Happy birthday isshi-sama♪ ~ 07 Dec 2016

It's the time for me to blog about isshi's birthday once every year!

I have to work on that day so early morning I can only check out the tweets and see if Nao has mentioned about him. ♪～(´ε｀　)

I couldn't think of what else to say other than the usual birthday wish to him. [That being said cos I've not touched my Japanese for a while >_<] And I'm glad that there are Japanese fans who 'liked' my simple tweet to isshi. They wrote it better than I do! haha. But anyway, at least I've planned out and posted my old lyric to isshi on his birthday as a present to him. I'm even happier to know that this song appears to be the top of my buddy's list for my lyric writing!! (*ﾟ∀ﾟ*)☆彡

Thanks man. It's all worth that I've spent so much time on it. Although sometimes when I read back at them again, I just don't feel satisfied or happy with it.

I'm glad you like my writing so much, especially the ones I wrote for you.

I wanna write more and better ones for the upcoming year. Please give me inspiration too.

Love you guys.ヽ(*´з｀*)ﾉ

Cosmos #03 | Merry Christmas!

It's a beautiful week isn't it? We're all getting into the holiday mood and I find myself to be having such a great time looking for presents and wrapping them, despite that my wrapping skills just sucked a lot. I supposed no ones cares about that since the gift itself should be the main thing. For once I can't believe that I enjoyed this process cos getting gifts has always been a headache thing for me to do. Just last week I was cracking my head over what to get for my co-workers and my manager so that it'll be a good impression to them. I guessed it's about spotting the right item at the right moment so it relieved the headache that I thought I would have lol. Somehow this has became a silent practice where we don't say it verbally that we're gonna get presents for each other but everyone just do it. Well, that's how it works when you're in the working world isn't it? Luckily the other departments didn't get me a thing cos I didn't get a thing for them either so I can save my money. hahaha.

So here comes the presents that I've received and bought.

^ I like that mug with the bear a lot! I bought cups for all my co-workers with the hand cream below. I'm really happy now cos finally I received a cup as a present! It was something that has bothered me early this year. Now this has came true. lol.

^ I bought the Etude house promo set and shampoo from the hair salon that I've been visiting regularly. The present I got for myself would be signing up a scalp treatment package at the salon in which I'm pampering myself so much for the first time!! (^ε^)-☆!! I have never cared my hair so much and now that I'm spending a bomb on it. But it's all worth since my scalp condition improves a lot. And I really really love the head massages that my stylist has given me. She's really awesome! It's the best hair service I have ever experience and I also can't believe I would even plan my time and travel such a long way just for it. (≧▽≦) I've never been this crazy about my hair! But for one little regret is that, my zits have been appearing!! I just can't spread my attention to all parts of my body. I feel like I can only do one at a time. xD Gradually, I have been using lesser of my facial and eye masks because I have to do so much for my hair. Then when the zits appeared it came to me that hey I haven't been caring for my skin lately because I'm so focused on my hair!! Why!! I just can't do both at the same time since it'll take up so much time! Why can't I do so?? (ﾉ*'ω'*)ﾉ彡┻━┻

And I have been really bad at remembering things lately I forget about what I have to do the next minute. ＼(・o・)/! I must have gotten some strange disease. lol.


Here is my other happiness!! Received such a great parcel from Finland this made me happy and touched for this is my Xmas gift.  ＼(^▽^)／！ I have been sleeping with my Santa hobi so he's been really good. xD

Argh!! Gonna report about my horrible experience from using the nail polish set that my stingy friend gave. It was the most amazing type of nail polish that ever existed cos it WASTED 3 HOURS OF MY LIFE. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN SINCE IT WAS FROM YOU. ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ

JUST LOOK AT IT! IT ALL CAN BE PEELED OFF FROM MY NAILS. MY NAILS ARE FREAKING CLEAN CAN YOU EVEN BELIEVE I ACTUALLY PAINTED MY NAILS 3 HOURS FOR THIS?

After which I got laughed at by my mum who said that I just gave my nails a 'mask' therapy. (-_-) Damn, this is such a joke I've never used a nail polish that doesn't stick to your nails at all. O_O I'm so not gonna use any of the products that stingy friend gave me. Talking to her is a pain. Using the things she gave me is even more of a pain. (ー_ー)!! You know what, I haven't mentioned before so I'm gonna talk about this now.  She once told me she bought a $3 necklace [in a very happy tone] online because it is SO CHEAP! So she has to buy it FOR ME because it is SO CHEAP! She really stressed the 2 words SO CHEAP at me twice when she gave me the present. What a joke that comes from the mouth of a person who has never need to fret about money and always boast to me about her life but she spends freaking cheap things for me which the necklace even rust by itself when I didn't even wear it at all. It's really such a disrespect. The cheapest ever necklace I bought for myself at an accessories store has never ever rusted mind you. I don't need your freaking stinginess on gifts if you think as if I'm someone who can't afford buying a necklace? I can afford things for myself way better than you do and even of better quality than you can get. Go ahead and spend on your holiday trips and branded goods I don't need your pathetic money to spend on cheap things for me. I don't need your stupid analogy that I don't understand either. I'm so done with this crap omg. A rich person who can't even spend on something decent as a gift. It's so hard to understand her mind. (σ;*Д*)σ死刑！


Okay, enough of this anger in me yesterday but time wasted was really something not good and this is just so unexpected so I really need to get this off me. lol.

Anyway I finally went to eat my fried chicken this Xmas day! Although this is sinful and I just gobbled my food since I was so hungry I somehow can't believe the meal has ended when I feel I haven't have enough taste of the fried chicken. xD But heck this is so satisfying!! I ate as though I haven't had food in thousand years hahaa. But really I haven't had such fried food for a very long time. This is really a special thing to me cos I let myself eat such unhealthy stuff during holidays. hehe. 

I have a good time walking around buying things and also being home with this rain. Holiday is also awesome in this way. ╰(*´︶`*)╯

Merry Xmas to me too!

xx
Yuuka 

While cleaning...

Now that I've started off my cleaning for the new year rather than starting at the last week of December or January just before CNY comes. Well, it's not really a lot to clear since I've KonMari-ed my stuffs this year. But still there's a pile of papers and books on my shelves which poses as a bit of challenge for myself haha. Not that worrying although I always need to spend a bit more time to decide what to do with the things that are not useful to me anymore. Most of the time it's just that I can't bear to dump them all away thinking that I might need them someday in some way. But when I have the mood to be decisive enough it won't be a problem. I can really dump everything away once I feel ready to face it and having them outta my life. haha. One thing to mention yeah, I really find it therapeutic to tear papers. It's really nice to tear them up as a way of goodbye and dump them into the bin. Woo hoo!!

Yeah while I was looking up at one of the pile and saw this I've kept for way too long...

This was homework when I had back in 2003!! Aww man that was 13 years ago. How my handwriting sucks back then. Many have complimented me for it but I really didn't like my handwriting at all although it looks neat. I remembered I read somewhere that says our handwriting ages and this is so true cos I write better now and my words certainly looks more beautiful haha. Okay I wanted to put a picture of my current handwriting but I've no idea what to show so maybe next time. Anyway this was the past so there it goes to the bin as well. I'm showing this so at least I can see how much I have grown haha. ＼(^^)／

Since I'm on to talking about writing, one thing that gets quite popular lately is morning pages. In fact I tried to do so but I must say THIS IS SO NOT FOR ME! I can see their point in getting things off your mind, but I think I can jolly well do that anytime. It's just not effective for me to purposely wake up 30mins earlier and began writing for 3 pages the first thing in the morning [this is what they suggested and that's what's it about] My brain hasn't start to function the moment I wake up and it takes more than an hour for me to be able to think properly lol. I ended up forcing myself to write a page and it got me even more frustrated than I should be getting when it should be having some healing effect instead. (¬_¬) It just doesn't work for me just like what they say about mindmaps and how it helps. Damn nooooo!! It doesn't suit everyone as what you people claimed. Call me an alien or whatever, I just think most of these kind of 'methods' aren't as useful as what it seemed, and I'm not liking it at all. ⋋_⋌ Yeah, so there should be a word of caution like, not all of these will be suitable for everyone. hahaha.


Ahh this is my current love! Bought this Chia seed apple flavoured jelly and shared the other grape flavour with my friend. Wow it was my first time eating such a delicious jelly!! I didn't expect this to be so good!! I was actually getting sick of having jelly pretty soon especially I just got back to eating jelly in October cos I'm not eating it for years. As a kid I've been having that sweet stuff way too much every week that until a time I decided that I have to stop cos it's making me sick!! Now there are all sorts of jelly and especially healthy ones like this so I should give this a chance and I'm glad I done so. What a pity though since it would be better if I bought more of those. ^_^;

Lastly that I want to mention, was that I found records of spending over S$14k on my private university studies! That's for 4.5 years accumulated when I could have completed in 3 years but damn the papers are too tough for us to complete unless you are superman cos either you have to be very smart or that you are super duper hardworking without the need to sleep to be good at solving detective problems in their long ass questions that seemed almost impossible during exams. It's not that I give up on my major for no reason. I tried it last year and it has got my body screwed up for the half a year and I don't want this to happen again. It's really not easy to do work and studies at the same time. I know there are many people who told me that I shouldn't have but it seemed that they just don't understand even though I've explained my point. It's not like you have tried it out and know how's it like, and not everything would suit everyone. I don't need you to agree with me but at least don't say like as though it was my fault? Despite that I've tried and give in my best? Do you even know me well and my situation too? If it's so easy and doable, everyone could have passed and no one would give up mid-way through too. Didn't you know that there are people who gave up even way earlier than I do? You think I didn't feel the pain or pity when I was almost reaching the edge but I just couldn't touch the summit? You think I want it that way? Spending the money and having to fork out the time was no joke. It all puts a toll on me. I have enough of this before I will be completely destroyed. And it's not as though it was my interest nor dream to excel my major to be a top executive or whatever.  I don't need that unnecessary amount of stress. (¬_¬)

Really, I don't need anyone to put their opinions on me and be that rude. I know what I'm doing and I had enough of lectures, even from you around me. Whatever. A full cert doesn't determine everything and I have dreams to fulfill instead of getting stuck in this industry I dislike. Who knows in the future I don't need to be doing the same thing like now. We don't have to stuck at seeing what's only happening right now and assume it'll be the same for the future because there are just too many unexpected things already.


Argh. Had enough of such built-up anger in me already. Don't tell me what to do!!! I know what to do with my own life! I don't owe you a living you don't even need to know either!! (σ;*Д*)σ死刑！Just stop it!!

What can be wrong?

Whatever has happened yesterday and today! I'm still upset with myself now, so yeah what's the best way than to blog here right now. ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡  I'm glad I took a day off today but I was thinking since I have a break so why not cook Japanese curry that I've not done for a year already. Yeah so I cramped everything up and planned this. Was that the reason why it didn't turned out good cos subconsciously I wasn't actually ready and have the 'magic' to do so? It was really weird since I followed the same steps as before, but my food got burnt. It's definitely not nice to eat burned food and it hasn't happened for a dish that I was in fact so proud of to do for the past few times. Why does it have to happen now?  (´；Д；｀) Yeah I know it was of no point to cry over it anymore and be so upset but I don't know if I have the mood again to cook this next year or maybe I should do something else. Argh, what's more my salad yesterday turned out sour and it also wasn't on par as compared to last month's. Something is wrong with me and I have no idea why!! It's really so weird!!!

One good reason I can think of to comfort myself would probably be the lack of more than enough sleep that I should be getting. =(

Oops, right now I'm gonna continue my post from missing out a photo for Saturday's!

This is my first xmas present that I received for this year! Thanks to my dear pal for that thought although we take turns to carry the load while climbing last last week. haha. I have no idea for now if I'm able to have the time to do that music box out. It seemed a lot of work to put them together lol. But I would love to try. That's quite a meaningful gift I appreciate that. ❣

And I couldn't resist getting these notebooks of owl prints although the inner pages are just lines and nothing special but the covers just wins over my heart. lol. I'm happily buying them I don't care!! Rather than boring cover notebooks even if they're much cheaper. xD

I don't wanna flood my insta too much with this cutie since my posts are always about food and cats and other boring stuffs but okay maybe it's still food and the same cats. hahaha. (≧▽≦) I really like this blue-eyed but it ignores me mostly and that's the best photo I can take when I get to spot it. Somehow I'm poisoned or something I even have dreams of keeping a cat which brightens up my life but then there are also other bits of weird things appearing in my dreams so I don't know what's going on inside my brain. For some unknown reasons, I've been elongating my sentences I don't know when to stop with a full stop! I just keep blabbering non-stop really somebody has to stop me from getting overly excited and speaking all at once without rest. Oh yeah, maybe that's the problem. I'm not getting the rest I should have. (｡-_-｡) I have to stop at some point my dear bud U should really stop me. And from eating too much chocos!!! (ﾟOﾟ)

Cosmos #02 | Exhaustion!

This title could just sum up my condition for both weeks now. YES I'M SUPER DUPER TIRED! Firstly from work, and then from a tough work-out I did with my pal last Saturday by climbing that steep hill. I was crazy enough perhaps, but I accepted the challenge. xD It was really an awesome thing to do anyway, although I could be hurting my body since I don't usually exercise so much and then I ended up having such exercise all at once. I'm so worried my knees and ankles would hurt. Going up the slope is no kidding that it'll put too much pressure on them. Haha but since I think I'm still young [although I don't consider myself that way] I could recover from it for a few days. So I was mostly recovered and could walk fast by Wednesday. I have to say I'm crazy enough, since I expected that I would be really busy for these 2 weeks with the closing and overtime for 30mins everyday so that I can get them done by the deadline this Friday. Oh yes, I did it!!! Hooray! My co-workers and manager were glad about it! For that they can do their part only after I've done mine, so I can relax better now. Argh but this goes to show I need an extra of 2.5 hours in order to get everything done for November's workload. Now my co-worker reminds me again, there's more stuff in December and it's gonna be more tight schedule than this time so for January next year I'm so gonna be stuffed up again. Well, how could I not expect it? I just have to be prepared for more or what's gonna come that's all. (・・;)

The exhaustion isn't any joke! I haven't been that tired for a long time. I didn't feel that tired on that day itself. But the next day on Sunday it came just right at me! I knocked out right after lunch and couldn't walk any further. I slept my whole afternoon away and felt so unproductive. But it doesn't bother me that much. On Monday I hardly have the energy to move. My leg muscles are aching like mad!! It was way too aching for me to stand any longer. I badly need to sit. My walking speed was reduced quite a lot and spent more time than usual just to walk to and fro from my workplace. But I guess no one bothers since nobody asked me why I walked differently from usual. Or maybe just no one is noticing haha. I was lucky enough to have a seat to and from work on Monday, when it was the time my muscles ache the most. How did I just bear with it? lol. And also because I have to rush work, I didn't even wanna touch my language books cos I believe my brain is fried enough trying to remember all the things I have to do at work and I don't wanna think anymore when my whole body is feeling so beat from all that work-out. Yeah, so here goes my unproductive week, and also for this week maybe, haha. But since I get to rest this time I'll really be making myself do some cleaning and read my books again. Although watching videos is still the best entertainment end of the day since I don't have to stress myself and BTS always makes my day brighter with all that laughter. HAHAHA. (≧▽≦)

Yeah so now let me show some early xmas presents that I received. haha. Well they are not anything special or specifically meant for me but I'm glad I could receive something this soon. And I'm already munching on chocolates cos I couldn't resist! This season is the time to eat a lot of them without feeling guilty at all. Yay!! ヾ(*´∀｀*)ﾉ

I believe this is the limited edition LINE plushies and they are so cute together! ❧

A chocolate snacks packet that I ate them all today already. oops. xD and nice facial masks and lip balm for me.

Oh this one isn't mine at all but my friend who managed to buy this cutie sitting at the shelf which was actually the last one up there. And she decided to call it bae. hahaa. Not that creative at coming up with names for plushies it's tough to think when I'm already so exhausted. But whatever, I'm not good at Korean names yet so anything that you like! Now I'm itching to get a plushie for myself too. I need to have cute things to hug everyday. hahaha. ❥

Yes, and I will be well rested enough to fight for more.

xx
Yuuka

#26 lyric: 残花

I realised I'm in no time to post a November lyric like I wanted to! (>_<)  Luckily I had already got it done before November so in total I will still have a lyric post for each month. It was quite unexpected due to a turn in events and I ended up being into Kpop this November. lol.

But today, it's the special day of my dear isshi-sama, the one whom I will never ever forget of course, and I will be doing something for him once again.

To be honest, I'm kinda struggling as of now to come up with a lyric each month because I haven't been producing enough as compared to last year. It's hard to clear my mind with so many things going on. I need peace so that I can have a clear mind to write in the way I wanted.

I don't know if this would be called as the end to my lyric writing like Kagrra, [I certainly hope not!] but writing in their style has been a challenge for me. What I'm saying is that please don't pin on any high hopes for my future lyric writing. I will still be doing although at a slower pace and might not be in Kagrra, style anymore. I won't know for sure what's next that's gonna inspire me to write in another way which might be different? Other than what Buck-Tick does? It was already unexpected for me to find out that Buck-Tick is my style. But who knows what am I gonna come across next year and find another style of mine again. haha. But of course, it has been an enjoyable journey to began writing that much and to be in my own world. I love to see that I'm also slowly evolving as well and to maintain such a beautiful blog. Welcome to my mystery world!! Now isshi's Queen is gonna present her gift to her beloved man with much sorrow. This work of mine has been ringing in my heart for so long [been 2 years] and I've been hesitating to share. Because I was so afraid of reading it again I might tear. (T ^ T) But it has to be here someday, perhaps. So that I won't regret or anything if my notebook got lost one day. [touch wood!] Either way I'll just be very afraid but I have to choose the best option. This time I am truly prepared to let this lyric be seen by the whole world...


This is for you, isshi-sama ♥

[Inspired by Kagrra, 終焉の季節]

残花(ざんか)
How many times have I came to realise,
only to cherish when things became memories
Even smiles will hide behind

Can I believe coincidence is fate?
If everything happens for a reason we can't control,
it's still beautiful

*The wind blows strongly with no mercy
The rain falls flooding my emotions viciously
However I won't live in disappointment miserably
The warmth will always be surrounding me because you're around

Why are humans sorrow beings?
Why only happiness have to be short-lived yet attractive

How do I deserve this miracle,
knowing that I wasn't alone and crying
Even pain can be nostalgic

*The wind blows strongly with no mercy
The rain falls flooding my emotions viciously
However I won't live in disappointment miserably
The warmth will always be surrounding me because you're around

At least I felt the existence of us
is comforting
Even tears will hide behind

And now I can countdown to eternity
before all my petals fall off
~~~~~
This is our neverending love, isshi-sama.

Even if you didn't get to see this from me.

Thank U for your music and life. It has been so true to me.

I will be better year by year.

And I will certainly wish on your behalf for the better. .｡.:*♡ (๑ˇεˇ๑)•*¨*•.¸¸♪

~~Yuuka

Cosmos #01 | The beginning

Yeah! So December has arrived! One more month to go through and then moving forward to the new year of unknown challenges ahead. lol. Was I excited about this? I feel I have been going through the same set of feelings when it's the very last month of the year and there should always be something nice and better for me to look forward to for the next. And that's why I feel I should attempt to make some little changes to my life somehow, even when it probably has got nothing to do with resolutions lol.

Anyway how grateful am I right here right now, being able to sit at home with this peace and coming up with something new. (*^◯^*) I've decided to have this new set of weekly diary for this blog. I even came up with this name Cosmos, which is one of Buck-Tick's song that I just began to love. It's  that I wanna have a name for things so that I feel it's official and it truly exist. lol. Somehow things really fit in at the right time and I don't know how did all that happen. xD  I've even revived my very old twitter account meant for Kpop and I realised the name I came for it ended up to be so awesome which is a combination of my favourite Jrock and Kpop together. I'm quite a genius isn't it? (≧▽≦) To be frank I think I take long to come up with names but somehow at the very last moment I can finally come up with something I am certain of. It just strikes at me for that second and I'll just pick it. Well, it's the start for that account and also my nonsense for this weekly diary post. Summing up whatever that has happened for the week. The numbering might end up as a mess I think, since I'm starting at this time, not at the new year but whatever, I just want this to start and continue until wherever. What if I ended up too tired at a certain week and skipped posting about it? Argh really. just. whatever, I will do whatever I feel like it and somehow it will turn out great I believe.

Speaking of changes, there's quite a bit of changes happening at work too. We all find it a trouble and have to think about adapting to a new place and new processes..... This is indeed exhausting! I probably shouldn't need to tire myself out from all the thinking, since the workload from the past month has way exceeded than usual and I have to rush by the supposedly deadline before my coworker goes for holiday. Yeah I shouldn't think about it. It doesn't help at all. I should have just do all that I can and have targeted for the day and see how it goes. Everyone knows I have been doing my best. Nothing much can be helped right?? Can I say so? Because it's getting hard to think positively about work so.... (x_x)

Ah.. What else? Now that I'm kinda sleepy to clear my backlog even though I have the time today. lol. Let me do it slowly okay? Few months back I remember I chanced upon this choco corn snack which I love but it was no longer selling in Daiso. I was disappointed but at least I get to taste this from some other Jpn department store. But the packet was so small!! And now I couldn't find anymore of those. I wonder why there isn't any supply for this? Isn't chocolate a popular flavour all along? =(  But anyway, I don't snack that often so I'm not that bothered with this. ^_^;

The best thing that I've bought recently is this Aloe Vera gel but at a higher 98% which works damn well. At least now it healed my small patch of skin from using that pad. I love how it can moisturise my skin so well it's really way better than other body lotions. Now I'm not interested in getting any fragrance kind of lotion but rather this gel that cares for the skin better. If only I got to know about this product earlier I could already have attained better skin and not be lazy in applying lotions anymore. lol. Okay, maybe better late than never.

Ahh lastly, there is this Korean actor who got popular quite sometime ago. [I don't remember his name but never mind] I received this mask many months ago from a coworker though. Took me this long to realise its presence. lol. I'm not sure if this mask is awesome to use or not and whether it leaves a better effect than other masks for it was more expensive that usual mask but let me see when I have the mood to try it on someday. At least I put that handsome face here on my blog hahaha. This one is good since I love flowers. But not that I will really use on a Thursday for it to work well, will I? xD

Since I'm feeling kinda bored without much mood, I know it's time for me to get back to reading. I did do so last week! Since I had a longer weekend. I'm satisfied when I gain something from a book. Although sometimes I feel I need to empty my mind to think better for many other stuffs. Time for me to get all sorted out cos I'm still halfway through in clearing those nasty papers on my book shelf. I wonder why it is endless. -_-

Good gracious for the long post. I hope after my mind gets sorted out I'm able to post more interesting stuffs.

Let's look forward to more.

xx
Yuuka 

Being ready for 2017☆*.+

Reading about this blog post makes me think about my future again. lol.

That blogger did make a good point. It's about appreciating and enjoying how great life is right now, while still yearning for a better future.

But I'm kinda struggling in following exactly how he suggested. As below~:

Ambitious: Being ambitious now to set three goals to achieve what I want in the next three months? [It seemed like completing one in one month but I can't grasp if that time frame is enough for me, cos it's definitely too rushing for me! I wanna take my time at things because I just can't learn that fast anymore (┯_┯)]

Grateful: Three things that I'm grateful every day? That is simple, since I already have a gratitude post. But mainly 3 things everyday would be:
● being in good health
● able to eat what I want
● have my own entertainment - listening to music or watching funny shows to cheer myself up


Which do I lean towards more? Maybe gratitude cos it's easier. lol.

I know previously I struggled with whether to call it resolutions or projects but they meant the same thing to me as they are just things that I've planned to do for the next year [and into the long future] to learn and improve myself. Whatever is it gonna be, I'm gonna call it projects cos it'll sound better that way. Resolutions probably sound a little difficult to take on and they have to last the entire year. Projects are definitely a task to accomplish within a deadline. I don't even know why am I bothering to explain it here. (´-ω-`). But here comes my list and the first three shall be the top three that I wanted to achieve the most!!

1. Release at least 5 lyrics depending on my mood and not in a rush anymore
2. Really set to attain the level of basic Italian and advance Japanese this time
3. Develop a better lifestyle of indoor exercise and doing more walks
4. Have the habit of reading consistently and do my book reviews
5. Learn cooking [on my own] by starting simple
6. Also a little bit of other side entertainment and relaxation like doing my coloring book and perhaps writing short stories
7. Learn a spoken dialect

Omg this list is kind long. And there are unaccomplished ones brought forward from last year: 
✿ Complete my Kagrra quotes page
✿ Read and write more Japanese for this blog!

Struggling on whether to push myself harder or not to stress myself so much. Having a deadline is always good since it's been working for me all along. Maybe I'm a little too fast to fret over this now but before I know it, time could just fly before my eyes before I can be ready for it. Next year I'm gonna spend my time with ONLY people who are WORTH of my time. Sadly, there isn't much. So this is also good, which means I have more time for my projects to be accomplished. I really have to be more determined this time. And slowly, I'll be more certain and firm as to who I am.

Let's do our best!!!

Not-so-beautiful sunday

Ahh...what a Sunday dealing with this crappy internet connection again.  (-_-) Then I realised it must be overcrowding of the connection and that's why I couldn't use. This really sucks although I kinda got it solved. (¬_¬)

I have taken 2 days of rest from work which seemingly seemed good but I ended up meeting friends for lunch and then dinner the other day so since I was going places it's not that I have any sufficient rest either. lol. It's just a less clouded mind away from work. Sleep wise, it wasn't as good as before too, strangely. I thought I could sleep better without thinking about work since there won't be any stress, but maybe it's the weather? I have no idea since I also felt restless just last night. I got up suddenly in the middle of the night and stretched my legs hard out. My muscles felt so uneasy. I couldn't lie down in a relax manner at all. Then I thought BTS woke me up [I must have watched too much of them during the day time that I even see the wrong things. xD ] But it was such an uncomfortable feeling that I couldn't stay in place. Nothing made me feel better. I keep flipping around and stretched hard! Somehow I really wanted to break all my bones so that I'll feel better.  (｡•́︿•̀｡) Then again, even running probably won't help too, since I've used to tried it. Something is so wrong with my body now! Argh.

Anyway I just wanna rant a bit here. I AM certainly annoyed with this friend of mine now. Well although we aren't considered to be that close but we do meet often for weekday lunch and talk mostly about work related stuffs. But 3 days back when I met her she told me she envies me for having the day off. BUT she is gonna have a long 2 weeks off from work next month. I don't get it. Her sentence made me angry. Why are you envy of me when you're gonna have a longer break than I do? Isn't that an insult to my intelligence? Hey I can count! 2 weeks = 10 days without including the weekends. HOW IS 2 DAYS ANY BETTER THAN 10 FREAKING DAYS OF BREAK? If I'm gonna include the weekends, HOW IS 4 DAYS ANY BETTER THAN 14 DAYS OF BREAK? Tell me!! Wtf is your analogy?

Just because I am on a day off while you're working? What is there to envy as compared to the number of day leaves you have than mine!! ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ You have 30+ days a year while I don't even have half of yours!! ⋋_⋌

I almost can't control but not to the extent yet of telling her off. But I really don't get her mindset. She is better than me in many ways [be it work and her life] and she never have to fret about money, but yet she's the stingiest in the way she treated her friends. This made me think whether should I continue to tolerate her or not. Because she's been treating friends so miserly like they mean nothing but she only spent big bucks on herself. It's not as though she couldn't afford to spend. I don't mean she has to spend luxuriously on her friends, but at least something decent? Treating friends to a meal is a common thing isn't it? I did that all the time, most of my friends do too. But nope she never does it. Not to mention a drink. I believe she has never ever treated anyone before. She even suggest to give a packet of mixed biscuits and chocolate that I gave her as a birthday present for the other friend. WHAT?? How can you even think of that? Something so cheap as a present??? And when it's meant for you as a small treat from me. You mean I'm gonna spend my time and trip to meet our friend just to pass that cheap thing for her as a birthday present? Omg. Excuse me, I can afford to buy something decent like a bag or wallet you know. And it's for her birthday. Can you stop being so stingy? (ﾉ ○ Д ○)ﾉ

This world is just full of strange people with their kind of stupid theory that doesn't make sense and of their foolishness thinking they are always right. Suddenly I feel I had enough of people. I'm really having a hard time trying to tolerate while deep inside I really wanna smack them off. It's too hard for me to understand anymore. I'll rather sit right here spending my time reading quality stuffs instead. This anger is just a waste of time and life having to deal with them. My goodness. I'll rather talk to cats. (>ω<)

Deathnote -Light up the new world- review

Almost can't believe I haven't had my own movie review in years! xD  I guess I was probably too lazy all along to write my entire thoughts of a movie, especially since most movies don't usually have great quality content. ^_^; Well well now it's about time since I'm already done with my long-awaited favourite movie!! (^o^)

Before I watched this I have read some reviews and most gave low ratings and mentioned how bad it is compared to previous movies and even to manga/anime version. But why should you even want to compare them? I know the fact that there probably won't be another person as smart as Light anymore so I wasn't expecting those guys to outwit him and made better use of the notebooks or whatever lol. But I've been waiting so long to see how the creators made this story turn out to be so I'm still looking forward to it and not having overly high expectations like what most people have. haha.

Yeah right, many people in the show died which is really a sad thing. There is one girl at the beginning who kills anybody in the streets in which I really find that an asshole. (-_-)  Oops and there are many parts in the story in which I don't get it that I have to look up at all the rules right after watching it. Why are there only 3 Shinigamis that appeared since there are 6 notebooks on Earth? Are you telling me they each own more than a book here? How about the Russian doctor? Did he see the Shinigami and is it one of those 3? It's sad that Arma, the shinigami below also died as she 'sacrificed' herself by killing the killer Nanase since Ryuzaki didn't want Mishima to die. That part of the story made me teared since it's the most touching scene in the movie. It's really silly of her to do so. (´；Д；｀) But with her kindness and not asking Ryuzaki to use the notebook has made her as my favourite shinigami now.

There were indeed many unexpected parts and I was surprised that the supposedly new Kira guy was actually Mishima although I was already wondering about him when he first stared at a picture on the wall for some time. But he looked totally innocent! And of course, that was due to his gave-up on the notebook and therefore he has lost all the memories about it. Smart move just like Light huh. But honestly, none of their strategy is as amazing as what Light can come up with ages ago. Although I was thinking what the hell that Yuki guy was trying to do with getting all the six notebooks in his hands and it turns out that he was also searching for the new Kira guy who has done all the killings but does it makes any sense? In the end he died too, with continuing writing those names of the squard coming after them. Ahh, at least now I know the reason for all six notebooks to be on Earth since Ryuk has explained it to Mishima. Well, but is creating chaos on Earth also okay for that to happen? Is it their aim to have more people to die? What to they do with it? Are they trying to hit specific number as their targets? ←[this is my stupid guess since the death king wanted a new Kira too. lol] Hmm so maybe they wanted to create a new land with lesser people and watch how they kill each other? Yeah especially if you see Ryuk! He's the shinigami that enjoys having fun so much. lol.

Okay, so there aren't as many exciting parts but the pace can be a little fast for me to realise what's going on unless I fully understood the rules already. But overall, it's still a good show to watch and it seems that it might be another one and the story could continue since Mishima made his escape....

The most admirable person of all is still the legendary Light and no one else. Maybe along with L too since he is another genius. But such exciting moments could only exist once... (┯_┯)

Hopefully the creators can make the story develop much much better if they were to really continue this movie. I enjoyed it and wasn't disappointed with it. Just that the excitement factor isn't as great as before. (._.)

Yuuka's Rating: 4/5

How to stay motivated ─=≡Σ((( つ•̀ω•́)つ

[got this off from a book on diet plan]＼(・o・)/!

● set realistc targets
● record progress, search for tips and note down any thoughts
● remember the rewards that will come after achieving the goal
● list pros and cons related to it but still will still carry out the plan  

If it's about diet, this is not gonna be applicable to me since I've been underweight almost all of my life. lol. My current BMI is at 16.4, which is still considered low. My lowest being at the age of 13, which is at 14+! I can't believe it myself, I was way too skinny that time and I remembered this classmate who made fun of me cos of that. (,_,) But no matter how much I eat I just can't gain any weight since it's very much proven that so long as I have to use my brain a lot, all my energy just goes up to my head and so no fats will be stored in my body. It's not as though I can control this well. Now I'm struggling whether to put on any weight. I just want stronger muscles this time so that I can feel that I'm strong. haha. But girls with visible muscles are kinda unsightly. I don't know, I've not made up my mind what I wanted to be. (^_^;)


As for now, I feel I want to be healthier. It's not as though I had a really bad diet [I hardly take fried food] but because I had too much outside food I feel I need to change it. I'm also getting sick at how people cook and handle the food in such a bad way that I feel I can do better than them!  (╬ ಠ益ಠ)  At least having some home-cooked food once a week would probably be better? I don't know how should I go about doing it but I guess I should start from something simple. Somehow it was that garden/caesar salad I ate the other day that sparked the love I have for salads. In the recent years I began to be more willing to pay for salads when I'm out with my friends for food. Some of them just won't wanna eat that probably cos they think it isn't worth? Yeah the ingredients are simple and so easy to make, so why pay for it at that price? But I ended up choosing salads because I don't want a full heavy meal. The fresh raw vegetables will make my stomach feel clean and better. I don't think it's not worth so long as I get satisfied from it. And yeah, for that point → 'why not I just make it myself at home?' I can add whatever ingredients I like! And it doesn't take too much time. It's simple enough to start with. So that's how this began. I'm saying this shall be my new goal in making food at home and that's how my motivation comes. haha.

● have a favourite quote up on the wall or a picture/poster of the person whom you aspire to be to keep reminding you about it.

Honestly, I don't know if putting up a poster will work that well, cos I think I will get used to seeing it until I feel nothing. It'll probably act more like a decoration up the wall more than anything else. Now I don't even have any female posters on my wall. I don't think my eyes will open to look at it. lol. Anyway I've dump them all [which are mostly of the queen] and that doesn't even bother me at all.

But what I've learned this year [in which became my philosophy now] is.... not to waste the item's life.

If I've bought it, make full use of it. If it doesn't suit me, give it to somebody else who would probably need it better than I do. Don't keep it until it expires and to be thrown away. It's really that simple. Take it or leave it. Make the freaking right decision of my purchase. lol.

So seriously, what motivates me now? I think it can come from everywhere. Mainly if I'm very sure of what I wanted to achieve. I don't need to look up to a particular person anymore. I will be sure of myself that what I'm doing is at the best interest for myself and that's how it's gonna be. I can be a better person than I can imagine that I'll be. If anyone can do it, so can I. I will believe that and do better with all the projects I've given to myself. And so, my new year will also be this great. (^_^)

back to my own world＊*☆°♡

A little update for this week. My internet connection on my computer is always this strange and unstable, which doesn't happen on my phone at all. I'm irritated but it came back better after an hour or so that's why I can blog now. Starting this month I have been facing with rejections from my friends to meeting me. It makes me wonder am I really too free unlike them. I've always have to fit to their schedule! It's always me who have to be accommodating all the time. Until I feel I had enough of this, canceling on me one after another. If I'm not that important in your life then I guess I should do the same then. Well, what a cruel truth. Not many people treat me as important for all I know. It's just that I'm only realising this right now that I have to face it. I do have a friend who told me before in the face that friends are nothing to her but family always comes first, so that's why it's always been so hard to find a time to meet her. But why should you be like this? Out of 365 days but yet you can only find a day to meet me and no more? What a joke. Most people are like that. Or otherwise, they love to call me at the very last minute to accompany them because they know I can make it. Yeah I must be too free. It shouldn't be like this anymore. I should be the one whom you gonna make time for and hard to get to meet me. It isn't fair that how I always have to be the one who bears with so much. I'm gonna put my time into more quality use and for myself. I'm definitely gonna be a busy person than you think. Don't you ever regret for not treating me nice. If you're missing me then it's probably too late. I'm in no time for you too. You should have known when this noisy person ended up not talking to you as much as before. But whatever, seems like everyone is too busy about themselves to realise that I'm not talking to them anymore.

Well then, does this means I'm back to square one? And being back to my own world again? Wowow. Maybe this means something. I had to really work on myself and start to achieve all my goals. Just yesterday I received an email from a customer after sending a document that he wants. He was so polite enough to say "Thank you once again for your help. Have a good time with your family" which touched me so much. 。・°°・(＞_＜)・°°・。It was the first time a customer would say that to me. Normally it'll be "have a good weekend" and that is nice enough. Somehow this made me feel I should really focus on being home and everything.....


As much as I wanted to be a better person there are probably many ways and aspects to work on. Meeting friends more often and trying to be an extrovert [it initially was what I wanted to do] doesn't necessarily means that would be the right thing to do. Some things just has to happen at the right time I guess. It may or may not fit for me so I have to find the balance and what I'm happy with. I guess after all these, I'm kinda better at thinking on what I wanted to do now.

I also wanna thank that Korean customer who said that to me. It's really very nice to receive it and also made me happy at work no matter how small are the things I do. I really do deserve more than I should.

So...probably more blog posts to come? Hehehe. (≧▽≦)

Can you really smooth my skin away?

I wanted to do a little update since I have the time. I have been really satisfied with the Maikohan BB cream I bought last month. (*^◯^*) It just suits me perfectly with the nice fragrance and the powdery feel after applying onto my face. Just like the CC cream that I'm still using now. I'm really starting to love Japanese BB/CC creams cos they are the only ones that I'm satisfied with so far. It seems that I'm hardly using Korean products now but it doesn't really matter though. (-｡-;) I only care about what works for me rather than what's more popular around. haha.

My recent purchases are only these 2 items! That's kinda pathetic but I think it's best if I buy things that I really need than getting more than what I need? haha anyway I was searching for this product for a long time! I remember there is such where it can remove body hair but I just couldn't find it at the drugstore. I thought I've seen it sold somewhere before but just that I didn't make myself buy it. Now that I saw it with the video playing at Tokyu Hands I know I have to get it! It's definitely better than having to remove hair by other means like waxing right! I've even tried out the product at that time and it did removed some of those fine hairs on my arm so it should be fine right......?

Until I tried it out today, I would say better use with caution!! (┯_┯)

This stuff really works. But it's like how I use the product in the right way. It's kinda tough so to speak. Those girls in the video sample looked so relaxed and made it so easy to use, but I need so much time to remove those hairs. Yeah in circular motion. I did my best and for a moment when I suddenly feel my skin had that airy feeling [where there's no hair present there anymore] it feels scary! Then I saw some of my pores opened up, there's like a little blood oozing in one pore? Did I scrub that hard? I believe I did rather gently already. But I think I should do the entire arm since I'm already at it. Then I feel pain on one patch of my skin. I HAVE OVERSCRUBBED THE AREA WITHOUT REALISING. I will only know after I'm done with the area without seeing the hairs there. It hurts damn it!! ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ

Well it's supposed not to hurt at all when using it. When I was in the shop trying it didn't hurt at all. How would I expect this to happen while I'm at home? It's hard to figure it. If I do it with a fixed number of circles [let's say 5] the hairs will be unevenly removed. That's such a dilemma. Should I leave it or should I continue to remove some of those left behind? It's so hard! It's not as though our skin is entirely a flat surface. (ﾟOﾟ)

Okay, since I've bought it anyway I will still continue the product of course. But argh I'm still kinda scared. And sad it didn't work to my satisfaction. Nevertheless it's still pretty convenient. It isn't a permanent solution so you have to keep using it and replace the pads. Is it worth afterall? Maybe, maybe not..?

Then I got Hada labo water gel since I'm still looking for the best moisturizer for my face, but I've yet to use it. Shall review it the next time. I'm..... gonna do something about my broken skin now. Sob. (ó﹏ò｡)

Reflections for 2016☆

Yeah here comes towards the end of this year and I wanted to have an overview of what has happened for this entire year and see how much I've done so far. To be frank I wasn't totally satisfied, and perhaps I think I didn't do as well as much as I wanted to. It could sum up to be a kinda ordinary boring year to go through but if I were to compare to the past years I think this time I did better things for myself. At least I get what I want to do and became more organised now and more certain of myself. This is a pretty good improvement to have, personally. I know I didn't put on much thought on my life and everything throughout all these years, until this year I feel I have to get moving! I'm still learning slowly bit by bit though. And nothing beats having to be contented and also to have goals and improve all the time. That's what I'm gonna do. Noting all of them down feels really good too. That's how things should go for me → always good! ٩(๑´3｀๑)۶

I know I'm kind early for this post but I'm already itching to get this all out. Because December might be the busiest time and it's more like a time for me to start preparing for resolutions and stuffs for next year. So for now, I've done what I could so let's see how much it has been this far:

Fandom
♥ left the fan group and feeling free from being the queen's fan ✓
♥ New group/band that I got introduced to:
♪ Kpop → BTS - Save me
♪ Jrock → Soft Ballet / minus - Sand lowe / No.5
♥ Stop Pause Kagrra for a moment cos I've got into Buck-Tick a lot for my lyrics and so some feeling is missing *guilty*

Leisure
✿ trying to start proper online course for an European language [Dutch at first, then Italian] but then fail to keep up with it. (,_,)  
✿ started colouring to destress but also failed to continue
✿ still learning slowly at my pace for Japanese
♥ done few book reviews which goes good. ✓
♥ lyric writing that is just on time for the month's release. So I didn't get to write a lot but at least I can keep up with it. ✓
♥ still watching animes and doing reviews but really at my pace [only wanna watch quality ones] since I've watched much lesser this time compared to last year.  (ง ˙ω˙)ว
♥ getting better at drinking beer xD 

Best times
♥ accompany my friends to catch pokemons
♥ wore yukata for the first time ✓
♥ visited interesting places like cat cafe and musical box museum for the first time ✓

Lifestyle
♥ implemented Kon Mari method into my life → cleared stuffs, more organised and free ✓
♥ learning to focus on myself more, especially on self-worth. Nothing is bad about being single.✓
✿ thinking about independence...

Skincare
♥ learned to trim my eyebrows on my own ✓
✿ got myself tanned in March cos I have been in the sun for too long [not that I wanted to]
✿ will still have a little hormonal change when the time of the month comes

Haircare
✿ have that 3 strands of white hair still here and getting more forgetful [I always have to write things down] (・_・)
✿ taking good care of my scalp and heading to the salon ✓

School/work
✿ Stop continuing my major → because the whole 6 months of study last year has seriously ruined my sleep and health altogether. I need to adjust them back (´；Д；｀)
✿ ended work late at the start of the year but towards the next half I'm better at managing them and can leave on time
♥ received praises so I'm getting confident at work that I'm careful ✓
✿ waiting for pay raise and rethink about my future there.

Health
✿ having pains at times → probably including heart pains too (,_,)
✿ feeling hungry most of the time and also nausea, stomachache for no reason?
♥ tried and accepted ginger tea in my life! ✓

Feelings
✿ missing Shua since January, and not wanting him to leave at anytime of my life.   (T ^ T)
✿ Experienced mood changes [probably a lot] and struggling to have inspiration for writing
✿ became calm now when faced with something unpleasant and even bumping into bloggers/celebrities
✿ being irritated by people at work and with a particular friend so I'm still struggling on how to deal with people
♥ have learned to feel good and comfortable with myself. Nothing is wrong with me. I am beautiful and great just the way I am. ✓
✿ Probably cried a lot over guys I like secretly (｡-_-｡)


Well then, there's probably quite a good number of ticks up there which I'm satisfied with as being an achievement for me. hehe. But of course, in June there's a few in which I didn't do what I wanted and I don't think I need to mention it here again. (^_^;) Cos anyway, they'll be my resolutions brought forward to next year then! hahaha. ＼(~o~)／ Having been able to put up this much of stuffs I'm really happy to see what I've done and that makes me feel good. Next on to resolutions!! The hard part is to be able to keep up with them to last for the whole year. But nevertheless, I can do it!! I'm excited what next year will bring. (⌒‐⌒)

Let's get ready for the new year soon!

Planning for the next...

Ahh... Now it's already November! A new month to be happy about! (^_^)

I remember how busy I've made myself to be in October, going out every weekends that I became so worn out. I haven't got the mood to do anything else efficient like learning languages as always. Yeah, I just wanted to clear my mind if I have to put it in a nice way. To distract myself from something else. (┯_┯) Well then it's not really bothering me anymore and for now I'm just too tired to bother about things that made me unhappy. I'm well rested for this weekend having enough sleep and nap [finally] and so I can say that my mind is clear now. lol. Yeah I've also cleared some unwanted stuffs again but there's always things for me to clear. （・□・；） It's endless somehow but I like that I can do something like this to sort of de-stress. haha.

Now it's also the time for me to start thinking of plans for the next year! I'm glad I can find a planner from Daiso because every year I just couldn't see them on the shelves! The last I had was in 2013, which is really a very nice book thick enough for me to write loads of stuffs. It's more like a diary to me in fact. While this time, the monthly view for 2017 planner although thin, has a pretty good layout for me to plan my stuffs. Since they start off with October, I'm gonna go ahead and start writing for this month's! It's going good so far, and I hope my resolutions/projects will all fall into place nicely. I know I've already gotten one too early last month too, but I'll let that be my diary book I guess. And for now, it's time to be motivated again! ╰(*´︶`*)╯

I've gotten myself a wooden hairbrush and I'm so happy that Daiso has it! I was watching a haircare video on youtube and wondering if I can ever find one. There it appeared just at the right time for me! As my goal this year is to take better care of my hair, I'm really into finding the right tools for it. (^o^)  It brushes really gentle and unlike the current plastic one that I've always been using which will kinda scrub my scalp as I comb my hair. This one makes me feel it's giving my scalp a gentle massage and it totally won't hurt at all. Ahh... I feel so fortunate right now. lol.

What I've been doing consistently right now:
● blow dry my hair in the correct manner
● applying scalp spray every night after shower
● followed by a scalp massage and apply hair oil after that

I'm sooooo into getting my hair healthy and hopefully when I visit the salon for the next few times, my condition will be good enough that I can do other stuffs to it, like dying into a new color! I guess I'm kinda back to wanting this feeling of having a refresh hair and being young. Oops haha. Anyway, the stylist commented that I have a lot of baby hair and I wonder is it due to the effects from using the hair tonic previously? Well then I have no idea is this good or not and it seems that I probably have to find out more about hair and stuff cos I'm lacking so much knowledge in this. (^_^;) I really wish my hair fall would reduce cos they have been saying they saw a lot of hairfalls from me when they washed my hair. (>_<) It's been like this so I really need to get it improved soon. 

Alright, since my internet is playing with me again, next time I shall blog about my skincare updates.


Lastly, this is just a new accessory for my phone which I feel badly needs one. I've lost my guitar ear plug so this bigger one won't get lost anymore. lol.

I'm gonna start customising all my things so that I feel that they belong to me only. hehee.

What to do with the bag...?

This is the news I see about the queen on Friday's newspaper in the morning. Sure I wasn't surprised it's something bad about her once more. (・_・)

Oh yeah so she's reporting sick and therefore she has to cancel the Nagoya concert? How many times have we heard of it? I feel so sorry for the fans. Why so just because the seats couldn't get filled up and have to be cancelled cos of that? I'm also sorry to say, since I got so disappointed by the queen time after time that I can no longer trust what she says. Yeah, as much as I don't wanna talk about her anymore, that's a fact anyway. I don't wanna be talking bad about her either since I used to be her fan. But nowadays seeing her manner kinda disgust me that I really wanna shut away from her news. I don't even know what's her latest song I wouldn't wanna hear anymore too. She's too different from what I know. I don't even wanna say her name but calling her as 'the queen' instead. But I'm not even sure can she hold up to this name. She isn't doing as good as before. I don't mean in terms of popularity but as a person as well, with her life. I can't look up to her anyway so why am I giving her such a good name? Maybe for now cos I can't think of anything else.  (¬_¬)

Anyway, the reason why I'm mentioning the queen is because I have this hot pink sling bag that's with me for a year already! And I haven't even use it once! The tag remains there nicely. I just can't find a time to use it somehow. I know I can but I wasn't in the mood anyway. That was because it was last year when I get it I was still kinda 'supporting' the queen, and I remembered coming across a picture of her in black dress and carrying such a hot pink sling bag. I was trying to have a cosplay plan of her for the next year. Who knows when this year came I wasn't into her anymore and so the plan failed. I wanted to post a picture of that queen carrying the bag but I couldn't find it anymore. Google doesn't help much. It was in my phone earlier on but I guess it was deleted some time this year so I couldn't find it too. Well since fate ends what I can say? This just means it. I might have to part this bag goodbye or just use it without thinking so much. But I might hate it. I might hate myself. What a struggle.

I will get over it somehow but for the moment, let me just leave it aside still. And better plan for what's important. I've gotten rid of most things that reminds me of the queen. Although there are some remains but I hardly see them. So now.... let me calm down and rethink. How I wanna deal with all that again.

Surely, there's no reason to hate myself at all. Not at all! 

Pampering myself

Damn it took me real long enough to do a blog post when the connection has gone so bad, on and off since last week. I wonder if it's my computer problem cos it works really fine on my mobile. It's just ruining my patience cos it seems it'll take me the entire afternoon to type. (-_-) Of course I shall post one I feel is important for now. I've got a new headphones for myself! I didn't have one all along but I probably have a few earphones in fact, but earphones are making me feel disgusted as I have to place them in my ear and that just makes me uncomfortable too. Oh wait, I was feeling uncomfortable using my headphones at first and then I realised that's cos I was having my glasses on so the back of my ears hurt. lol!! But now I'm used to it already so I'm really much more satisfied with this. And it blocks out all the noise so I can enjoy music to the max! (☆∀☆)

Look, isn't it pretty? It's classy to me and I'm glad I can grab the purple one. There is even a mic for you to use so that you can talk on the phone. But not that I need though.  ♪(^ε^)-☆!

Let's come to some of the things that I've bought! Now I'm still into BB/CC creams. I'm only left with one in which I've been using for months and it makes me feeling insecure to depend on one. lol. So I've been looking out for good ones and I thought I'll try the ZA CC cream this time. I used to have the CC cream-to-powder stick which is pretty cool but it just runs out fast. This CC cream somehow feels a little oily so not that I'll like it. Effect wise is kinda ordinary. Usable of course and it didn't feel that bad. As long as it doesn't break me out it's considered good I guess.

As for the new SANA BB cream I haven't started using yet I hope it works well and of better texture for my skin too! I guess maybe afterall I'm still more impressed with Japanese cosmetics. haha.

Now on to something serious. I'm really splurging on my hair! On my scalp to be specific. My hair condition is pretty bad because of my scalp anyway. It has always been oily and that's something that has been bothering me for a long time. And no matter how I tried to wash and style it just doesn't end up nicely as what the stylist did! I'm so angry at myself on one point. But anyway, the stylist that did treatment to my scalp and hair yesterday was saying my hair is considered a lot but just that because they are thin that's why they seem less, and light. Okay, I'm pretty relieved to hear that. lol. But still, it's not that good after all. I can't do any heat styling or dyeing my hair for now, although she didn't say that. I know I should focus on my scalp at this point. I need them to be healthy!! (>_<)

What I like about that salon is that she'll show me how my scalp looks like using a device and I can see how bad they are, Oh gosh, really so much dead skin and those oil surrounding the hair. Some parts are kinda red which means it's kinda sensitive. It's pretty disgusting.  （・□・；）But after the treatment, they really looked much better and cleaner I was so impressed! Hehe and of course, with that awesome head massage I haven't had for a long time I enjoyed that session totally. What's more their service is the best that I've ever came across. I didn't think I would actually do that since it's been hard for me to find a good salon to stick to. All of the services are kinda bad and they don't seem to really take the time to look properly at my hair and tell me what's good or bad. Every different person said a different thing and I'm tired of hearing it. Especially when usually they go against my wishes. They just wanna do the opposite as what I've said! And who is right?  It's probably all just their own opinion on what they wanna style/cut for their customer that day. That's the conclusion I can come up with. (｡-_-｡)

Anyway bought the scalp spray from the salon and I have to be diligent and apply that product everyday for months and see if my scalp condition improves. Yes I'm gonna do it!! I don't need to care about the money for now since my hair problem has always been something that I wanna resolve. Plus I wanna pamper myself in a way from work. This is surely the best way! And also, not to forget that this was my resolution to take better care of my hair this year!! I'm gonna achieve it! (^_-)☆


I just hope it'll turn out to be better than using the tonic previously when I started in January. And now that November is coming, this year is almost coming to an end. Time to start planning new stuffs again and be motivated once more. There's so much to think all over again!

Things should always get better and better.

#25 lyric: Nowhere

Somehow I can't wait to post this lyric although November hasn't yet come. I wanna release this latest work of mine cos I feel like it! I mean it's a reflect of my current state feelings so I wanna get it out all to feel better. Man this was fast! I didn't expect this either. I'm definitely back to square one now and not hoping for more. I'm currently just enjoying my time with friends whom are true so I wanna cherish them well. I'm no longer in the condition to think of anything else. I just want my life to be in good order. And also to be ready for the next year and start thinking of new plans if possible. I need to get myself back all good. (o・・o)/

With that, the song I was inspired by is a 'death' song that I deemed it to be some time ago. Cos since I've teared and cried quite a bit too for that week.... (´；Д；｀)

[Inspired by BUCK-TICK NOT FOUND]

Nowhere (いない)
Filthy ashes fluttering as my tears fall
I died along with your disinclination
Trapped in a hazy maze,
I didn't know where to walk from here

The heart of mine that has went missing
Searching for you whom
were never once here at all

*Disappearance, spoke louder than my fears that won't fly away

Your lies that has left me the only one counting
questioning my presence as though it was a joke to begin with
Will I have the courage to face it again?

The dream of mine that has went missing
Searching for you whom
were never once here at all

*Disappearance, spoke louder than my fears that won't fly away

*Disappearance, break me apart more than how I can scream away

*Captivating, was how my life has ended even if I'm laying beside you

*Captivating, was how my pain has turned into scars I can never erased

*Disappearance, even when you dig deeper and found none... 
~~~~~
This person is probably dead in me.

When time would tell everything...

and me having to stop being foolish on my part. 

~~Yuuka

My day at musical box museum

This happened 2 weeks back but somehow I'm almost forgetting the details of it. lol.

I had a really enjoyable time out that day with my dear friend cos this was an unexpected find. We weren't intending to go for this cos initially I even thought the temple was being converted into a cafe and museum out of nowhere? Glad that the person-in-charge saw us and introduced the tour to us and told us quite a lot of stories. All that ancient music is pleasing to my ears. It's absolutely cool to be seeing antiques of centuries old before my eyes in such good condition. Although there are a few that cannot be played anymore. But looking and listening at each of them do made me appreciate musical boxes more. ╰(*´︶`*)╯

When their works got better and they can make a list of 8 songs in one musical box. It's how the cylinder moves a bit to the right [if I'm not wrong] and ta-da! the next song is playing. But of course, just that you can't choose which song you want. It can only be played in the order listed.

All the different cylinders with the spikes....How did people back then have such a talent to create them!! （＞０＜）／

Some looks like a grandfather clock to me.

And lastly, they also have the gramophone that can even do recording! That's how HMV came about. [Sadly, the music cd store is no longer here anymore.]

Realised I couldn't write much for the other pictures since I couldn't remember what the each of them are. lol. Let me just include my videos here for memories sake. Hehe.










I know I could have filmed more videos or even at every single one that was played but it's kinda tiring. Besides I wanna appreciate the thing itself by focusing on it when I was there. Well, they're all awesome anyway. I hope they'll still remain there for as long as they could. I heard it was just opened at the start of this year. I wonder could they be able to sustain since they're not some profit organisation. I like that they also sell musical boxes but that's more like a gift I would get for someone rather than myself. So....I hope I have a chance to go back there again and maybe buy one? I already have muscial boxes with me since I was a kid. Not that I play them often though. haha. But I do hope until now there will be more people who appreciate such relaxing music as well.

I love my Saturdays~!