact that they hang around at that time in Bali doesn't made them a couple right? And Ayu usually have a crew members around with her too. Okay, I'm just not that convinced of this news. lol.
#I mentioned a little about it before. 

Next, a veteran called Dewi [whoever is she!] and Maro appeared on a Japanese tv show and badmouth about Ayu. Duh, the fact that you've never liked her in the first place place u in bias position that u won't say anything good about Ayu!! That's just being bad of her to talk like this. It doesn't do her good anyway, more like seeking attention, just like Maro! Why is he acting pitiful over and over again? That's really really bad of him to most probably use Ayu as a topic for him to get to the show as a way of publicity. Wicked!! How can he do that to Ayu when they have known each other for years already? He doesn't even appreciate the fact that he can be part of Ayu's troupe all these years I'm pretty sure Ayu cares about him even as a staff member. Why can't he let this go on the account of friendship at least? He really wanna make himself a jerk in front of everyone else. Fine!

Anyway I can't stream that video [not fair!] as it's only available in China. Sobs. I hope someone can fill me in what exactly going on in the show. But of cos, the fact that those 2 badmouth about Ayu is pretty much a sure thing as what I've read that many people said. (≧ロ≦)

Lastly, this latest news that I've seen : saying that Ayu likes to show off her wealth. (¬_¬)

Last time she used to have 20 staff members and bodyguards around her when shopping at Hong Kong, and demand that her doggies to have their own rooms to rest. Ayu also will bring 4 big luggage of clothes along with few manicurists everytime she went to perform.  But now Ayu's position now is not as good as before, so her bodyguards got sacked. Oh yeah, I remember posting a little about this few months ago.

Oh well, so much of me last time not wanting to post any bad news of Ayu. But still, is something about Ayu. I feel bored without me typing updates about her here, so I ended up with this post. =) Not happy to know anything unpleasant but it's not exactly like Ayu did anything bad. I think showing off her wealth is pretty minor. I think I shouldn't stop writing about anything related to Ayu. At least there's something here for me to look back to what's going on... Good in one sense. (,_,)