still wondering about planners...

I ended up watching pbunniep's planner video again for this year and I'm probably still not over in thinking of getting a planner for myself. lol.




This time round she introduced more about the thick planner that you can customized to what you like. It seemed really expensive to me for just that one notebook as I would call it. Although the pages inside are really pretty, colourful and classy, but I feel it's way too good for me. (-｡-;  It's just the same as those that I saw at kikki.K that have started selling planners for 2017. The cheapest could come as about $20+ but most ranges $30-$40+ which is way too pricey to me. And they even sold those notebooks labelled for a certain purpose like for your exercise goals or something but inside is just plain pages. That's really too costly just for plain ones where I can get somewhere else for a dollar although the difference is just the cover itself. If the pages have already designed and structured in a way easier for you to jot down your results and thoughts it'll probably be worth a lot better but then it's definitely not something that I will splurge my money on. But really, are modern days youngsters more willing to spend on such stuffs now? Quite a lot of such stationery shops are around here nowadays and I see young people buying them. I really wonder how they put their planners to use too and whether they carry it around everywhere they go [cos there are those big and heavy ones]. For one thing I feel planners are a bit too personal since you're writing down things that you wanted to do. I wouldn't want anyone to happen to see my stuff so I never bring it out! lol.

Well it may seemed a little early to think about it right now, and new planners would probably be sold in November I guess. Just wondering if I would be able to get a free one again or I shall ditch using it since calendars work fine for me or I can get a small one that might not give me enough space to write much. Argh. It's really so hard for me to find one that I like. ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ Should I still fret about this? Or really pamper myself to get it for once? Maybe I will end up liking it and use it effectively?


I can't believe what I'm saying right now! (._.)

Anime: Ristorante Paradiso リストランテ・パラディーゾ

Ristorante Paradiso リストランテ・パラディーゾ [11 episodes] → A romance anime in italian setting in which I'm loving this month! Well it started as I was trying to decide on which European language to learn. It would of course be great if an anime could inspire me and also taught me some of the foreign language words. I'm glad I found this one, and since initially I was also looking at Italian too. lol.

And so I know how to sing the Happy birthday song in Italian!! ヾ(*´∀｀*)ﾉ


Anyway this story is about Nicoletta who went to Italy to find her mum Olga with the purpose of trying to expose her mother's secret for leaving her behind with her grandma just so that she can get remarried to the man she loves. But after some things happened, Nicolette kept the secret although a few of them could have guessed that they are mother and daughter. What I like about this anime is that they featured each of the cameriere's [waiter] story and how they all ended up working in this restaurant. But what I dislike is the young Claudio where he betrayed himself just so that he won't ended up losing his job just for a carelessness of him spilling food on the customer's dress. I really really cannot accept a man to do that too even though as a man they might not be in any disadvantage so to speak. But I just cannot accept anyone to betray himself/herself for whatsoever reason. It's just not acceptable for me. It's immoral!! (ﾉ ○ Д ○)ﾉ　

This part is where they are all trying to find Luciano a mate while he wasn't so interested. Although the point they made is true, but I do think that you shouldn't find someone for the sake of finding someone so that you won't be alone. Having someone beside you doesn't necessarily mean there is love between you both. And I'm glad he didn't go ahead to be with that old woman whom already has a husband. I just don't understand too. Why do people have to cheat and look for someone else when you already have a partner yourself? Even if there are problems exist between you both, shouldn't you ended your relationship first before getting someone else? I really dislike how people treat relationships as though they are games and for the fun of it. Stop going round and degrade yourself and hurt others you evil dumbo! (σ;*Д*)σ死刑！


Argh now let's just zoom into the good ones. It was hard for Nicoletta at the start where she worked there since the chef's food are all so good. But there was a new menu that they had to come up with and so Nicoletta had the chance to do hers and it was great to see her touched in tears when the chefs and camerieres ate all her food although they didn't really praise her but the action proved that she did well. I was also happy for her since she was the only girl in the restaurant! haha.

The last episode has to be the best of all, it's touching and funny at the same time. Olga was touched when she was told that Nicoletta made the cake for her birthday that she revealed during the party that Nicoletta is daughter. It was such a touching scene when Lorenzo accepted it anyway. Since he love her afterall. I thought the same too. And then Nicoletta got touched too and even forgave her mum for leaving her all these years.

It definitely ends in a good way although Nicoletta wasn't walking hand in hand with Claudio but she claimed that he is her boyfriend. lol. He had already taken off his wedding ring [he's already a divorcee] and he even go with Nicoletta to her house anyway. I supposed he accepted her afterall. ╰(*´︶`*)╯

Although I'm watching a bunch of Ojisans and Obasans who's trying to lust over these men, it's still a good story afterall and it helps quite a bit for me to learn Italian. Romance is always something sweet to look at. hehe. （＾∇＾）

Why am I recalling? And do I have to change my mind?

The haze just came back again all of a sudden yesterday... Wasn't I lucky to be away from work on my Friday? lol. I didn't really make any plans though, but I just wanna get my things done. I'm glad I did and also done some shopping. Although the smell of the smoke isn't that pleasant and with a dry throat I can't have my favourite food, but well shopping made my day. hehe.

Look at what I got from Daiso once again. I've been shopping there almost too frequently lol. And I can't resist anything with owls now. I even got myself an owl shirt this morning. xD

I also spotted a Kaleidoscope at Daiso I almost wanna buy that useless thing too! Well luckily I didn't since I opened it up to see it wasn't as amazing as I thought. The patterns didn't move nicely nor anything I feel that is as pretty. I wanted to grab it initially cos it reminds me of.....Ayu? [I wonder why, since I've already long put her away from my heart. lol] I remembered I once did a post about kaleidoscope of Ayu cos I love the song TO BE so much. Damn it was long in the past and I actually could recall it by seeing an item. Is Ayu actually still living in me? ╭( ๐_๐)╮ Tbh I really wanna put my past away, and that includes Ayu. There are some memories that I just don't wanna recall again though....

One of the awesome things is that I managed to get this essence eyeshadow too! I've been wanting to get it since 2 weeks ago. Of course I love how they named this series and the colours are my favourite ones too. Even the word 'Knit' was imprinted on the eyeshadows they are way too pretty!! ヽ(*´з｀*)ﾉ ♥ I can't resist it definitely and also grabbed the new lipbalm. I feel that I got sick of using the previous ones I put on everyday to work. I don't get why I got sick of lipbalms so soon.  I feel that they aren't that impressive to me after a while. Or maybe it's just my problem. I can still like a certain lipstick but lipbalm just doesn't last very long to me as a favourite. Maybe I'm just more fond of the colour rather than getting my lips protected?  I'm probably very strange in a sense too. haha.

Anyway, I have this aloe vera soothing gel in my closet for quite some time already but I haven't started using it only until this Monday. It was when my cousin was testing out at one of the Korean cosmetic shop with such a similar product that seems very good plus it was on sale that caught my attention. Then I recalled I actually had one of such gel at home but not sure if I should use it since I still have so many lotions to use and it's almost impossible to finish using them!! But then again, I shouldn't put it to waste since it had been with me for so long. Damn can I not believe it's really such a good one! ＼(・o・)/!

I'm not fond of gels or any product in gel forms but this one impressed me so much! It gives off a cool feeling and made my skin so moisturised!! My skin seemed way lot smoother now and I'm so gonna continue using this and forget the rest. lol. This actually can be used on other areas such as the face and hair. But I don't dare to try it on my face definitely. The downside to this is that it's in a tub instead of a squeeze bottle kind so I don't really like it as it made me feel it's a little unhygienic everytime I have to use my fingers to dip in.

Speaking of having different impressions on things that I dislike, the other one is mint. I really really hate the mint flavour since young cos to me it kinda stinks. So I don't take any mint candy and I hate toothpaste with that strong mint flavour. But this year, I have 2 encounters with mint and so I guess I might have to change my mind about it?

Last month when I had dinner with 2 of my friends it so happened that the mojito I ordered had so much mint leaves in it!!! I can't believe it since there isn't any of those leaves shown in their menu picture. Well there are only just 2 mojitos to choose from but I wasn't fond of the other mixed fruits one so I tried to bear with the lemon that I was drinking. But of course I took out all the mint leaves from my drink, yet the muddy earth taste from the mint still lingers in my mouth. Argh. It was unbearable but I did it. I'm not even sure why I made myself bear with it and drank the entire glass mug. My friend even offered to change hers with mine but I didn't accept it! I thought I should just take what I've ordered anyway but it didn't occur to me that I was forcing myself in a sense. lol. Maybe because it has that cooling sensation afterall and it wasn't that bad as it seems to me all along. But the muddy taste is still.....argh. But why? I've no idea why I still bear with it. As for now cos I had this dry throat I actually ate the mint candy given by my friend cos she told me it was effective. I really ate it cos I want my throat to recover and so I bear with the strong mint flavour once again. But hey, it was really effective and my throat is much better now. I'm so glad at least I won't be sick. But it's really something I didn't think I will do initially, or at all.  (＞_＜)


I guess probably it's time to change a bit? Although I've no idea what I'm trying to bear with. 

If it's good for me afterall, then I shall learn to take it then. =/

alone = independence?

This topic has been bothering me for some time already. As you know, I am the only child and I'm used to being alone. But something that I don't get it is that when I got my first job, the boss wanted me because of that. He presumes that those only child at home would be an independent person for the job that he wants the person to do. But hey, that I don't feel is exactly right? In fact, I wasn't ready at all to do everything right from the bottom [that being the independent thing] especially when I don't have any work experience from it! I don't like because even for very minor things I have to care about it, and the facilities are not all in place since the company was really new. Most importantly, the boss wanted someone who would do whatever he says. I'm kinda scared that I won't know how to protect myself and whether is it right or not to follow all his instructions. It's really kinda unbearable come to think of it. Like I had an interview before at a company that's even smaller and the office is so empty and somewhat worn out in the building. O_O And there is only 1 employee in the company besides the boss. If I'm being accepted I will be the second one and I was told that I have to be independent [again] enough that I can change the light bulb in the office should it be spoiled.

WHAT? This thing is even required of me to do in the job? Hella with your 'independence' idea! ⋋_⋌

Too many people out there likes to assume me to be like that. But nope, not really. I can go out alone, eat alone, shop alone, wander about alone. But that doesn't mean I am an independent person. There are tons of things that I don't know how to handle them. Yeah it sucks cos it made me feel like a helpless person. But I prefer everything to be in place already. I like to carry out the work only, not sourcing things out and do minor things like opening the letter box and sending things out. Strangely, I like to do that for myself, to send items to my friends but to do so everyday for my job I detest it. I don't like to look out for which printer to buy for the office, and then waste my time to do adjustments in the Excel files to format them the way I need to in order to print documents. Worse still, don't expect me to climb up and change the light bulbs damn it! I feel as though I have to be some multi-tasked utility worker I have to know everything and what especially it's more like a guy's job. IF I were to be the second employee I feel that I can die from falling down if I were careless while standing cos I was told there are times where I can be alone in the office with no one else. And so I have to do everything that is required of me during the day. You know, who will want to work in an environment without much people to interact with and no one will know if there's anything that happens to you! (¬_¬) How will I even gain the right experience from the major that I've learned too?

Alright, I may sound like I'm bad to think this way but really, would you like such a job? I really detest the time wasting things that I have to do every single day like this, unless my job is to be an admin but I'm not applying for that. Yet many expected this out of me. I feel it's so inefficient and that I have to become a repair man. I'm scared of light bulbs to be honest. [Why this keep circulating around bulbs -_-] There was a time where the light bulb at home got spoiled and my dad went to change it, but it was day time so I was sitting at the sofa near it. Who knows it suddenly burst and all the glass pieces flew everywhere! I was lucky cos I sat at the corner of the sofa so I wasn't hurt. It was a close call as a teen. I'm terrified of light bulbs from then. I wouldn't wanna touch it. I can't imagine what's gonna happen from glass that burst like that hurting any part of my body. I CAN'T. (｡•́︿•̀｡)

So yeah, I'm not an independent person as you thought. I rely and depend on people. I need people to help me with stuff. I can assist others too but I don't like to be the one out there to settle such small matters. And being alone doesn't mean anything. It's just that I wanted to have some peaceful time by myself so that I can have all the time to slowly look around at things and observe people. It's not always that you can find anyone to have a meal with you or to get the things you wanted at that time right? Everyone has their own schedule that you have to consider. I don't know if there are people who would be able to always have someone beside them all the time. I have a friend who told me cannot be alone. She doesn't allow herself to be alone, cos otherwise she'll end up thinking too much. But I wonder how she lives that way. Having some 'me' time allows me to think at my own world and should there be anything I can't figure I can always ask someone later. It's good to be able to feel comfortable by yourself isn't it? We all have to live with that sometimes. I feel that I can't think nor do anything properly if there's always someone around who could be watching me.... I need my own privacy too.

And being alone doesn't mean loneliness. My goodness, this is also another question that I'm being asked often just because I'm the only child. Seriously, I don't think I know what loneliness is. (¬_¬)

How is it that being alone means I'm lonely? I'm fine with that. I can watch the tv or read or do something else. How is that I would feel that sad? That my world is empty? I can't survive alone? I probably can't cos I rely on people. I'm not independent but that doesn't mean I feel lonely. I can always occupy myself with things but I may not be able to settle some things. Does it make sense now?


In fact, I'm pretty sure it's all got to do with one's character and a lot of those I came across being the eldest in the family tend to be the independent one. Cos they know how to look after their siblings and guide them along. I'm envy of them more than myself. While most people tend to envy me for getting whatever I want because I can have all the attention but they're pretty much having the wrong impression. I feel helpless at home. There are lots of things I wasn't allowed to do either. I wished I had a sibling whom I could look up to and look for whenever I needed help. My teenage life was kinda hard to bear with, until that I wanted to die back then. Now as an adult I grew out of everything. I just want people to stop mistaken me for something I'm not. 

That being said, I need not care about them but it bothers me cos it's been like that all the time. I don't wanna hear the same things over and over again.

I don't mind being alone although there are times where I'm afraid of being alone. I wouldn't say I'm a lonely person cos I'm not.

And whatever you think I am now, I might change anyway. For the sake of the ones whom I love, I will definitely go ahead to make myself do things that I don't usually do.

Who knows? Maybe I ended up changing the light bulbs at home.

Argh, still that sucks come to think of it. For now. lol. xD

I want the book!!

I spent one of the weekday last month just to meet my friend for ktv! She took a day leave too so that we can go out together and have fun. It was a little crazy to me cos it's the first time I'm taking leave from work for such purpose, but yeah I have my own choice anyway, as long as I can manage my work well. I can do that more often! Just that if only I have a special someone to do for I would feel that is all more worthy. hahaa.

The only thing I dislike is that we have to download their app in order to choose the songs we wanted to sing. [The one in the top right hand corner] That is really troublesome to me, and we have to enter the password provided at their screen in our room. The thing is, by using our phone also drains unnecessary battery power and it's not convenient to me at all! Luckily I have brought my powerbank with me, and luckily I bought it with a friend months ago. The way we have to search for the songs and singers is not that user-friendly also. We have to key in the right words the app perceive in order to find the ones we've been searching for. And I don't think there's a lot of song selections compared to the usual and other ktvs that we've been. It's kinda sad that only for Japanese songs they'll have another device it which is better afterall and maybe they just cater more for the Japanese songs than Chinese ones. But then, why do my friend wanted to come here? That's also weird of her then. lol.

So the next time, I won't choose to go there anymore. I even deleted the app. What's the point of having it occupying my phone space when the sight of it annoys me so much. lol.

Something worth mentioning, I'm really happy that the local Youtuber whom I've been following actually retweeted my tweet for liking their video about Pokemon Go! lol.

I really like such response from them! And they are a pair of funny brothers who seemed really close together. How I wished I would have a brother like them too. ∵ゞ(>ε<; )ぶっ


And there it's been a while since I wanted to buy Cheesie's How to be a Successful Blogger (Cheat One™) book. I've been reading her blog all along and I like her so much! I have been searching for it in bookstores whenever I passed by them. But I just couldn't find it. So that's when I decided I should ask if she knows since sometimes she would be in Singapore. It was nice of her to reply me last week. =)

Sadly, the hardcopy isn't sold here yet huh? But I wanted a real book, not an e-book! I would love to touch and flip and read the real thing before my eyes. I want to collect it. Not that I don't support her, I prefer a hardcopy version in which I'll treasure so much more. =/

So maybe I'm just gonna wait.  I didn't buy Michelle Phan's book till now it's weird cos I didn't see it anymore! Why when I wanted to get something... (,_,)

I really have the urge to read books now as you know. And collect them.

I hope Cheesie knows my preference and probably other fans who want the same will be able to get the hardcopy soon?

Before my urge die down soon. lol. 

It's sad, but no it shouldn't be sad afterall...

It was a busy week [I must have repeated this sentence like a thousand of times already but I still feel like saying it. lol] but I'm glad for that holiday in Tuesday so that I could blog. I would always say this sentence since I feel I'm occupied every single minute and I can't leave on the dot. Well I can, but I tend to work a little more for max 20mins so that my work will kinda be lighten for the next day. I am too concerned to get my work done well. (x_x) And I guess, I'm starting to like working for 4 days a week as I feel less burden on me somehow haha. It's pretty cool now I'm able to handle all the things on time. It really takes experience and habit to do so lol. （＞０＜）

Fridays are always the best weekday of the week and everyone would always seem to be in a good mood. This time my aim is to go out for lunch once a week. And there I think this is the first and only Korean bibimbap at a food court I came across where it looks so presentable to me with so much vegetables! Especially the lettuce! And the egg isn't that oily! (^_^)

I was happy indeed. And I don't find anything wrong with the food. Until around evening after work I started to feel uncomfortable. Of course the first thing I would think is lunch, but nope, until when my diarrhoea lasted till the next Sat morning I think a little more and was pretty sure it was the banana chocolate cake I had instead. (´；Д；｀) I don't have a choice since it was given to me at work and we all have to eat it. I suspected it because.....I'm still uncomfortable with banana, that damn phobia I have with it. Yeah I put all that in my mouth. ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ The banana in the cake isn't in pieces though, they're of mashed paste in between the layers of the cake. I don't know what's nice about it cos even the sight of it isn't appetizing, and it wasn't tasty. (-_-) Well I can't complain anyway since I have been taking the cakes for free, but on one hand it wasn't my choice to since it'll look bad if I rejected it in front of everyone else. I can't helped it but to blame that banana paste cake cos it'll make me feel better now at least.  Luckily, I got better by the afternoon since I have to be out for a movie. It didn't hurt that much so I shall forgive that damn cake. lol.

My second time to Sakae sushi this year and I ended up choosing a main again cos I just wanted one to feel full and satisfied easily. lol. This ended up as a treat again. =D But then, not that I think the food is delicious actually. It's acceptable in any case since it's Japanese food after all. So long as don't ask me to have Japanese food in food courts cos their standard is even horrible for anyone to ingest them. Anyway, I ordered Shoyu base and I realised, after all Shoyu is probably the most salty one and I should avoid that the next time. In fact, ramen always make my throat really dry afterwards so the MSG they added must be a lot. But I just can't gave up on Japanese ramen! They tasted so good at times. It depends on the restaurant cook I guess. lol.


Rewards to myself this week! I spotted new products at essence and I'm thrilled! However I think I went a little late to the store, the blush was the last one ever on the shelf. And I didn't get to see how the new eyeshadow palette is like. (._.) Nevertheless, I got another type of this velvet eyeshadow in which they have those printed texture on the surface. I don't exactly know how to describe this but it seems cool and this could last for 36 months which is longer than the 12 months that I have currently. So they probably have improved their formula and make them more long lasting, in which I'm really impressed. I hope it's also really much better in every aspect after I use it. haha.

I'm actually itching for more cosmetics cos the pretty prints and packaging made it so irresistible for me. I think I'm probably lacking in nicer clothes than cosmetics but argh, I wanna shop for everything to be pretty!!!! ╰(*´︶`*)╯

Last on food once more, it was last month or earlier when I was into roll cakes. I thought I should get those at the bakery near my home. It was okay~ not as good as the choco one I bought along the way after work. Those are actually berries and green tea/red bean I supposed. [Excluding the cereal cake there xD] Anyway my crave for roll cakes have stopped and so I don't wanna eat them anymore. hahhaa.

I could skip this one but I'll post this anyway. It's just a little strawberry choco snack. Difference is that....it's all pink! And there are strawberry bits inside so it's more of ichigo goodness than the choco. hahaa. Not that I love ichigo flavour, in fact I like eating ichigo itself. I would choose not to get ichigo flavoured snack if I can. So, I guess I bought this snack for the sake of buying it. Or maybe the picture of the ichigo looked too delicious to me that day. hahaha.

Well then I have sleepless nights since the weather is really really hot and humid. I slept better in the day time and that is weird since it's brighter in the day. Anyway, I shall pray to having a good sleep each night then. (-｡-;

I shall look forward for more?? 

This age issue..

Slowly, I'm beginning to feel it. (x_x)

Age really becomes a sensitive topic isn't it? Or has it been all along? 

Suddenly I feel that I kinda mind about it, but for the next moment, I think I should just forget it. It doesn't really matter.

But there are things that happened and made me think, or rather realise that it's something significant after all. (>_<)

Okay, firstly there are strangers whom I've came across thinking that I look as young as 18. Hmm, I wasn't like happy until I could jump about cos I don't like the time when I was 18 being so immature. Even if you're saying I look like 2 years younger I would also be happy. haha. But it wasn't the number I care about, I just wanna look mature enough as an adult to anyone.

Anyway in general, I look younger than my age. Okay I'm happy in a sense I guess, but when I looked at the wrinkles around my eyes, I felt really old all of a sudden. This isn't something that I felt so hard on me. I have been working and doing so much and without enough rest this is what I get. I'm getting worried. ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡

And I was watching some Japanese program about couples and I feel that age between couples can be an issue for them too? I mean so far I've seen couples without huge age gap and not many girls who are with guys younger than them. [although now it seems common anyway] In which this gives me the thought suddenly on the thing about age....

Here comes my story: There was this man who asked me out before, he was more than 10 years older than me. I thought I should give chance to older men cos they're mature after all, and that was what I would want initially. But after knowing him, I hestitated. I was introduced to him by a group of aunties and they keep saying things and trying to push us together. Later I found out he asked me out because he was told to do so. (¬_¬) He suggested a superhero movie in which I wasn't interested at all. And then he didn't try to ask me if I would like something else that I would enjoy watching. Then he tried to chat about something else. But he ended up mentioning about a phobia I had with a certain food. I was upset already since phobia isn't something nice at all. His reaction? HE SAID INTERESTING! Damn, how was a phobia interesting to anyone?  Don't you ever consider how the listener would feel? I got taken aback and was really unhappy. Shouldn't the first thing you said be asking what has happened? I told of my phobia before to a friend before, and her first reaction was "oh dear, what happened? I can understand it. Let's not talk about it" unlike him which upsets me. After which, he gave horrible suggestions in eating out together. It was sometime later I think hey I'm not gonna give whatever chance since I know for sure he isn't my kind. I'm so not gonna be talking to this person anymore and I don't get his way of humour plus there is nothing common between us. Thank goodness many months later up till now he has left and not talking to me anymore. And of course due to this incident, my view of an older person changes and I think age is really of my concern. I don't want anyone to be too far apart from me. It's horrible and scary. And of course, I didn't go out with him. Nope. I wouldn't want to be with someone not caring, not initiative and that old. （・□・；）

Now then, would someone younger than me be better for me? Damn, I have no idea! I only know it'll be less scary and it's easier to talk. But of course, my main concern would be that we have to get along really well and there are always things that we can share with each other. Although I'm still putting character as an important choice but I still would want someone who is sensitive enough to care about me. Is that asking for too much? I feel I'm about to hit the thirties soon so I'm getting kinda worried what kind of person will I meet.


Do I need any conclusion for this? Yeah, I'm getting old. Thanks for realising this with me. ~( ´•︵•` )~

Here's your grandma who hopefully doesn't want anyone older than her. hahhaa.

Planners?

Now more than half a year has gone and look at my wonderful planner I had for this year. Up till now, layout in weekly form? EMPTY.  (≧▽≦)

Maybe it's just me. In fact I prefer calendar style so that I can see the entire month at once, and it's easier for me to decide which date I would want to do this or that. I really don't get how some people [or most] would want this whole book of planner and writing their plans out like that. You know, there's also in daily form [could also be in the planner book] showing every hour for you to write what you plan to do. I just have no idea how people could need that, or even use that. I mean, hey if u can spend so much time writing for every single hour what you plan to do, might as well spend the time to carry them out instead. Overview of everything seems easier and better to me, rather than going into details of every single hour. I can't stand the sight of such daily planners although I like to see how pretty some designs are. I can be tempted by those but I'll never gonna spend my money like that, because it's something that I would throw away at the end of the year. They're planners after all, isn't it? Not a diary. So why would I keep it? When especially I'm sure, there are things that could happen that could lead to a change of plans, and you have to cancel them out. The book will never look perfect like what a diary would, so I find that no point in keeping. It's something that I would discard like I did for last year. I didn't feel a pity since I don't wanna look back at those that I can't recall sometimes. I mean a blog or diary would suffice. Especially when I can write more rather than scribbling things in the planner book of events that I may not have attended in the end. (¬_¬)

Do people really need such to get themselves organised or this is just another waste of money? Luckily, this planner is free for me. Or else,.... hey I know I won't go to the extent of getting a good one like this with so many things inside because I know I'm not that kind who want to spend so much time on the book. All I need is the monthly view and lots of blank pages of notes for me to lay out the list of things I wanna do that day. But this type is not really popular and I'm definitely left without much choices. This sucks and I'm beginning to kinda worry what can I get for 2017. I'm probably zooming way to fast to next year already but I feel it's always nice to make some new plans. Ahh, I'm not even sure am I looking forward to next year... It would be another scary thing cos I've no idea what it would bring. As for now, I have to go through 4 more months of what's gonna come for the rest of this year. (x_x)

A year by year thing is already a challenging thing I supposed, what's more when my friend bought some life planner from kikki.K at $49.90. I sceamed! This is not something I would do, although I supposed she wants something like that to get her life organised and inspired maybe? But for me I feel life changes each time when you reach at a certain age, so it might not turn out as what you're thought or plan initially? It's too hard for me to think that far away.

OR will that book change her life? I have no idea. I'm still curious what she'll write though. haha.

I wanna end my 2016 nicely ~~

What do I need besides sleep?

Hello Tuesday! I'm so glad there's a holiday even though it can be said to be at a wrong time cos this week would be a real busy week! But of course, everyone is already in a good mood since yesterday and they're playing and discussing about pokemon so it wasn't so bad although I was focusing on my work as usual and can't wait till work ends. (＞_＜)

Now came Tuesday and I was woken by noises as usual at about 8am+. And because I didn't drink coffee but tea instead, I soon fall asleep after trying to study Japanese. lol. It was really good since I feel I rested a bit more, although for the rest of the week this is just not enough. (T ^ T)

Just a while ago I even drank the whole bottle of pear cider and I felt a little tipsy along with a headache. Damn, is this cos I didn't have alcohol in a long time? I've never felt like this before. And now that I wanna use my spare time to blog....I'm pretty conscious now although I hope I don't end up writing anything I shouldn't. lol.

For the past week, I ate this Hello Panda biscuits with Matcha flavour cos this is something new. But it didn't taste as good as I expected. After all, chocolates are still the best and it matches with almost anything. Hello Panda was my childhood snack as a kid but I've stopped taking it for a super long time. To think that it's this new flavour that gets me back to it once more. haha.

And one more thing of Panda~~

It's not as though I'm very fond of pandas but at least they are tame bears who loves to sleep? This reminds me of my buddy cos I like to call him Kungfu Panda as we love the movie so much. haha. Now I feel like I need sleep again. xD

Yeah, what I love and got into now are owls! I must be a little crazy over this cutie but I can't helped it! Plus there are all sorts of owls stuffs available now all the more I am happy!! I just got myself a notebook, stickers.... and a clock! hehehe.

Look, they are indeed adorable! Ψ(｀∀´)Ψ

I bought some pencil cases too because they are way too cute for me to control! lol. But there isn't any owl designs, sadly. Or I'll be probably doing like an entire collection of owl related things. LOL.

Lastly, getting myself some beauty products. Should I punch myself in the face cos the boxes of masks are piling up in my room but I use them way less frequent recently cos I was too tired to remember about them. It's either once a week or none. (,_,) Hey I'm worried whether my face gets enough moisture right now, seeing these stuffs will force me to use more I supposed. (・・;)

I went to get the Hello Kitty face powder again cos I realised afterall this is the best one that I've used [somewhat like loose powder] It took me long enough this appreciate this thing I've bought since last year. I can't believe for once that it's so long ago!! There are actually 3 designs in pink, red and blue. I can only find the red one besides the pink and I wonder if I can get the blue someday. (._.)  Basically I'm gonna get them for their limited edition designs [of course and using them]. Maybe they aren't anything special but at least this one is really good at small areas like my undereye dark circles and covering up my pores. I wonder why there aren't other brands having such products that's small enough like this one. And loose powders are just not that common anymore. They come in big sizes for the entire face for those that I can find in regular stores. I'm kinda disappointed cos it seems like I'm always in the minority and ended up at the loosing end. Why do most people like things just because they are popular. Are they really something you like or you just wanna fit in? Don't you even need such powders too? (;´д｀)

Okay, maybe I'm taking the topic a little further. I shall stop and enjoy the rest of my Tuesday. haha.


Too much Hello for today I just realised. lol.

#21 lyric: 祈誓

Hey buddy! I know I'm really late for my lyric posting every month and I've just missed doing one for July lol. You know what, I'm skipping that one for the mo, since now it's August and I wanted to give you a surprise cos I know you've been feeling down lately with so many things that happened. This is my gift to you once again, for your birthday this year. I hope this would make your special day a lot better even if you can't get your tattoo on time. My lyric for August! In which I tried very hard to get this done as soon as I can since I was occupied for the whole month of July. (^_^;) It may not be the best I've written but it's really fresh from the oven [from my hot fried brain xD] so this is something nice about. haha. All thanks to you mentioning the Kagrra, song where I get my inspiration from. (-^〇^-) May you love this one too~♥

[Inspired by Kagrra, 誓ノ月]


祈誓(キセイ)
The night has come to tell what I was dreaming of
Swaying in a daze where we called fate,
my quivering wish for eternity keeps echoing without rest

If I'm chained to misery, I can never breathe

*The moon is shining brightly as if to say it never wanted farewell
Wouldn't it be great if promise would do the same?

The fragments of my memories may be out of reach
but I'm never going to get it back without you

If I have to be in dismay, I can never soar

*The moon is shining brightly as if to say it never wanted farewell
Wouldn't it be great if promise would do the same?

As we keep love in our hands,
even in the freezing night
the warmth will keep us alive

Even as I cry,
I'll pause and let you lay by my side

*The moon is shining brightly as if to say it will never invite farewell
Just like the promise we hold so true together

~~~~~
I'm very happy I can write this beautiful song for you. I never noticed Chikai no tsuki that much initially since I find it kinda noisy, but you made me love it this time.

You know you meant a lot to me too.

Happy birthday my dear Snolax Shua! (u_u)。。。zzzZZ

My Makeup Rule

I don't put on thick makeup usually but I think having something on the entire face [ie. foundation or cream] is still the most necessary to have so that it seemed like I have a very good complexion to everyone. haha.

I was done with using the CC stick which lasted 2 months for me and that's pretty fast! Now I'm starting to think that it's not my favourite type anymore as I have to apply it directly onto my face, in which it is something I don't like afterall, especially when I'm sweaty at home. And the sight of fine hairs that ended up at the foundation stick... Eww~~ I hate to see it. I have to keep wiping them off all the time. lol. As for the BB cushion, it's time consuming and probably doesn't suit my skin type? I don't like to pat the wet feeling onto my face although for the high coverage I'll still use it until it gets finished.

So hey, my way of daily preferred makeup afterall is : BB cream/CC cream + powder foundation. Loose powder would be fine too, if I want to go for a lighter look.

My main point is

My Makeup Rule : NO mascara, NO falsies, just BB cream or sunblock as the simplest to have.

I wonder should I extend a bit more because this is just too simple. lol.

Yeah, because I've been looking at my selfies and wondering when will I dare to be bold with my looks instead of looking the same all the time.

Next up, maybe explore lip colours?  (ง ˙ω˙)ว